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[Jouissance]

@Jouissance

Deeper Daredevil Impressions

I once posted about Daredevil and the surprisingly emotional growth I was experiencing on it.

I’m back on Daredevil now, and honestly, I’d forgotten how much of a “healing” sub this is for me. Had to review the old post I made… I was surprised then, I’m surprised now.

All of these are either results I wasn’t even aware until I read the sales page, and/or results I’m just shocked by.

Daredevil Experiences

1. Questioning my relationship a LOT more.

I’m happy about this, though.

I had originally thought that I was in recon hell from the Love Without Attachment module, or perhaps even my few tiny loops of WB did something to my commitment, but that’s not what happened…

Daredevil has been reconnecting me to my desire for freedom, adventure, personal growth, career impact, etc, and being in a relationship where the next step is to settle down, have a family, and prioritize how much money I make instead of how I make money has never felt right… even more so with Daredevil highlighting the natural parts of my archetype.

2. “The Present Moment” is becoming central

For good and for bad.

When I procrastinate, scroll, indulge in vices and escapism, it hurts WAY more. (Results can sometimes BE the recon - pain is a valuable teacher, if you’re willing to learn from it.)

And my moments of presence and clarity are much more joyful and meaningful. The first time I did Qi-Gong, I fell in love with it, and went from 20 minutes of guided Qi-Gong to memorizing the moves and spending almost an hour flowing through them at my own pace. It’s the most present I’ve ever felt in my life.

3. Imagining totally new possibilities for my life

My ability to imagine new possibilities with optimism is expanding. I had received notice that a company in NYC was hiring, and instead of being pessimistic about moving to America, about the crowded city life of NY, etc., I was simply filled with wonder.

Practically speaking, I don’t think it’s the exact right move or timeline, but my takeaway from the experience is that a big part of me is ready for a big move.

4. Self Worth Issues coming to the surface (and being healed)

How can you tell a captivating story if half way through, you think to yourself…

“Oh my god everyone is listening, but my story isn’t THAT interesting, they’re probably thinking I’m an attention hog right now”

Storytelling goes beyond the technical proficiency, and into the emotional comfort with being the storyteller, and being the one everyone is listening to.

In that sense, it’s an incredible foundation sub for ASBR, which is like a Daredevil+Wealth+Fame+Dominance sub, IMO. You’re the center of attention if you’re famous.

5. Daredevil requires a high amount of conscious guidance to fully express.

The pro tips say it best. Emphasize the present moment. Be curious and open to new experiences. Practice story telling. Connect with others through that.

Daredevil has immense internal results, but it’s an “action” oriented sub, and the action it emphasizes is complete disregard of the status quo and being free, taking extremely bold attention, being the center of attention by captivating a room with a well-told story, living fearlessly.

And as much as Emperor is a “difficult” sub, it’s also very conforming to societal expectations: hate on universities, hate on your boss, be a lone wolf alpha that focuses heavily on wealth. That requires discipline, but, not courage… not if you know that you can accomplish business success. There’s a clear financial and material (sexual) motive underlying much of what Emperor has to offer.

But what about Daredevil? What’s the “obvious” answer to why to adventure? Why do it at all?

Crossing the country, taking a daring venture, re-orienting your whole life to be more in line with living solely in the joy of the present moment, on the other hand? That isn’t in line with the “future orientation” and material obsession of modern western society. It takes not just discipline, but also courage.

In the future, I think changing my ENDGAME custom be have Limitless Executive in it instead of Mogul is ideal, as wealth requires productivity more than productivity requires wealth, making it even more “foundational”

[Jouissance]

I did check out a place called Academie Duello as well. Liked it a lot! Kendo was great in some ways but the class was split up into “beginners” and advanced. I’d have to train with the beginners and the oldest one was 7…

[Viktor]

@Jouissance

It would be cool to train here and would give me a reason to reintroduce Hero which I love but don’t want to run without martial arts/swordfighting in my life.

Pull the trigger, it’s worth it

[Jouissance]

Stillness & RoM

My life is good with stillness, bad without. .

A few days ago I asked support for the best title to cultivate stillness. No answer yet, but I think it’ll be Revelation Of Mind.

And the more i read the sales page, the more the title resonates.

Last time I ran RoM was 2022, but that was the time in my life where I realized I wasn’t happy chasing money, and needed to chase an impact driven business. I’m now pursuing almost exactly the model I dreamed up then.

I need that scripting now more than ever. Writing is a deep act of expressing the wisdom that comes from stillness. And writing is understanding who you are, what you have to say, and what your purpose in writing/life is. And as a science writer, ideally, the “acquisition of knowledge” from RoM would be perfect.

PS: with my new daily Qi-Gong practice, I’m meeting the recommendation to have a daily practice. (Sold.)

PPS: daredevil + RM:W + RoM would be a CRAZY stack. RoM to understand your story and to have the mental stillness required to write. RM:W to write your story with excellent proficiency. And Daredevil to tell the story you spent so long contemplating and writing to the largest audience possible and using it to cultivate fame and success (cycled with ASBR).

