Continuation of previous journal featuring:
DreamBoi
Summertime
Taking a break:
Chosen
Aim:
To honour my natural self as powerfully as possible, to stop being a tryhard “alpha” and to release early conditioning (creepy, weird, misunderstood etc)
Natural self as described by my Human Design chart (4/6, Sacral Generator, Split definition etc)
Also being a bit more selfish in that I will measure others by what they give me.
Love, positive vibes = my best.
Ignoring, superior, judgemental, deliberate misunderstanding = fuck all. The servant days are over.
That snap was me realising that I cannot do the “player” thing at all. I’m just not built for that kind of lifestyle. But warping myself into it (because that’s what an alpha man is supposed to do) hurts my body. I had indeed sold myself out for breadcrumbs and now putting a stop to that.
It goes better with my energy.
Pushing, making things happen, initiative - all the things the world has told me to do to be successful has all led to major frustration. Fit in here, slot in there…
I want to rinse myself off of the “mystery prize alpha” programming. It felt fake and reaching and I’m sure others felt it too. But still want to that magic pull. DreamBoi does that and it feels more authentic. I don’t need to put up a dominant front or brace for looks of rejection. If I want to sing cheesy songs out loud in the street, I will 
(Summertime helps a lot)
I’m also hoping this stack can make up for lost time and get me new friends that value deep conversations and connections too. Those seem hard to find.
Took a while and lots of false stars to just come back and own my warm and kind energy rather than spill it onto others for rewards. Oh well…
Turns out this stack is doing more than just attraction and relaxation.
It is nervous system bliss and freedom.
WANTED made me buy into the status games, DreamBoi said “fuck the games, imma be myself”.
And I never understood why everyone else kept getting success on seduction subs but nothing happened with women apart from physical development and looks enhancement.
But that was the point of WANTED - self development.
I look fantastic, I could be a model.
But the thing that makes WANTED work is the thing I hate doing the most - cold approaching. My own energy detests pushing and initiating, grinding and pulling because nothing comes of it but failure and stress and rejection.
But attracting is the Uno reverse card.
What I’ve learnt whilst running this stack is I can feed myself with pure joy and happiness and I get to keep it! Selling myself out and leaning on others to validate me is nothing compared to that warm feeling of total selfish satisfaction. Feeling full within.
Which is what DreamBoi also does but more outwardly - “I am so deeply and unapologetically within myself that I don’t need you”.
To say this is a massive confidence booster is light work. “Alpha” dominance never worked, but sovereign self acceptance and a full cup to myself did. 🤷
The ability not to give a fuck.
My DreamTime (DreamBoi + Summertime) stack is doing something incredible, on par with the 4 cycles of DRLD, the ability to create levels of untold nonchalance.
With DreamBoi I was very invested in who was looking, who was doing what and trying to make things happen by starting a conversation.
Now, I just don’t care for it at all. I could, but I don’t.
Call it abundance thinking or reduced importance (Reality Transurfing ftw), the idea of needing women is not even a thing anymore. Summertime is plugging the joy gap that I was trying to hook into from other women.
Case in point, I returned to the critical art group for one more year, knowing the women there already think I’m creepy and weird, however this time a new cohort had arrived. But nevertheless I’m nowhere as invested in trying to be soft belly Mr Nice Guy and to get them to see me as “good” or “worthy”. I stopped caring.
You can guess what happened next…
I didn’t have get felt up by my thighs on my bingo card for 2026.
4/6 Sacral Generators are susceptible to fear of rejection, using people pleasing as a strategy, which can come across as creepy and weird. But locking in self satisfaction plugs in the energy leaks.
Gave a talk in front of this new and old group (90% women) and the main feeling was again untold levels of calm, nonchalance, not caring about those who deemed me "creepy"and riffing about my own interests. But a few of those “creepy” women actually seemed to learn forward interested when I spoke. But anyway it was job done.
Then I spent a good 20 minutes talking to one of the new cohort from this group about her own artistic background and interests. But the dynamic was this:
She: very invested in the conversation
Me: mild curiousity, nonchalant, wanting to leave
The best thing was I wasn’t begging any of the women to please like me at all, I spoke calmly with a lot of pauses in my presentation (Dream Pockets 
), then sat with the few people that actually do like and respect me.
My new strategy: to sit back and never volunteer or put myself forward for shit.
I’ve had a lifetime and a gut full of “being nice, helpful, useful” and being the Nice Guy and all I got was friendzoned, treated with vicious rumours, called creepy and weird, leaving me feeling like a failure in life.
But I know full well it was down to me.
All my life I tried to hoover up women’s love and approval because of my own leaking gaping hole in my stomach. But could never admitted to myself that I could serve myself.
Rather than “confidence” or “self esteem”, I can boost myself by leaning on my immense satisfaction and joy instead, then seal it all up within. Nobody can touch it, steal it or take it away from me.
Once Google Gemini confirmed the stack would be fucking amazing, the above scenarios played out. I feel a new kind of spontaneous self amused energy, full of myself, nonchalant, much less worried about what other people may say.
It’s a party within, but you’re not invited.
However with DreamBoi, it’s the invitation women will now have to put effort to get in. No more open doors 
if no one comes, it’s still all good.
To catch the cat, you must ignore the cat.
Will have to keep an eye on this power stack because the levels of self power could be intoxicating…
AI might be taking our jobs and our souls but damn does it provide accurate reflective analysis on post situations.
I inputted three ex relationships into Gemini:
The friendzone tease (Athena*)
The hot and cold temptress (Sofiane*)
The narcissistic ex (Susan*)
(*not their real names)
and asked what went wrong, together with possible scenarios whilst on the Dream Boy Summertime stack (DreamTime)
Athena
Athena was the abandoned woman with the long distance boyfriend (probably to get away from her…) Her strategy was to dress very nice, but be very late meeting up, taking my hand in the art gallery and me being a clingy simp.
Sofiane
Sofiane was the ultra hot Mediterranean temptress who dressed hot, but acted entitled. She knew how to blow got and cold but other men wisely avoided her because of her red flags. I didn’t of course add pursued her. I acted the Nice Guy for a while and she abandoned me.
Susan
The narcissist who maintained absolute control over the relationship and the house. I unwisely moved in with her. Love bombed like a motherfucker, but knew deep down it felt fake. Then the criticisms came in - “you’re not doing enough”, “you must be cheating”. She benefitted from my energy, whilst I walked out feeling guilty, depleted, shaking like a shitting dog to the point of collapse.
The DreamTime stack would have me amused by Athena’s attempt to talk about what her boyfriend wasn’t doing, felt weird holding hands and would have listened to the “let’s be friends” speech with hilarity, because it would have been the perfect opportunity to cut her off.
Sofiane would have been steered clear from the jump because her odd posturing would not have made sense with her stunning looks. He would have even listened to other men steering clear of her for that very reason. Her sexy looks would have been a massive red flag.
I wouldn’t have come across Susan because I wouldn’t have met her in such a degenerative environment. But even so, her Girl Boss manipulative attitude would have been so off-putting and boring I would never have even contemplated a relationship let alone not look at the much more attractive colleagues instead.
To say this DreamTime stack is transforming is an understatement and a realisation that I fucked up with women by leaving my energy door open. Now it’s permanently slammed shut. I’m enjoying my own deep warm Summertime to myself without having to give it away for breadcrumbs. That’s my foundation sorted for DreamBoi to sort out the real attention for the fake cheap ones.
I ordered a full name embed!
For those who want to know what it’s like having a first name, last name embed, it is much stronger than first name NE. I estimate it to be by a factor of 3. Squared.
How do I know?
After a full loop, I’m tired for the whole day.
There’s no recon and difficulty with both scripts (I believe due to the full name and the subs) but I got hit hard by the double nervous system regulation scripts in both subs. I’m going to use 2 loops a week, 3 is far too much.
The second more technical reason for the full name embed is the earlier Gemini Pro answer that both Summertime and Dream Boy address my energy gaps in my Human Design profile.
For example:
I’m energetically wide open and empty, known that for a very long time and it can suck when someone’s angry at me (rejection) because I take it all in to heart. Then I might be “nice” to try and change them, which always backfires.
The big change I needed to make was to FIRST feel good within. Whatever happens with others, joy takes precedence over everything. Life, happiness and self satisfaction must take place. Being too “nice” and “available” ends here.
Summertime does this well.
I also needed to become the right kind of enigma. Yes, Wanted did this but with an edge. DreamBoi aligns better as it has a slow burn magical quality to it. It also attracts in a way that stops other people, especially women from finding me creepy due to being “nice”. I can be warmly nonchalant instead.
Combined, both have so far turned my life around and got me wondering what could have been when SubClub was around 30 years ago. So much embarrassing, nice guy mistakes, so many failed projects because I started them and tonnes of frustration overwhelm and stress… It’s an experiment and a learning curve.
Real people don’t say my French last name correctly. So I wonder if it’s good at proper pronunciation?
One option is to send a voice recording to SubClub with the pronunciation and they can transliterate it. Or a phonetic guide.
Interesting never thought about that.
After a day of feeling like getting hit with a tranquilliser dart, DreamTime is integrating faster and cleaner than the no name stack.
Something happened this week that I knew the custom was lightning fast:
The female leader of the art group visited my space to talk for a bit, however the answers I gave back were very short, one word responses with the words left hanging in the air.
I also gently ended the conversation too.
It was all automatic, as if I wasn’t really trying.
Nice Guy me would have overly explained my own issues to her (because she might fix them?) and she would give her approval with love.
Not this time
I said what needed to be said - softly - and let the silences speak. I’m modelling the Dream Pockets thing already…
I now feel plugged up. The fear of someone taking away my foundation through disapproval is gone. Rejection can’t touch my soul anymore.
is this a custom you were running before with just the first name, I’m very interested to try this especially because it didn’t give you any recon in full loops
DreamTime is flooding my system so deep and sophisticated. How do I know?
I was called a ***** by some lanky teen walking past. Then some mad woman screaming on the street tried to unload on me. Meanwhile on the metro some dude seated next to his girlfriend decided to get up and stand away from her after trying some weak dominant stare out.
I find all of these reactions returning as something amusing, as if my custom is masquerading as Khan! My very presence appears to trigger people so easily. My bad…
But it goes to show how powerful the right sub can be for the right person’s own mechanics. My Sacral Generator is now nuclear powered, with zero leaks, just from Summertime and DreamBoi which is a massive positive for me and apparently a negative for a few. I’m fully charged, yet so relaxed, I do believe I’m on a mild sedative.
I move slowly, brace differently and those insults and challenges I observed? Interesting information.
I stacked the main titles, before going full name embed. I estimated it to be 3x as powerful.
But 
fair warning - it is profound but likely the recon will be too. I can’t play it more than twice a week.
It’s eerie how much of the Early weeks signs are appearing a few days in rather than over a couple of weeks, even down to the bracing dropping and the deep relaxation baseline establishing itself:
- Early weeks. The bracing drops first. Dream-Like Presence and The Open Window quiet the urge to perform and the low-grade social vigilance; you speak slower, leave silences, laugh before you have checked whether it is appropriate (Sprinklers, The Belly Laugh). Dream Current and Endless August start setting a new baseline rather than a mood.
makes sense, I’m guessing the results were more personal and long lasting
The highs
Apart from the handful of women either looking like they want to abandon their men and go with me straight away, I went to a gallery where I met this cute receptionist who I discussed the work with her and spit balled over stuff. At the end she introduced herself with a handshake. 
I’ll be seeing her again soon, along with another gallery girl I saw during the summer.
The low
However not everyone meets a DreamBoi the same way: the next gallery had no one at the desk, it was opened from the outside by returning staff member and two women emerged. As I went upstairs to see more at, one woman scrambled to lock the doors off the office next door. Clearly they thought I was planning a robbery - until they backtracked. I felt hurt and it left a bitter taste in the mouth after I left.
It ruined the rest of the day, it tried to until I doubled up on music therapy. I was on cloud 9 before someone’s projection bias pissed on my head. But anyway the numerous nearby IOIs and actual real approach was enough to convince me this DreamTime stack could be really dangerous for my single status…
Told you. 
No idea why I wanted to return to the same gallery that had me down as a burglar, but something told me to vindicate myself and go in.
Glad I did because the new receptionist (Spanish) appeared very friendly and very eager to find out who I was and where my students were when I told them to go to that gallery! But, yes, she was so keen that she Freudian slipped that I could ask for her number… before correcting herself and asking for my details for a private view. A very private view…
But anyway I took it in my stride and felt immense vindication in returning. I could see the blonde woman who basically accused me (projected her mess into me) standing next to my new Spanish girl and said “see you later” to her only and blanked the blonde.
Took it like a king 
This custom sub is an odd combination for someone like myself looking to build alpha traits, stop massive energy leaks, stop coming across as weird to women and feel on par with the rest of society. It fucking works!
I’m grateful for the general inner cultivation of titles like DreamBoi and Summertime because the harder edged ones caused me to flat line, and I’m getting the same kind of results too.
See the regular forum advice for attraction and dating is to go out and pursue, don’t be passive and don’t do nothing, “fuck an IOI”, lol. Yet that same advice was also violating my own biology.
When women I’ve never met before in a professional setting take the step to not only introduce themselves and invite me to exclusive events, whilst almost giving out their personal number unprompted, doing nothing works for me.
When the train carriage I’m in fills up with attractive women when the men flee and refuse to sit near, doing nothing works for me.
When opportunities come my way without even thinking about pushing and pulling to get seen, doing nothing works for me.
When the receptionist specifically remembers you, when she meets thousands of people in a week, that’s doing nothing.
When even exes are closely looking at my socials and sending “this reminds me of you” messages, doing nothing works for me.
In reality the “nothing” is simply letting the custom work on my nervous system and satisfaction, creating a suitable environment from which to respond to.
I’ll say this - every other sub I’ve played had average to good results, mostly because I don’t relate to the script. Even I’ll treat first name customs with emotional some distance - how many people have my name? It can’t be me it’s talking to…
First + Last name customs? Elite