Foundations of a Strong Man

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Previously…

Cycle - Emperor + Sanguine: Elixir + Limit Destroyer

This was an experiment with major success because discovering how well limit destroyer works on unlocking subs, then led me to try Rebirth.

Before this, my washout period was a blast! I had two closely timed manifestations from Emperor which was a surprise, brutal to say the least, but necessary for growth.

Long story short, quit my 9-5 the same day one of my managers overstepped the mark entirely and there was no going back after that, so now looking for a new job but have landed an interview pretty quickly. A super toxic environment which rotted my soul so was the push I needed.

Now trying rebirth and emperor together, my views have profoundly shifted and now I understand from the recon that I have to start again, literally!

Winners do what is necessary, with no skipping steps and no shortcuts. I’ve realised how entitled I’ve been, thinking I’m special and all that crap which has led me to slower progress. I’m only 22 so starting from scratch is more than okay because I have time.

I’m happy I’m at this point because I know problems of the future will now be NEW problems instead of OLD problems that constantly fail to be resolved. Definitely a new mentality and finally breaking free from endless re-occurring cycles of misery. Failing to resolve my ‘issues’. This is a massive lesson…

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#2

This journal will mainly be for accountability, writing down results I notice so that I know I am changing, growing and getting results. Less about dwelling on the past but moving forward and building integrity as a man.

New Stack

Rebirth + God Like Masculinity + Love Bomb for Humanity

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#3

Results 1:

  • Super vivid dreams about reconnecting with friends from my past.

  • Had a lot of shifts from rebirth around relationships and connecting with people.

  • Released trauma around rejection/ abandonment from my father as a kid.

  • Overall sense of ‘I can f’ing do this’ I HAVE to do what it takes type mentality.

  • Noticing I’m slowly catching on to my terrible habit of avoiding daily tasks just so I can feel let down and disappointed in myself. (Hopefully LBFH will help resolve this too)

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Results 2:

  • Remember having more insanely vivid dreams, seems like I’m working through past experiences with people and making amends.

  • Last night I ran LBFH and today, I released an insane amount of anger towards myself (Self-hatred). Through a certain journaling technique I drilled into the root of my inability to move forward and always feel stuck. Now realising I was punishing myself for mistakes as a child so this stack was definitely the correct choice jeeez.

  • Thinking about it, how daft is it to try and build a life with a foundation of always unconsciously trying to sabotage my efforts as punishment towards myself :nauseated_face:

  • Been falling in love with the gym again and go almost every day (mostly an Emperor result)

  • Manifested a ‘masculine’ mentor who seems to fit the type of man I want to become.

  • Starting to slowly understand how my focus is off and how I’m getting distracted from what really matters.

  • Feel like I want to charge forward in life which is great.

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Results 3:

  • Noticed a great sense of peace, like a big erge towards detaching completely from my ego.

  • Realised I’ve been addicted to suffering and chaos and didn’t believe I deserved anything good.

  • Noticing how much less I care about doing my best everyday compared to when I was 18. I’m slowly remembering how I disciplined myself and built self belief and persistence.

  • Introspecting on how my driven mindset slowly eroded, especially after uni. I felt like ‘what’s the point trying so hard and getting nothing in return?’ I’ve been stuck in a cycle of trying hard, pushing through and then falling back to nothing, over and over. Small results would give me the strength to try again but then it got old I guess. I think it’s also a case of I’m less attached to the outcome so I’d rather not put myself in that position again to not go further into disappointment.

  • On the other hand, I’ve noticed how well LBFH is working now compared to last year. I wouldn’t feel much recon but now it kicks my a$$. A good sign to stick to it.

  • Overall, since rebirth, I feel different but I can’t quite put my finger on it. I feel like a completely different person in some way and it’s like I haven’t quite processed the drastic change. Part of me panics also, such big changes can be scary but I’d rather be like this than no results at all… that’s for sure.

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