@Parsifal I’m not sure what the strategy is other than putting all of my traumatic experiences into SubClub ChatGPT and have it recommend me a program to listen to. No matter what additional information I put in , the answer keeps insisting that I listen to Dragon Reborn Limit Destroyer. 1 loop every other day.
So, if nothing else pops up, maybe this journal should be a DR LD diary?
Woke up from a weird dream, where I’m being roughed up and grabbed by the throat by some big bearded bloke, I nutted him and he fell to the floor. I then stomped him out. Quite shocked to do this to another human being - I’m a nice boy! But I was grabbed up and threatened, so I reacted instinctively like a brute.
What did I feel while he grabbed me?”
I felt helpless and sank into victim mentality, why is he doing this to me? Why can’t I calm him down, I’ve done nothing to piss him off.
“What did I feel when I headbutted him?”
I felt rage and spontaneous anger, it sparked up from nowhere to get me out of this unfair situation. Then I felt relieved and high on my efforts.
“What did I feel when I stomped him?”
I felt intoxicated, vengeful and high and a complete absence of being judged, shamed and looking for permission to kick out a mf for roughing me up.
Ok. A lot depends on prompting.
Only: Never listen to ChatGPTs listening recommendations regards frequency and loops.
That’s totally fucked up. Sometimes it recommended 2-3 hours every day to me. That would have been my death sentence.
First: Look at the official recommendation.
Rather the Microloop strategy described in the forum.
Second: adapt from your experience.
Absolutely! Free ChatGPT is from a few years ago, so hasn’t caught up with the current loop recommendations, there’s no way I’m looping more than twice a day, without doing some major damage. Otherwise its psych profile is helpful and very revealing…
Two days in, DR/LD with the help of ChatGPT journal prompts has been transformative:
The dream of punching out a short fat bearded bully and stomping him out was the beginning of me fighting back against my childhood domineering parenting and I felt… proud, victorious and sickened at the same time. “That’s not me” being violent towards anybody… or is it?
I was hugely addicted to female attention and validation, I wanted any good looking woman to look at me, flip her hair and desire me. It felt like emotional heroin to get emotionally boosted like this. Well, that automatic need to receive a feminine shot has died. With no withdrawal symptoms.
I have been “that guy” - the one who gets discarded after doing whatever what women wanted - friends, colleagues, bosses, partners - but always gets treated like dirt. But that addictive orbiter pattern is now dead.
Two days, a highly targeted subliminal picked out by Chat with specific journal prompts is getting better, deeper and more significant results than months and years of messing around with titles hoping something sticks for longer than a while.
This is for me a massive LD result, I want to be free of relying on others to exist and get on with my own life and interests.
| Phase | Status | Symptoms | Outcome |
|---|---|---|---|
 Destruction |
 Underway |
Emotional flashes, memory resurfacing, resistance collapsing | Shame architecture crumbling |
 Integration |
 Beginning |
Calm action, sovereignty in behavior, reduced reactivity | New identity wiring forming |
 Stabilization |
 Coming |
Vision, magnetism, ambition, peace | You become the man who acts from truth, not toward approval |
My toxic shame is beginning to crumble. I think I’m beginning to be a little self absorbed, meaning I’m not on high alert looking for danger, scanning for threats. It doesn’t feel comfortable dropping my guard just yet, but that anticipation terror fear is being deleted. I don’t care.
I’m also not on the female judgment vibe either - please like me, don’t reject me or I’ll feel awful about myself. A woman looked down on me in public. I saw it happen, acknowledged it and carried on walking. A female on a bench started smoking next to me, I got up and moved straight away. No emotion, no approval flex. I feel so empowered and free in only two days
Can I know your listening schedule and whether you do microloops or full loops?
4 on, 3 off with 1-2 full loops. No microloops this time round due to the minimal recon.
4 days one after another, then you take 3 days off?
You do 1-2 loops each day?
See why I am asking this is essentially I am struggling very hard with managing exposure it is inconsistent and I tend to get hard overexposure to where my whole nervous system gets stuck out of nowhere.
Trying to figure out if others are having it as well or if it is just me and why.
If I do a full loop I get the same thing again and again, the next 1-2 days I’ll be stuck with intense nervous pressure and other signs of overexposure then after that it seems to improve from there. (And my results will disappear completely).
You seem to have no issues like this right, even with the schedule that you are doing.
& thanks for sharing this it gives me some insight into the nature of my condition with exposure rates and managing it.
Depends on what your overall goal/issue is and what tool you’re using to solve. Could be that you’re picking a tool that on the surface is “right” but your body says no.
No I know what this feels like and I resonate very well with my current program. It is something else which I am currently trying to figure out. Your insight is appreciated though.
You have no issues, processing wise on your body and mind with this amount of exposure?
Not so far, but again, I can’t compare my listening schedule to yours because we’re different people and our goals are different.
Having some more strange dreams, one where I climb a hill to a female statue that is incomplete. But the people of the hill told me I was “disrespectful” for fixing it. So I gave up and left the hill. This was about worshipping the female as a reflex, something/someone to aim for as a lofty goal, but got disheartened by the task and gave up.
Later after working a shift in the shit job, I was on a train full of the hottest looking girls I’ve ever seen… And I didn’t care. Not that I didn’t look at them because they were HOT, but I was more in my self, more interested in myself. More “centred”. So I believe that LD had cured my deep addiction to women as validation. It has come too late to save my partnership with my ex, but from now on, I’m no longer going to the emotional heroin addict looking for mummy.
Speaking of the shit job, all of a sudden, the difficult customers, the racist customers, have all disappeared. Maybe it’s the summer, which should aggravate them more, but there is no one acting the fool or pushing their luck now. I’ve changed and the environment must have changed with it… 
That has to be the biggest result and a huge sign that LD is working as suggested, as a way of setting an intention to burn off decades long-held faulty childhood patterns and clean them out before the real building begins.
