AoW is amazing. I automatically wake up around 8:30. I get various thoughts about things that can be done in various different ways.
I also feel the urge to keep a consistent journal.
Emotional mastery is really good. I feel super detached from my emotions like I’m looking at them from above.
I also ran a loop of paragon because i had the cold. Its flu season in canada.
I ran it at night and I immediately felt better the next morning.
It also did something to calm my nervous system I feel really good
I am have a cold calculating side to me now and it feels like an ai in my head.
Got up early today, it feels effortless to wake up earlier than usual and I go straight to work. I do waste 30 minutes lying in bed and trying to fall back to sleep but I get these half awake dreams and I end up waking up soon enough.
There’s a desire to prove myself, to get all things done.
I know what is blocking, i should just push through it.
The inner struggle is made clear thanks to the new anti-recon script
Today i suddenly did some woodworking with a tiny square piece of wood.
It was something like a dog with a stick in its mouth, hand carved with a pocket knife
I feel its a part of the anti recon script in Aow doing its job. It helped me relax and do things that i normally would not do
My update for today
I had a huge win yesterday with regard to myself, controlling myself in front of a fatal temptation
Today i fell back to old habits. I need to work with the sub and get things done.
did EE 2:30min , Paragon 15m.
has an injury in my right ankle, was swollen like a balloon, got it back under control in 2 days with paragon.
Working and lovin it with EE
Paragon does use a lot of energy I was feeling tired the whole day. Even accidentally fell asleep.
Started a new cycle couple days back. EE and TS with a few sprinkles of AoW.
EE makes me love to work
Im on washout, after finishing my cycle.
Will do chosen and EE for my next cycle
AoW seems to make me angry. I thought I had overcome my anger a long time ago, but it seems like aow raised my ability to perceive anger. Or be more sensitive to my anger in general.
It typical recon as aow has emotional regulation but i some how burst like a firecracker
I had to consciously tell myself to calm the fk down.
I would assume its good with chosen or maybe any positive vibe sub
Im in washout now. My next cycle shall be EE, chosen and sprinkles of A:S.
Ive decided to capture it all on my offline journal
The last time i did A:S i forgot to journal anywhere and now i only have vague feelings of what happened
I’ve been travelling a lot these past few weeks.
Im in south india now and the heat almost wrecked me. I didn’t realize how long I’ve been off my home country.
Lost of work and lots of problem solving been too busy to have any time for myself.
Listened to a 5 min loop of EE and chosen.
