The full loop idea came as part of my inner guidance, not from my ego.
Also because I had 4 days off work to just relax and process.
So far, 3 rest days have passed since the full loop.
Today is the 4th day.
I can still feel it processing.
There was some recon on the first 2 rest days, but nothing intense like what happened with those first 3 and 4 minute loops.
The ride has been much smoother now.
I can feel the Inner Spa working with the Inner Child part of me (the part that needs the most healing), telling it that it doesn’t need to be afraid of life anymore and that all the experienced stress can now be released for good.
At this point, I am 100% convinced that overcoming life’s challenges all comes down to having maximum possible resilience and a maximum strong nervous system. Everything else, like discipline, is based on these.
I can also feel my nervous system releasing tension, especially in my fingers. It is a physical effect and different from the KHAN Black 1 meridian clearing (I think I already mentioned this before).
I am also releasing accumulated stress patterns that my mirror neurons picked up from my parents. They went through a lot of stress in life and my nervous system copied a lot of their behaviors and reactions when I was young.
I feel like that regeneration and “becoming fully operational” has now priority within me. It really feels like the dragon sleeping and healing before going into a new battle.
A lot of walking outside and a lot of sleeping.
Rewatching the Star Trek movies since you posted that picture of Captain Kirk in the WANTED thread lol.
I made a list of all the girls who have ever rejected me. Looking back, 9 of out 10 girls I only found attractive because my Inner Child wanted something from them, and not because they were compatible with me in the first place. So a lot of bullets dodged here and those girls actually did me a favor from a higher perspective.
Something spiritual...
I wanted to go back into astral traveling, which often has been my personal “Inner Spa” and escapism from the annoying grind of physical life.
But my adult inner voice was saying that I have all the time in the world and just should make the best out of this challenge.
My adult self knows that I am an immortal soul, yet my Inner Child was still somehow afraid of this physical experience – not because it is afraid to die, but because it is afraid of having to endure pain.
I have a strong deep seated association of physical incarnation with pain and that has been a major road block for me for many decades.
During the last loop of RoS a several weeks ago, I had to reconcile all the possible ways of how my parallel incarnations’ physical bodies had to die because of natural causes (diseases, falling down from somewhere, getting killed by wild animals, starving of hunger, freezing to death, running out of water, dying in a swamp etc.).
It felt like I have taken on the task of doing this reconciliation work for my other selves, because right here and right now in this incarnation I have the tools (ZP) to do so and on some higher level I decided to utilize that opportunity and do cross-incarnational healing for my whole being.
Because it is not just about “me here” but also about my goals on a Higher Self level.
I have reached a level where I can no longer live my incarnation “egoistically” with just focussing on “me here” but to live it as if I am part of a bigger incarnational network.
Where I am not simply an independent character experiencing an independent incarnation, but where I also take on tasks that my Higher Self assigns to me for our own collective good.
So with that, this “me here” part has to take on the responsibility for this too. It is a process of spiritual maturation and becoming an “adult soul” that has to do what is necessary for my other selves too.
In most cases, for now, this responsibility is of the type of simply co-reconciling issues for my other selves as I am reconciling them for myself here.
This RoS recon was a painful experience but goes hand in hand with the reason of why my Inner Child in this incarnation (and the Inner Children from those other incarnations) was so afraid of actually living physical life and having to face all that pain again.
The shelter of Regeneration helps the Inner Child to face everything and find new courage for life and adventure again.
The main lesson here is that whatever new pain may come along the way for the Inner Child, it can be sure now, that it can always go back into “Inner Spa mode” and regenerate and heal from everything again.
Something spiritual 2...
My physical body will last max 120 years (200 years with AI tech and Crispr progress maybe), and I am coming to peace that I cannot reach every goal and experience everything that I might want to do and experience while being here.
Regeneration helps me to resolve action-taking-paralysis that resulted from “oh no, I don’t have enough time in the first place, so I can very well just give up”.
I alreasy know that it is “okay to not achieve every goal”, however this paralysis is ingrained into me on a nervous system level.
And now, Regeneration is helping me to finally implement what I mentally already know at the nervous system level.
Because it is not enough to mentally know something, in the physical world, the nervous system has to be aligned to this knowledge too!
I realized that this is one of the main reasons why the immortality experience from astral traveling is not sufficient for also being able to feel immortal on the physical level, because the astral experiences are stored in the energy bodies and meridians while the physical nervous system remains mostly untouched during astral projection and/or takes a very long time to catch up.
So, all the experiences one makes on the astral still need to be somehow implemented into the physical (nervous system, brain wiring) when returning back into the body.
It seems that Regeneration “opens up” the physical nervous system to those higher experiences and allows them to implement them as “real” physical experiences. It helps the nervous system to catch up with the knowledge of the mind and stop resisting that knowledge. Bringing down [insert any sephirot here] into Malkuth.
At the end of the day, the nervous system acts as the “phenotype” of what is really expressed and experienced in the physical. So it is not enough “to know”, not even enough “to energetically know”, the physical nervous system has to be alligned too and will determine what of this knowing will be expressed and represented as the physical experience.