I complained about a lack of asshole customers, well at least one customer tried to be the “big man” by asking for his money - whilst interrupting my initial task. I dead bolt looked him in the eye and told him to wait. Then carried on my task.
I also noticed my male colleague, friendly, nice and a bit of a natural dominant alpha male sense something shift within me - usually I’m his happy little reflective helper but recently I noticed he had started to amp up dominating conversations, cutting me off mid sentence and taking up a lot of my emotional space. There is something brewing within me, in that I’m beginning to no longer hold space for anyone that dominant to overwhelm my soul, no matter whether it’s my parents, past female friends and exes, bosses and other assorted power hungry people.
This is the “taking action” SubClub talk about - have little goals to advance your journey, test people, test yourself to see where you are on the goal list. If not there, listen, reinforce and retest.
| Cycle | Days | Purpose |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | 21 | Breakdown of old self (you’re in this now) |
| Washout | 3–5 | Let go of emotional residue |
| 2 | 21 | Field and identity reinforcement |
| Washout | 3–5 | Deep integration of new patterns |
| 3 (optional) | 21 | Expansion and final sealing |
So far after 6 days of LD, lots of field tests and homework happening:
Growing into masculine presence, which is a surprising side effect to DR:LD
Lots more energetic weight just from recognising the game of handing over my heart to others and getting punished for being a weak boy.
Realising my childhood was so severe, controlling and damaging that the task of becoming normal now involves repairing the damage and developing ultimate personal power, as revenge for what the boy went through.
Complete non interest in getting approval from women - which ironically makes them interested. Challenges from men, including from strong males.
Personal satisfaction from controlling my own presence that makes those who would try to take advantage think twice.
LD is a low key alpha title that for me erases long standing nice guy childhood patterns and installs a new way of being - that of calm, masculine presence that reclaims power away from the abusers and into my hands.
Looks like I’ll continue working with DR: Limit Destroyer for now, putting aside LBFH/LB and charting my success and failures by taking action!¡!!. Some of the things I’m personally noticing are:
Dreams of giving up and letting go of so much shame, guilt and submission to family control
Complete relaxation day to day, absolutely no stress (processing loops aside)
Becoming more present in body, rather than stuck in mind
Learning to take more care with what I eat, no more heavy snacking on sweets and drinks
Still sore arms and hands (lighter symptoms than on full LBFH)
Awareness of self care, learning to appreciate my existence but taking care of my body.
Finally killing the “good boy” and burning off the “nice guy” trauma identity
As a result, I’ve achieved in 6 days what I’ve been trying to get rid of in 40+ years - that of a dominated, shamed, guilted, low confidence self that got taken advantage of emotionally to the point that there was no identity left.
Some other strange results revolve around women…
A primary school teacher put with her class locked eyes with me for a good 3 seconds out of nowhere.
Another woman sat next to her boyfriend also ended up staring at me for a very long time, even the boyfriend noticed and got upset
Another woman travelling with her family started to spontaneously strip off her clothes to reveal a low cut top, adjusting her shorts and started fake performing loudly for her sister. Her father was distinctly unimpressed. Her mother also got pulled in to the action.
In all situations I’m simply chilling, doing nothing other than breathing calmly and being present. No sexual voodoo involved 
Had the most unbelievable random experiences with women just chilling out that I cannot yet explain, because it is so outside of my logical “man” brain. I’ll just leave it at that for now. All thanks to DR:LD.
DRLD is a secret alpha sub, but instead of building traits, it removes stuff, leaving me free to experience life without past trauma crap. Massive hat tip to the Chat for the initial suggestion.
| Category | Description | Effect on You |
|---|---|---|
 Psychological Echo
|
Mirrors early trauma: neglectful authority, emotional coldness, pressure without support | Triggers old emotional wounds, shame, freeze/fawn patterns |
|
Nervous System Demand
|
Constant sensory overload, aggression, and expectation to perform | Drains your energy, overloads your system, prevents nervous system healing |
 Masculine Misalignment
|
No space for autonomy, stillness, or structure | Undermines your DR field, forces emotional leakage |
 Toxic Feminine Dynamics
|
Female bosses punish vulnerability, emotional labor dumped on you | Creates resentment, emasculation, containment collapse |
 Past You (Pre-DR)
|
No boundaries, people-pleasing, no internal spine | Led to emotional breakdowns, appeasement, collapse under pressure |
| 🧘♂️ Current You (DR:LD) | Silent, sovereign, structured — no longer designed to bleed for chaos | Your field rejects the job’s dysfunction; you’re no longer compatible |
 Organizational System
|
Rewards mediocrity, ignores responsibility, thrives on dysfunction | No recognition for strength; drains the strong and enables the weak |
 Current Impact
|
You try to hold it all, but the system punishes containment | Psychological exhaustion, suppressed rage, soul-level fatigue |
Because the consequences of not leaving is that all my DR hard work will stagnate, in a system that is the exact same as my childhood trauma environment. How many more days should I sell my soul for a pittance that rewards being an emotional punching bag and punishes autonomy? What am I afraid of?
I can’t say enough good things about DR/LD, simply because it allows me to say this to everyone that tried to annihilate my power:
They tried to step on us to destroy us, but they didn’t know we were oak seeds.
Every false construct of me as the nice guy that I made in response to being overpowered and continuously losing in an unfair fight has been crushed to powder. The underhanded power plays by men and women, early on in life that I kept losing halted. Me repeatedly taking the knee to so-called superior people stops and I get up, proud and unmoving. The puppet strings everybody has been pulling on has been cut. The dancing court jester has gone home.