Foxdie ZP Journal (Wanted + Limitless + PS)

Journals - Major Programs
#30

PS + Wanted - Day 7 (Rest)
Limitless - Day 4 (Rest)

Total Days of the cycle: 18

  1. When I look in the mirror it seems to me that the hairs on my face and eyebrows are thicker

  2. I wonder if it is right to focus on one girl or to aim for several girls at the same time. Could focusing only on goth-girl harm my relationship with her? Maybe because too much contact with a single girl I risk obsessing me and being less attractive. Instead, would focusing on more girls help me, for example, to create jealousy with goth-girl and become more emotionally detached from her and therefore more stable?
    Which of the two is better?

#31

Have several girls.
Don’t be a needy guy. Have an abundance mentality.

Speaking from experience.

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#32

Lol you know the answer :slight_smile:

Think like an entrepreneur. You cant put all your hopes and effort on one single client. Especially if that client hasn’t signed with you yet. You need to pursue several leads at the same time, until one of them get strongly interested.

you have been thinking about her with no progress for a month (or more?). You should work on finding other girls and tell yourself that you may end up at some point with goth-girl but not now.
Put your energy outside of her, you havent fucked her yet, you should force yourself to let her go and focus on something else. If she wanted you it would be done by now. Force yourself to let her go or to move her outside of your priorities.

Good Luck :slight_smile:

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#33

She is being polite she is not interested in you sexually.

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#34

You do not need to change your personality in order to attract a girl. You are good enough as you are. Don’t buy into her reality go and meet other girls.

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#35

When you focus too much on one girl, you will never see the rest of the world. It will pass you by while you gaze at a single point.

Edit: I’m making a mega thread to help people with stuff like this. (Open to feedback)

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#36

@magician @Psiklou @TheBoxingScientist @Ingress

Guys, thank you for your feedbacks! I will do better and upgrade my journal with the results.

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#37

Do you. If you want to focus on one girl or several that’s totally up to you. But don’t obsess and lose yourself in the process.

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#38

PS + Wanted - Day 8
Limitless - Day 4 (Rest)

Total Days of the cycle: 19

  1. I dreamed I was sitting with a girl, and sitting next to her was a big muscular man. At one point she started touching my hand with her index finger while she was talking to this man. She was suggesting that I hold her hand and in fact, fiddling with her finger, I ended up holding her hand.
    She was shaking as she talked to that man and was holding my hand and I had this doubt inside of me “is she really attracted to me holding my hand or is she attracted to this muscular man?”.
    Shortly after she disappeared and I could not find her anymore, I felt desperate that she was not there and I started looking for her everywhere, even in another place but I found sitting only a girl who looked like her, with other guys. I felt sad and abandoned.
    This dream makes me understand how I do not feel enough sometimes in fact I doubt that the girl in the dream liked me or not despite her handshake, and that I have a fear of abandonment and competition.
    Sometimes I think I project a good image initially: attractive, self-confident and without the need of others, then I have this fear that if people know me more then they will not appreciate me and that they will understand that in reality I am just a loser and a failure.

  2. I feel a moderate negative sensation in my chest, followed by many pessimistic thoughts about myself. I think I’m in recon, let’s see if tomorrow’s day off will help me recover.

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#39

PS + Wanted - Day 8 (rest)
Limitless - Day 4 (Rest)

Total Days of the cycle: 20

  1. I had dream where a girl rejected me.

  2. I woke up bad, I feel bad inside.

  3. I have decided that from now on, especially with women, I want to be myself, the same version that I am with my brother for example. I don’t care about being cool or asshole anymore, because that’s just a play to follow the standards society thinks should attract women, it doesn’t make me feel like myself and I suffer from it. Enough! I’ll just be myself, that good, introverted and nice version of me. I want girls to get attached to who I really am and I don’t care iff others are acting like assholes or cool, I’ll just be myself and I’ll make girls love me for who I really am.

  4. I have a problem with people I like, treating them a little badly or bullying them, and this is because I can’t express appreciation in them, but it will never happen again, I will be myself and tease others only if I will feel the sincere need to do so and not because I feel forced to cover something that I am afraid to express in order not to be ridiculous or because I want attention.

  5. Yesterday I brought up a lot of trauma before sleeping. I remembered times when I was not accepted, when I was marginalized, unappreciated, unloved, alone. It makes me feel better now to write it here and I sincerely accept everything that has happened to me, maybe people from my past have been cruel to me, but I accept it … truly! I cannot allow my past to define me as a person, the me of tomorrow has to be someone completely new and pure.
    I don’t blame anyone for the harm he/she did to me in the past.

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#40
  1. Today’s recon lasted me all day, from when I woke up to now, it’s absurd. I feel a constant negative sensation in my chest.
#41

PS + Wanted - Washout Day 1
Limitless - Washout Day 1

  1. I still think a lot about Goth-girl. I absolutely have to text other girls else to distract myself, because I can’t even concentrate on studying anymore. I feel jealous of thinking about her with others and I feel the weight of competition a lot. I’m in One itis.

  2. I still feel this negative and heavy feeling in my chest, I seem to notice that it triggers every time I think of goth-girl. At this point I can’t tell if it’s recon, or the fault of thinking about that girl or a combination of the two. What a nuisance …

#42

  1. I’m starting to feel incredibly good! I don’t know what happened but my mood has changed and I feel great and euphoric! Maybe my subconscious has resolved some conflict within me. I wish I always felt like this, because this is the best frame of mind to attract beautiful things in life.

  2. I texted another girl that I didn’t see from a while to divert my mind and I must say that hearing her again made me really happy.

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#43

PS + Wanted - Washshout Day 5
Limitless - Washout day 5

  1. The more I am in contact with Goth-girl, the more negativity and despair comes out of me. I understand only now that the problem is not just a concept of seduction, but a problem of self-acceptance and self-love. Being in contact with her is triggering in me every unconscious wound, need and desperation belonging to the past and to the moments of long ago when I didn’t feel enough or that I don’t feel accepted; the so-called karmic wounds.
    At this point I don’t know if it even makes sense to continue with PS and Wanted, because if the problem is a question of past unconscious trauma, focusing on seduction is not a good path, maybe I should focus more on what is called here in the Subclub forum , the “foundations”, or aim for just healing with a title like Regeneration.
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#44

Don’t be in contact with her, delete her from your Facebook, Instagram, etc. if that it is not possible, talk to more girls, or do other activities like sports, study, sleep!

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#45

Lol :smile: man you are just on one-itis. It hurts but it is not that deep. Trust us we have been there. It is normal that it hurts, that’s life :slight_smile:

Lol this. Nothing more to do. I would not be that extreme but I dont know you. Focus on other girls, get drunk I dont know, go kill yourself at the gym lifting weight. Bottom line stop contact with her.

#46

@Psiklou @magician

Maybe you guys are right, I’m exaggerating, but too often I fall into One Itis and then always sabotage myself and destroy my progress.
Anyway I get it, I’ll stay away from her for now.

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#47

It’s not exaggeration, I’ve been there. I have overcome that, using my own advice.

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#48

After the end of this 21 day cycle with PS + W + Limitless, I decided to switch stacks for a further cycle and replace Regeneration in place of PS. I felt I needed to heal something inside me that had to do with both women and people in general.
I will publish the link of this new journal here shortly, at the end of which I will return to this journal again, with PS.

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#49

here we are, the link for the new journal: