I am on ascension , limit destroyer and heartsong. I am thinking about one situation what happened. Naturally in the past when I started competitors subs two years ago I felt good and respected in male groups like with coworkers friends my GF’s family and so on.,. But when Ascension showed me its power, I feel like a king in male groups , respected and admired. But after long time situation happened with guy who used to work with us but he moved out from city and I have not seen him for couple of years. I never liked him very much. Now after couple years he showed in our city like taxi driver. I ordered taxi and he pulled down the window , to make himself known that hes there and shouted at me my last name and fun derivation of my last name you know like kids in the school making fun of last names. I was startled that I see him I didint know who it was at first. I came to sit in taxi , and he imediatily started asking about job he left because I working there still and he was friendly in coversation. When I got out from the taxi I realized like " hey that sucker just disrespected me and my last name " Like noone did that to me in long time and this shitty did? After that I wanted to go to call that taxi again to meet him again and bring him down and even fight him if he dont give in. I wanted to fight him that whole day . But man then I realized how pathetic it is to get unbalanced for that kind of thing.For that little disrespect, to go and fight or at least get to heavy quarrel ?? I have never been agressive like that before and I asked myself : Is alpha male about fighting ,quarells and bringing down peaple who try to disresct? Isn’t it a pure opposite that you dont care about little things only when neccesary stuff rises? I mean its not safe and healthy mindset for me to have with my 4 years law probation and condition. And what if someone really dangerous, better fighter or armed guy tries to disrespected me , on my Ascension king like mindset? What will happen because my grown Ego? I think I really need some Regeneration to balance myself out. What are your thoughts about these kind of situations guys, and What is your opinion about Alpha mindset versus disrespect from other males especially on Alpha subs?
Notice how you didnt want to fight him until AFTER he already left.
I think what you experienced was healthy and normal. I never fight people but I often have thoughts like “fuck that asshole how dare he disrespect me!”
And I get angry.
Because I know my self worth and know I deserve respect… and THAT is a HEALTHY thing to know in your heart.
If you actually fought him i would maybe have a different answer but it sounds like you were obviously aware of who had the power in that situation.
You.
You literally paid him minimum wage to drive you around like your wait staff. You could’ve made him wait in an empty parking lot for 30 minutes by himself, and he would have to do it. He was literally your .
You knew it in that moment so you didnt bother even responding to his negative comments.
You were just like “yes yes, quit your muttering and drive me to my palace, you peasant.”
And then he did.
I think you’ve already explained it to yourself. A lot of things are just not worth throwing off balance. This could also be seen as a kind of weakness. It’s better to save your energy for the important things in life.
So you’re the king of male groups and the ascended alpha…
That guy poked your ego and that shit fell like Jenga, lol.
All he did was tease your last name and now you want to fight him, potentially go to jail and waste your life.
You have a short fuse, poor emotional regulation, an incredibly fragile ego and you’re not congruent.
Too reactive, combative and aggressive… and you’re correct that if you go barking up the wrong tree, you’ll get sat the fuck down.
Your usage of language such as calling people “suckers” and "shitty " suggests that you’re not peacefully aligned within. That comes from a place of fear and lack of self-love.
Language is expression and certain expressions have an emotional component to them, which are linked to your subconscious beliefs.
The most important thing you need to realize here is that Ascension ZP is working and guiding you down the path to your true Alpha.
That’s why you made this introspective and thoughtful post. You’re becoming aware of the parts of you that need to be worked on in order to grow and move forward as you become the man you want to be.
Anyone who starts introspectively questioning things related to Alpha, while using an Alpha Male subliminal… it’s working.
Your emotional state and control over it is your responsibility. Don’t give your power away.
Keep going lol
I’m thinking this is reconciliation.
What all are you listening to and what is your listening schedule?
After washout I did two loops limit destroyer and tomorrow ascension and heartsong. It could have been recon because I break listening schedule with 2 loops of zp. And I am sorry for curse words
Never thought of it this way but yes
I didn’t sayd I am the king of groups and best man there , but my subjective feeling being on anscension in those environment feels like that. But you hitted nail on its head. Agressive combative and short fuse that’s 100 % true . Even started doing martial arts to channel agresion somewhere. I starting to feel the need to rise above these low behaviour’s . Do you think regeneration will help with that? Or what other sub would be good for the future for me?
We saw a great example of that this week😢
I’m going to encourage you to consider a different listening schedule:
Monday: 1 loop of Limit Destroyer
Tuesday: rest
Wednesday: 1 loop of Ascension and 1 loop of Heartsong
Thursday: rest
Friday: 1 loop of Limit Destroyer
Saturday and Sunday: rest
More rest. Fewer loops.
If you saw the unedited audio clip the guy who took the slap for a second thought about what he could do. He could have destroyed the guy verbally probably even has dirt on him that’s kind of how it is in that world. He even said it out loud like oh i could…then he thought better of it and continued on with the show.
Ok I will try, thanks
That was a great example of taking the high road👍
Here something from my life that works wonders.
Feel the whole shit than Chanel it, start a discussion and inform the people that you don’t like this behavior towards you in a informative way.
At the same time let energetically all the shit flow into the person.
Get it?
Respectfully and informative with your words and ruthless with your energy
Its so sneaky that people don’t realize what’s happening
It could be several things from like what people mentioned. In my opinion it could also be you didn’t stand up for urself in that moment, so when that moment passed the anger and rage of you not standing up for yourself became extremely high. So a part of you, the shadow part that’s inside all of us wanted retaliation, that’s why you wanted to call his taxi back and give it to him.
I remember one time going for the train to head home from work a female cop, told me to put my mask up. I didn’t want to but I chumped that moment up and did so. In my head I was like WTF there’s people walking in this path train walking with no masks or mask not covering nose etc. As I continued to walk to head for the train my blood began to boil. I was heated. How dare this women, this cop tell me to put my mask up when there’s other’s walking with no mask. My inner tyrant was fuming. I paused few times and thought about walking back up there with my mask down again so she could say something to me again. I wanted retaliation like urself. Just let it go though man. Learn from it and move on. If you see him again or have a similar situation come up you can stand up for yourself.
I really think whether ur aware of it or not the anger about wanting to fight him and the anger you were feeling was really anger for not letting him know that a boundary was crossed. You are more angered at urself. I have a feeling if you did in that moment, that repressed rage in you would not have been there throughout the day.
If you are used to just taking it when people give you crap, this is a normal stage on an alpha sub, and a sign it’s working.
You’ve realized that you don’t deserve to be treated like that, but you don’t know what to do about it and you aren’t yet at the point where you can brush it off. Keep going. It’ll pass.
This.
And this, in a nutshell.
As for fighting him, grew the fuck up.
By all means learn to fight …in a ring with a ref etc, as all men should.
But street fighting is best left to your bodyguards.
And how would somebody do that, then.