Falling into the light (thought and observations about Khan's Journey)

Journals - Major Programs
#81

Got out yesterday for new year.

My initial plan was to get hammered… Probably feel like I’ll soon have more responsability towards my love life, my financial life and my fitness life. I got out with my little brother and a friend, my bro wanted to socialise and meet girls. One guy pushed me by accident and I dropped some wine… I wanted him to apologise, he did and we talked, men, the guy told me he had kids at 43 and everything went well. I learned that there is no age to get kids, it took time for him to settle down with a girl and one day he found a girl he really wanted kids with.

My brother spotted a girl in the bar, pumped himself up and told us, “I haven’t been rejected in a year and a half, it’s not going to happens today!”. Jumped into the action and went talk to the super cute girl in the group… The girl had a boyfriend and she matched my brother with her friend. I talked to the girl who had a boyfriend for like 10-15 minutes, I was really drunk and was saying lot of cocky stuff, semi true. We even talked about how we hated drunk people being unpleasent, normal conversation, but really creating the “them” and “us” frame. After a while, and she introduced me to some of her single friends after asking me if I was single.

I must say here, I wasn’t there to meet girls, I literally have, right now a mini crush on the girl I saw last sunday. The girl’s single friends weren’t that cute, and I didn’t really push to talk to them haha.

My brother got his midnight kiss and talked to her a little bit after before taking me because I was so lost. He also told me I was getting pretty close to the girl in a relationship which he initially wanted.

I was impressed that some girls wanted to talk to me when drunk at this level. I think Khan ST4 and Primal seduction really helped me to change the way I act socially, really listening to people’s body language. I also feel like emperor V4 is making me more respectable, because all the time I talked to girls in the past years, I got rejected a lot… It’s like if I expect to get rejected and now I see girls speaking to me normally. IT IS WIERD. I am almost scared, honestly I don’t know what to think about it, pretty sure I’ll be able to change that mindset in 2020.

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#82

So, I started working out and tracking my macro early mid december I think… Was harder with all the parties to lose fat, but I followed my diet the day I didn’t see family or friends.

SO. Now I am following a workout regiment based on Greg O’Gallagher sauce because I don’t want pure strength, I still need some muscle mass, so reverse pyramid 4/6/8 reps. Waiting for a surgery on my knee so I don’t train legs except bodyweight to make sure I don’t lose flexibility… far from me the time I squatted 275 lbs ass to grass :laughing:.

As far as calories, I am eating 1500 (192p/71c/52f) calories on rest days, and 1700 (157p/187c/41f) calories on workout days. I want to go down to 10-15% BF, right now at 24% with one calculator, and 20% with another one.

I want to get back to my previous PR, 245x5 bench press, 155x5 overhead press… I’am slowly getting back there!

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#83

Kinobody is solid plan and kinochef is pretty good also

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#84

Hi,

What was your bodymass that time? Anyway I guess you are not ectomorph, correct?

#85

Hmmm, well, it’s been probably 4-5 years I’ve had those numbers holy f :eyes: time fly

I was like 190 lbs, almost 200 after a big meal :joy:

I’m not really ectomorphe, more like endo, but I have small bone structure. I was also doing roids in those days :ok_hand:

I’ll be able to get back up there eventually, it’s just long to build muscle rn especially since my T was low af for the past year or smth

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#86

Ok, now I get it, thanks.
So with that low calorie intake you wanted to strip the fat.
I am also around 190lbs, with the upper body pure ectomorph and having had hard time building muscle with low calories, but as soon as I bring them on 2500-3000 daily, I get belly fat.

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