After a week washout and analysis of my past 4 years at subclub its time to pursue Embodiment. Ive spent the last 4 years in self-construction. Building, pushing, fixing, climbing with no end. Ive chasing one issue to another trying to fix myself never stopping to take a look at whats changed, to see if im different and not who I used to be. I was running so hard away from the old, past self that I couldn’t stand anymore.
Now its time for a season of Stabilization → Consolidation–> Integration → Embodiment.
After days of introspection and analysis with AI using my old journals ect I was reccomended two subs. One sub I was already planning on using which is Peace main title. The other, the AI would not stop pushing at #1. It ranked every sub in the store and no matter what I said, what I preferred over its pick it would not change its mind. I honestly had to laugh. Apparently ive been on a 4 year pattern and need to pivot. Im going to my best to change the rigidity, the constant need to make a project or experiment out of everything. To give myself room and not make my life a series problems to fix over time. To give me myself back and to live as just me in all scenarios not changing to fit whatever theme is going on at the moment.
AI went hard to reccomend/push me into Emperor: Reforged. I honestly didnt give it much thought and to be honest I dont ‘feel’ a pull towards it. But apparently thats because this title doesnt offer the traditional “Build” architecture that ive been chasing in all my past stacks, it does not follow the self-construction theme ive been stuck on. It offers exactly what ive been neglecting, Embodiment of self. So Im willing to give this uncomfortable stack a try. I say uncomfortable because its not the usual way I operate and thats the point.
I will be starting with Peace solo for a few weeks. I’m no longer going to inundate myself with excessive scripting nor tackle multiple goals simultaneously. I’ll add Reforged once I get a handle on Peace. This is the time for dropping the intensity, supporting myself, prioritizing what matters and integrating the last 4 years lessons.
Today I’ll start peace at 5 seconds and let it be.