Hmm, how do I explain this. I also just got off a run of singularity which has helped me unpack this within myself, but maybe not unpack it well enough to describe it to another person.
So the NSE works as described, events happen in life that move me forward. However, often times I’ve felt like my efforts and the actions that I’m taking in life are almost pointless because I’m waiting on some physical event to happen, which triggers a shift, which allows me to move forward, which finally makes the actions pay off.
Is this real or recon? Not totally sure, it’s just been a pervasive feeling on the NSE titles that I personally dislike.
In a sense it feels like my subliminal processing has moved externally into my world and life, where in the past the processing felt more internal.
On the old titles, if I was in recon, it was simple and obvious, because nothing would be happening in my life, and internally I would feel awful. Once I found a way to break through the emotions internally, the results would flow externally.
Whereas on the NSE, historically, I’ve had a HELL of a time figuring out how to actually resolve the recon. I know it’s there because life isn’t doing what I tell it to do, the dog is peeing on the floor, and people are coming at me with weird energy, but the solution, never seems obvious.
I’ve tried to resolve the recon internally, and to date, I haven’t been able to figure out how to do that on the NSE.
More often than not, the recon just kinda…vanishes eventually after enough events have happened, and the breakthroughs only have made sense long after the fact, not in the moment.
Does that make sense?
Internal vs External processing.
Personally, I preferred the internal processing approach and trusting that once I figured out my emotions, the results would flow externally.

It’s so outside of my reality.
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