I am noticing I am being irritated with some things my partner is doing, for example the sound of her voice, her talking too much and other things. My desire for something (someone else) has increased, it is like it is coming to my mind more often and thinking the grass is greener on the other side. Kind of longing for something different.
I am wondering if this is a part of the reconciliation. It is interesting how these different aspects are coming to the forefront. Like… why?
I don’t know what to make of it, or even know what this means or if it means anything. If it is reconciliation then it will just pass with time, right? Or will it come up with every reconciliation? If the latter is true, then there is know way to know if it means something deeper, because if it did mean something deeper, then that would keep coming back too, right?
I am hoping that time will give me clarity, but it is interesting that it has increased since having my night off. After I listen to my 2 loops tonight and Friday, I will see how I feel after Sat/Sun rest days, as two days of rest is longer.
I am looking forward to this pandemic being over and done with, and the world truly opening up again to a brand new normal. I am looking forward to expericing, connecting and interacting with more people at university most likely September 2021 onwards🤞 as I feel I lack that connecting with new people, new girls, new interacting, new friends l, new experiences… Which can help me gain clarity about my self and where I stand with everything.
I intend to use my time wisley and prepare myself for these days, so I am ready and can make the most of lifes opportunities that will be all around me.