I ran ST1 a while ago and had a similar experience. I asked support if I should re-run ST1 before running ST2,
I ran khan ZP st1 for a cycle and khan NSE-ZP for a full cycle so it’s probably fine to just run ST2 but I wanted to ask cuz it’s not an immediate plan anyways
Not an exact “result” but just wanted to share how pleased I am to switch from obsessively trying to memorize chessable lines, to just reading them and trying to UNDERSTAND them in that moment, guess what the next line will be, etc.
The result now that I think about it is I find myself more easily accessing flow in a variety of ways. Writing. Chess. Exercise. Socializing. My presence and enjoyment of things has been steadily increasing.
Day 1 of new cycle, mon sep 23, - 60s of ENDGAME ZP (dd/g:m)
Day 2, tue sep 24, 30s RM: UWX
Day 5 fri sep 27, 30s RMW & Emp
Ran a little bit of WB a week or two ago and wow that sh*t works fast. Was just doing it to have more people of both genders talk to me at parties. I feel mature enough to handle WB right now. But I’ve had two women ask me to come over/hang out in my neighborhood. And my partner all of a sudden has been starting to think of having an open relationship via a ‘sexual liberation.’ She’s still rejecting the idea of an open relationship, but we never talked about it, and now all of a sudden she’s saying "well i’ve learned x is true about myself and y is true about myself but that doesn’t mean Z aka that i want an open relationship.’
The way she was talking about it made it seem like she was trying to convince herself, not me LOL
Careful with the WB lol. You may have more maturity to handle it, but I got into quite a bit of trouble recently after a couple loops… The challenge, is that it doesn’t just get women attracted to you, in my experience it manifests your exact specific type, like your dream version of a partner in looks, personality, hobbies, etc who at the same time is very open and receptive to you. I’m not going to go to into detail, but would just reccomend proceeding here with caution.
I forgot I have “Love Without Attachment” in the custom.
Honestly, over the last two months, I’ve had doubts - love without attachment was included in the custom both to help me love deeper if I stay AND help me let go, if necessary.
But the recon I’ve been getting from this module is unprecented. If I don’t cut back on the loops I’m going to destroy my relationship.
I thought perhaps that it was some delayed response to a few WB loops that was causing me this stress, but no, I’m in recon hell from the healing in that module.
Still, very glad it’s in the custom, just gotta slow down and let MDFY:Freedom do it’s work.
Will listen to Emperor & RM:UWX this cycle, possibly with LE microloops
Support said that it was best to run ST1 again before progressing to the next stage, btw. ST2 is more effective if it comes immediately after ST1
the bad: recon hell
the good: I’ve changed my approach to my relationship and i’m going to ask for what I want, I’m going to EXPECT to get what I need in a relationship, even though I know I might not get it,
and if I can’t transform the relationship I have into the relationship I want after a long period of conscious communication, I’m ending the relationship to make room for someone that could.
I’ve been so attached to the level of love that I’ve currently been getting that I’ve been too afraid to ask for more - for fear that by asking for more I might lose what I’m already getting.
love without attachment has helped me commit to getting my deepest needs met in my relationship, emotions unfettered is showing me what they really are
Day 5 - Fri, Sep 27 - 30s Emp, 30s RM:W (yesterday)
Emperor result: felt very driven to make a space to film myself.
Emp/RM:W = building my (writing) empire starts with building my (writing) war room.
Dope set up, very good backdrop for vids.
You missed a golden opportunity to stack your book case with smut just to mess with everybody on the forums.
Twilight Saga
The Hunger Games
Followed of course by Yaoi Hentai and finished off with a book or two on astrology and wicca.
Had a writing epiphany.
My target audience is severe tech addicts, not people looking for easy tips like “turn your phone black-and-white” or “don’t use it in the morning.”
Writing has been easier since then.
(Edit: the next day, I posted on TikTok, thanks to the clarity)
Day 9 - 5 mins of Emperor + RM:W
Got back from 3 day camp trip. Muy bein.
Posted on tik tok for the first time. Got over my fear.
ASBR made me motivated for fame, but Emperor is giving me the drive to take the necessary actions.
Edit: day 10, emp 30s
TL;DR - online job posting made me imagine what moving to new york would be like. maybe i’m ready for a big shake-up
(deleted old version, edited to be TL;DR)
Highlights TLDR; I was confident, I was sexual, and my dream involved bending reality.
This is one of those dreams that showcases results I’m about to get, or perhaps have already gotten internally and will soon see as a part of my external reality.
I dreamed I was spending time with a very very successful realtor. White, blonde, not usually my type, but the definition of “every guy wants her.” That LA/Miami model look.
in the dream, we were alone, but she said what she admires most about me is
“how confident you are even when you’re being stacked.”
Yes, that’s strange dream-language… I had no idea what it meant either.
I asked “you mean when other guys make more money than me?” (an IRL insecurity of mine, sometimes.)
"No, I mean when they’re actually trying to out-alpha you or make you look bad, you don’t get phased at all, you seem so relaxed."
When we had sex, it wasn’t like a seducer finally winning his choice for the night over. I had no need to impress her. When I decided I liked her, and we were alone, I simply started kissing her neck, and she was the one to ask whether I wanted “to stay here or go upstairs” to have sex.
I had complete and utter choice in every element of the interaction, almost like the EmpD vibe that might happen, except that if anything, she was an older more successful person than I was.
IRL, i have a fitness tracker, but in my dream, the fitness tracker was able to bend reality, and I had multiple “settings” that I could choose from, depending on whether I wanted to be a participant in the matrix (like an unaware member) or if I wanted to remain outside the Matrix, like Neo, who can stop bullets with thought.
I used it to break through ground, and ended up in a secret underground facility where the Miami Heat NBA tryouts were being held, and I was one of the best tryouts, despite not being a basketball player, even in the dream. I was using the “matrix bending” to accomplish things.
I think that’s how I found the girl and then felt like I was in a room full of people more successful than me (owner of the team, NBA stars, etc.) but I’m not 100% sure.
Give it…two years max. We’ll meet each other in passing and have no idea. You’ll take your fiance to see a new off broadway show that I’m headlining in, we’ll shake hands during the gala prior to opening night. I’ll make a weird joke that hints at sub club.
Maybe it’s because I’m sick, but I woke up at 5am today and did Qi-Gong for an entire hour.
Proud of myself for doing something so enriching at such an early time in the morning. I’ve been waking up at 10-11am most days the last two weeks.
Also, I see why @SaintSovereign is such a big fan of Qi-Gong. HUGE for subs. I’ve done 12 vipassana retreats, meditated at home countless hours, done 100’s of hours of walking randomly in the woods just to access my parasympathetic nervous system, and blahblahblah all the “things.”
Qi-Gong is the best. Just followed this video twice, then memorized it, and did them in my own order of preference. (I really enjoy the punching one first, because I get the DEEPEST belly breaths from that one).
I have been a perfectionist afraid of posting all summer.
Less than 3 loops of emp + RM:W and it feels easy
Am observing a local kendo class today, seems cool so far. They have national team members, obviously a very serious dojo.
It would be cool to train here and would give me a reason to reintroduce Hero which I love but don’t want to run without martial arts/swordfighting in my life.
Being a sword fighter myself, I’d encourage you to look for a HEMA (Historical European Martial Arts) school instead.
Back in the day I was interested in everything Japanese and would have loved to learn kendo.
But then I met the head of our local Hema group in the locker room and he invited me to train with them.
Longsword is the most fascinating weapon I’ve ever learned. The two cutting edges allow for more techniques and “winden”, the techniques while the blades are in contact are crazy.
Here a short video about long sword fencing
