As I have mentioned in many previous posts as well as in personal conversations that I struggle with various forms of FOMO and envy. I feel that this plus my fear of failure is what is the most likely the cause of me having issues sticking to a stack for any recommended period of time. That said I did update my journal with information about the stack I am going to fight myself to stick with.
Most if not all of my envy or FOMO comes from not emotionally and sometimes intellectually as to how people I know and am around daily or frequently are able to afford to be able to buy things or do things I am currently unable to at this time while always complaining about how broke they are? Honestly it’s not so much as to why they or anyone else is able to do something I can’t as much as it is not wanting to have this question going through my mind at all ever if that makes sense?