@friday! Good to hear from you again. Hope your detox went well 
This is spot on, logically it may help to understand that the highest status thing in the world is authenticity.
You can’t be emotional reactive or concerned about status when your authentic. Personally this understanding gives me permission to just engage. And it’s way easier then worrying.
As social animals biologically attuned to status, when our brains perceives we have status-it gives us permission to be ourselfs, and when it perceives we don’t, it can inhibit us -for damage control. The irony is the a circular loop system-so by being yourself in any situation and not holding back -you’ll start to experience extremely high status.
As a conscious effort /experiment you could mess around with the following-stop looking for cues from others for how to act or what to do, even if your so sensitive and attuned you perceive something-choose to act/speak anyway. I bet your a highly calibrated person socially, even if your quite at times, and would have no concern of doing something uncalibrated if you just let it rip.
like every other human being, you probably have a concern for looking good and fitting in at times.
When your drunk the visceral experience and overflow of your self expression overrides that concern. Also you may simply feel love when your drunk to the point where you don’t need, want, or expect in from others so you stop looking for cues from others for how you can act. That’s like the switch for you to go beast mode.
You may just also get into a very logical state of mind, and might benefit from practicing turning the noggin off with stuff like improv, or some physical activity/meditation before socializing.
One random weird thing that helped me
Chew Gum-it activates the part of your brain related to speaking, so it makes it easier to go from not speaking to talking if your chewing gum
I was at this conference once. And they were taking comments from the audience, and this guy got up and was like " I don’t know what I’m going to say but it is going to be important" And he said it super confidently. My first thought was ’ this guys a dick and people are going to think this is weird’ Then there was silence, everyone laughed and then cheered like crazy and he got off stage lmao. After hearing that I realized when you just own whatever your saying it doesn’t fucking matter.
Whatever the case Dragon Reborn will help tremendously with this, I’ve been running some loops this week and I find myself more inclined and interested to speak more, care about conversations more, and be more in the flow of them, and have been talking to strangers (attractive woman) much more than usual, I’m even going out of my way to do it. This is a large departure from my general behavior on Emperor custom.
I relate to the issue your speaking about a lot in my past and I no longer have this as particular sticking point. Subs and some of the stuff above helped.So as always-when I say anything that sounds like suggestions/advicy/preachy -if something resonates great , even not please throw out!
