Listened to 1 min Khan ST2 loop this morning and then 1 minute loop of both Paragon (to recover faster from my light cold) and LotS.
I can feel the social reassurance and confidence building up already as I can approach strangers definitely more easily.
After playing with LotS I had the urge to start a brand-new Instagram account to document my physical transformation.
Also when I look into the mirror I see a better looking man.
Even though I got a cold the last 2 days, I still managed to act effortlessly and with an increasing and quite unexpected extrovertion.
I finally find myself interacting spontaneously in a very social manner outside of the work at the gym. In fact, the outside world is becoming my social playground as it’s at work.
However, I got negative thoughts popping up but with the self-reassurance of saying them “Adios” for good. And as soon as I act on something they started to fade away.
And No…I’m not becoming an a**h*le in the meantime.
Khan ST2 is starting to kick my a*s.
Lower mood, sub-hopping thoughts, negative thoughts and emotions emerging from my old Self.
Thank God I started using AoH to minimize the recon symptoms.
However, I don’t think Khan is a good choice to be played with when there’s an Holiday season around the corner because it requires you take relentless action when you just want to slow down and chill for few days.
That’s why I’m not feeling as good as the previous weeks when I was busier than usual with my jobs.
Live & Learn
Played 3 min. microloops of Khan ST2 + AoH + LotS this morning and I think I’m getting closer to my sweet spot.
No recon so far and I feel energized while enjoying more the time-off. I played Snooker online (the last time it was several months ago) and enjoyed more listening to my favorite music.
Physically shifting-wise I started to feel some pressure on my skull after I played LotS and my muscles are getting harder, even though I had to stop my workout routine since 2 weeks due to health issues (which I took care of with Paragon, in the meantime).
AoH is starting to reconnect me with the light/fun/entertaining side of life that I seriously neglected for a long time.
So AoH is another keeper for at least 3 cycles (the current one is included).
In other news, I got 2 more Personal Training clients out of the blue with 0 effort on my part. Also the amount of attractive girls/women are increasing all of a sudden at the main gym where I work.
It looks like I’m playing with a crazy cheat code.
The current stack is making me question why I’m running it in first place.
Why do I want to become socially and sexually powerfully dominant? Is that to seek external validation to show off or brag about the next conquests? Is that to hide from some inferiority complex or to cover some past trauma?
Am I running it to feed my Ego or because I deeply want to overcome my limits/limitations? If I’m running it to overcome my limitations, then is there a better title to do that?
Why do I want to change my whole physical appearance? Lack of self-love and self-acceptance or because I want to prove something to others? Once again, isn’t it another mask for seeking the external validation which I can’t provide enough for myself right now?
Also, am I unconsciously seeking to be sexually free/liberated and probably don’t care about the whole power dynamics at all but to inflate my Ego?
If yes, then I only need to do a tabula rasa of my weaknesses and limits without going through the ST2, ST3, ST4 programming phase.
From there I can build something truly authentic and tailored to my deepest nature, which isn’t driven by egoic power dynamics.
At the end it always boil down to Freedom, satisfaction, inner and outer joy.
If not, I will keep chasing external things in order to cover something which is still lacking inside.
Money, power, women aren’t going to fix those inner things, I guess.
Another thing I would like to expose is all the contradicting thoughts, behaviors, actions and different attitudes I brought since a long time in many similar cycles.
There’s seem to be a deep cognitive dissonance still lingering in the background which then explodes from time to time in order to manifest polar opposite sides.
If not why do I fee the urge to change my stacks so many times in order to reach so many objectives in a very limited time frame?
It looks like I would benefit greatly with sticking to Total Breakdown + AoH + Alchemist:Singularity
One of the greatest results I’ve been getting from Khan is losing interest in external validation and finding the deep well of internal motivation within me. Not just getting things to get them. Not just getting things because I want them. But getting things because I understand what will truly make me happy, and realizing I can have ANYTHING i want.
@Jouissance Until there’s a need to share your results in a public forum where every post can be liked, then the external validation seeking behavior is still there.
Facing the worst recon in many weeks. I didn’t expect to end the year in this miserable and depressed mood.
Not good at all.
Where’s Art of Happiness when you need it the most? I’m trying to see my situation in a positive way but it doesn’t work.
While I was listening to my favorite music I cannot found the usual joy.
Another year…another pretty depressing end of the Year…
Feeling better today but I’m still in lower mood than the previous weeks.
If I recall it correctly, I started to get diminishing results when I introduced LotS into the stack.
The same thing happened when I paired LotS to my Genesis solo run.
There’s something in LotS which is slowing down everything else.
Maybe I should use restart with 30s microloops and increase the exposure by just 30s every week, instead of every listening day.
So I can still get physical shifting results without slowing down so much the overall growth in other areas.
Experimented with additional 30 sec microloops to neutralize/lower the recon symptoms and it worked fortunately.
I’m recovering to my newer self instead of the old version of the last 2-3 days.
A little reinforcement can do wonders. However it has to be very light exposure-wise.
I’m getting closer to my best listening pattern where I feel great and cool manifestations are occurring in a matter of hours, so recon is virtually non-existent.
High frequency of microloops played daily is the answer.
The least amount of listening time daily is enough to reinforce more and more the script.
So it seems like the effect you get with a powerful daily remainder.
The least amount of subconscious stimulation is enough to create a snowball effect.
The only requirement I keep experiencing is to have a strong enough social outlet to express the script. If not, the risk of getting directly to recon city is pretty high.
However becoming true dominantly and powerfully social (so the sexual dominance can be its strongest side-effect) is the only path of a Khan.
I’m not seeing any results from LotS and AoH, to be honest, even though I’m playing them following the recommended pattern. Maybe Khan ST2 is overpowering everything else…Anyway, if there is small progress, they are way too slow and not worth the listening time.
Maybe I should try with full loops because with microloops I get some results with ST2 but not with the other 2.
So microloops with ST2 and full loops with the other 2.
I just re-read the first half of this journal and the best results I got were from playing TB compared to ST2. So there’s something in ST2 that doesn’t align with my true essence.
To be brutally honest, I don’t give a f*ck to conquer the world with sexual dominance while overpowering others. That’s my Ego speaking out of fear of losing itself.
What I crave is to annihilate everything that stands in the way of becoming the best version of myself.
Once again, I think TB is the answer.
Let’s see if destroying all the limitations is the key to making everything else work and naturally unlocking the results I’m looking for in the other titles, as I experienced in the last weeks of 2024.
5 min TB + 5 min AoH 
In my experience, crazy unexpected recon symptoms mean only one thing: a huge breakthrough is near the corner.
TB + AoH are kickin’ my a*s for real.
You don’t understand their power until you substantially increase the listening time.
I guess the ultimate test to see if you are ready to play ST2 is to try if you can handle full loops with low recon.
So I won’t play Khan ST2 until I manage to listen to TB in full loop mode with minimal suffering involved.
You feel like AoH has a lot of recon as well?
@Jouissance Yes, I think a lot of recon comes from AoH aswell because the suffering I’m experiencing isn’t even close to the one I had while playing TB solo.
For comparison, TB solo was a walk in the park and now at times this stack looks like a walk on burning coals.
AoH seems like an innocent title but it’s super powerful in its own way.
Another cycle done
To recap briefly the results I got from Khan+LotS+AoH:
Plus:
lmaoooo good on you man great results
Thanks to Khan which is ultimate cheat code if you have a social work/job/business