I can’t be the only one that goes through this. Very often I get fears like “what if this stack isn’t the answer?, what if I dedicate all this time and it doesn’t work?, what if it isn’t me?, what if something is easier or better for me?”, and so it goes.
I’ve been pretty consistent with my titles so far. But sometimes I get these urges. I try to remind myself that staying on the path is guaranteed growth and improvement. That should be prioritized over trying to maximize results with some mythical stack that in all likelihood might not even exist.
In a way it’s commitment issues. Why is it that the closer I move towards a goal or reality, the less I want it? In those moments I sit my ass down, play the sub, and don’t touch my stack because I know I’m trying to run from something.
But is it always gonna be like this? It’s exhausting having some borderline conspiracy theory level logic that plays out in my head to convince me to drop a title all the damn time.
What do you guys do to help you get through those episodes if you have them?