St2 can be very unpredictable from what I remember. I went from smooth sailing one day to the weirdest and most bizarre dreams the next, which was then followed by insane moments of flow. Take it easy my friend on recon and adjust mindfully 
I ran it for 5 or 6 loops.
You can count every loop I did if you look back the past month or so.
I definitely think I’ll wait a few days before another round of ST2. I’m due for a washout as well, especially after giving myself overexposure for christmas (which was fun, no regrets, I can handle paragon well especially when im on vacay)
I am quite negative today, just a very low mood, but unfortunately that’s most likely due to being sick, which is most likely due to sleeping in a cold room, so I can’t say for sure what the effect of DR2 has been.
Planning for the possibility that DR is what’s messing me up, though, so I’m going slow
Some core wound thoughts are coming up.
But I’m just noticing them like a passive observer, not involved at all.
I had sex with my gf and she came in about 30 seconds, which caused me to come in 30 seconds, which is pretty much what she wanted - for us to do it at the same time.
So normally I would be fine with that because it’s literally what she wanted.
Plus I’m sick, so really who gives a flying F.
But this time I had a thought cross my mind after I came.
”wow it’s a good thing I’m with my girlfriend, I shouldn’t ever leave her, She’s the only woman I could ever satisfy while only lasting 30 seconds.”
I’ve definitely thought that for real before, that you can’t be loved or be in a relationship if you ever come quickly. But I really haven’t thought that in a long time.
I know there are still layers to be healed, but I’ve already healed almost a lot of that feeling of not being good enough if I bust quick.
(Which is what stopped me busting quick - once I realized I would be accepted even if I did bust quick, it stopped happening).
So I’m familiar with the pattern. This time, the thought didn’t seem like my own, it seemed very foreign, and it didn’t have any emotion attached to it at all.
Is DR2 bringing up wounded thoughts for me to observe more objectively?
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What does sanguine do for you? I know you don’t feel great, so no need to rush a reply. Just curious
Haven’t ran it before. Will let you know effects of sanguine. Ran a loop today.
But actually I did run a loop today and didn’t think anything of it….but you’re right, I was feeling awful earlier today!
But in the second half of the day (aka after listening to sanguine) I felt amazing.
I had a nap, bit of black tea, and listened to pAragon/sanguine and yes I do feel fantastic.
I literally forgot this morning even went badly.
So maybe that was sanguine. That’s a pretty dramatic shift in mood.
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I am 95% sure it was Sanguine. Sanguine works very well.
Honestly yeah I’m surprised at the powerful effect.
I didn’t think of it until journaling
Which is why journaling is so powerful 
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Today is Dec 31, 11pm.
Had a 4 day washout, since Dec 28th.
Happy new year every body!
On the first day of my washout I was feeling some unexpected/atypical moments of anger from DR2, but that all passed after 24 hours. Felt great ever since and had seriously the most amazing New Year’s Eve with my gf. We rented a cabi 7 hours out of town, so, it’s been a tech-free getaway
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This journal is going to sleep for a while.
I’m back to listening to EOG stage 1, as I’m back to spending the majority of my day focused on sales calls and business growth.
I had less sales calls in the December month, and I focused on introspection and the new direction I want to take my business and my soul’s purposex That was a VERY powerful manifestation of DR. Completely life altering.
I’ve noticed that on days where I run Paragon, my recovery score is exceptionally high on my Whoop (health tracker)
I got high 90%’s for recovery while sick with swollen tonsils, and I was listening to paragon regularly at that time. I should’ve had low recovery, but it was extremely high, almost my highest ever.
Then I stopped listening and recovery went low.
Then today I listened again and got a “green” recovery which I have only gotten a handful of times in the last month… almost all of those times after listening to paragon
The idea that paragon’s results are measurable on a tracker is amazing…
Of subliminals
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Paragon Sleep - 15 minutes
felt amazing, but, with only 7 hours of actual sleep, my health metrics didn’t show I was amazing.
Paragon doing it’s job to my mentality but not changing the HRV so much that it counterbalances suboptimal sleep
I remember saint saying it doesn’t really change your personality, but anyways you gotta open the pathway to manifestations.