I reacted to my supervisor over text this morning. He made a snide remark about a task I’d already done. I returned it in snide, not so subtle way.
I’m feeling and remembering old pain from being rejected, I interpreted it like that, so I basically communicated “Leave me the F alone”, without saying that directly.
I then had loads of fears imagining losing my job, as I was imagining everyone rejecting me.
However, I’ve rarely rarely gotten angry over this old trauma. I was red hot for about 30 minutes, feeling it run through me.
I tried running Regen solo today and man was it intense. Almost overwhelming. I had to spend time with my family today though and could not just be alone. So I decided to run GLM and it 100% took the intensity down to a manageable level.
I think for me running Regen solo is only doable if I can be alone, which I rarely am.
I did realize something today though. This sub works best when you don’t try to “work it out” or “figure it out”. When you don’t get in your own way. When I just let go and relax I can feel the internal spa kick in and it does what it does.
If you’re looking for self validation, self image or self love, there’s GLM and love bomb. I had an eaiser time with wanted when i was alredy working on those qualities through other scripts.
Yeah sure. I think it will help others who selected WANTED in order to sort their self esteem and find themselves at a standstill.
Not dissing New WANTED at all, it does exactly what is says on the tin, but everyone is at a different growing point and the sub may prioritise other things that won’t reflect outwards until much later on. For me, WANTED is changing my body and looks so much that my old profile picture looks rough in comparison.
Regeneration took away all the fear, trauma, self doubt and the fake bullshit I’ve learned about myself in an impossible situation and replaced it with calm and self certainty. A lot of the things we do is to avoid pain, aligned to past trauma learning. Once that’s cleared, it’s like a rebirth.
I woke up to all my pending profits wiped, October was very rough for my strategy, I’m obviously taking a small break this week after this.
Yet, with all this happening, regeneration is working overtime. I can feel the emotionnal pain and my inner voice “Why now??” Structures were working so great for the past 8 months and now it’s wacky…!
Emotionnal pain is greatly subdued also, I’m more in a mindset of taking care of myself.
If you’re trading your strategy like you’ve always been, the profits wipeout could just be an inevitable statistical event. After your break, keep with your rules and keep using proper risk management.
It’s likely not your edge that’s broken, but hiccups in the market, especially given how many months you’ve been successfully using it.
Yeah, I’m in a small drawdown, it’s just annoying when it’s like this and it takes longer for my strat to get back on track with more “average” statistics
Been feeling like this for a while now. Containing is the way to go for now. For me the problem is that i have dealt with 90% of the logically many times over, yet they are showing up for a reason…
I struggled a bit with contemplation because i tried to resolve them logically but insanity is doing the same thing etc… so for now my version of " soft contemplation " is that i don’t need to resolve anything. The current me, doesn’t at least. What the current me can do is observe and bask in the inner spa while feeling the chains of " must resolve, must go forward, must rush " loosen their grip while being ok with their absence
And to be honest. It’s scary to think about. What if i do my part yet they remain unsolved. Who’s gonna resolve and fix if i don’t? Like forgetting to lock the car and hoping that nobody breaks in.
That too demands a resolution. And for now, my answer is " it’s ok to not answer "
I will most likely not be any safer with the perfect answers as i am without. Since id surely be asking more and more questions.
Haha yeah love engulfing too, I trade them too from time to time, when they align with higher timeframe point of interest, they can be powerful signals Pinbar wick also works great.
I’ll try to calm down and breathe, I didn’t respect my rules for the last week of September and the first of October, and now the two previous weeks were slow/not super incredible.
Mental state is not ideal to trade. But I’m going to re-read my strategy, do my best to stay focus.