PPPS: I’m doing two Vipassanas soon, one in October, one in December, so… RoM will probably have EXPLOSIVE results once I do those. (Triple sold!)

Thurs Oct 3rd… 3 min RoM

[Jouissance]

Report on 3 min RoM

Possibly a bit much? I felt like my meditations and qigong got worse, not better, and I’ve never had a sub make it hard for me to sleep at night until last night.

So I’ll drop down to 1 min.

On the bright side… I woke up feeling VERY healthy (I’ve been sick).

Happy I added RoM.

[Jouissance]

putting this here to review later

@Viktor

@Prioritas

Saint has already said this isn’t a great idea, as the harem scripting is a big part of the sub, and fundamentally denying the foundation of the script to try to get ancillary benefits from the physical shifting and confidence scripting will just lead to recon.

I agree.

This is my personal experience with WB.
Not only the harem scripting, i tried to ignore the romance, mystery etc scripting to an extent.

Recon was only a short term problem, even after the recon became manageable, i had to constantly deal with redirecting my life away from the romantic stuff and refocus on what i truly wanted.

This also happened with RM:UWX. Although it was not as much as WB, i had to refocus my life a lot away from writing.

In both cases, i just wanted some of the effects.
Emotional control, social skills & physical shifting from WB.
Storytelling, creativity, productivity & wealth from RM:UWX.
I don’t want to be in too many romantic situations or to get too deep into writing & becoming a writer. Yet those are what they both manifested.

The problem is about the great results that are way outside of what i want to focus on in life.

The manifestations were so strong that I didn’t need to really go out of my way to get them. The opportunities somehow found their ways to present themselves through various channels.

Pick a sub that suits you.
This is not even about recon, it’s about what comes after.
You can’t just ignore a big part of a sub without having to constantly realign your focus in life.
That gets tiring quickly.

You’re still in full control over your life. But you have to make the active decision to refuse the results.

[Jouissance]

Have been listening to primal romance and loving it. Check that thread for details for now.

Monday Oct 7, 3 min Primal Romance, 3min RM:W

[Jouissance]

Wed Oct 9 - 3 min primal romance

Fri oct 11 - 3 min Genesis, 3 min LE

Bit of stack switching.

[Jouissance]

Something has shifted inside of me. I am on a high. I feel momentum, I feel confident, I feel the most engaged with life that I have in months. Something has lifted me out of a depression, and into action.

I did an RoM loop 7 days ago, maybe that?

[MechaShaman]

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I am happiest when my life is so simple that all I have to do is focus immensely on the things that are most important. That could be considered "addict behavior if it’s drugs or something harmful, workaholic behavior, if it’s meaningless money-chasing like sales, but if it’s based in purpose and mission it’s considered the most important trait a hard working man can have.

Thank you for that wonderful post! I had a similar revelation about me beeing an addict aswell…and always beeong it…its all about channeling that addiction to something!

I am very drawn to Synergy: I am atman, but a little afraid that it could be a reccon monster…but the combintion of I am atman, mdfy: freedom and emotions unfettered sound really tasty…
Would you say that this combination is hard on recon, or is mdfy freedom keeping it in check?

[Jouissance]

Synergy: I AM ATMAN feels incredibly smooth.

What drove me to incredible recon with this custom was the “love without attachment” module included in my custom, during a time where I was already considering breaking up with my partner. So it created the ability to be non-attached which caused me to contemplate breaking up with her seriously, which scared me, and caused me to stop the custom.

Since using Primal Romance, things have gotten much better in that department.

I think that I AM ATMAN is an absolutely joyful and incredible module to have in any custom, even without MDFY: Freedom. I’ve used many of these other modules in the custom, but Synergy: I AM ATMAN has a unique flavor, where it’s massively accelerating results and giving me insights on an almost daily basis.

Later on in this journal, I realized that all of the results I attributed to Emotions Unfettered was actually a combo of that module AND the I AM ATMAN module.

[Jouissance]

I’ve been very active on the Primal Romance thread as that has been a major journey for me.

Listened since day 1 of it’s release and I can say my relationship has improved dramatically, break-up thoughts are turning into communication about what we both need in the relationship to be happy, the sex scripting in PR is absolutely phenomenal, we’re dirty talking as if the PN scripting was in there except it’s a product of increased connection so it’s romantic/filthy dirty talk.

Great sub. Point for SaintSov in my books. But wow EmpD looks good too hey?

[Jouissance]

Sunday : Genesis and LE 5 mins

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Tuesday: 45s Emperor Daddy inspired by @Niles incredible young-man-sales results with it.

[Jouissance]

With sales, I got to run subliminals without avoiding the ultimate question: Who Am I?

Instead, I got to ask the much easier question: Who do my prospects need me to be?

Now I’m starting to ask myself who I really want to be, without worrying about what anyone else thinks, for the first time in half a decade.

And I’m starting to think it’s not Daredevil. I want a life of adventure, yeah, but I want that to be a small part of my life. I want to be more social. But I don’t want to be Tom Cruise.

If I run Daredevil, I WILL become a Daredevil, (aka Tom Cruise). I have ultimate faith in that. I no longer believe in Conscious Guidance is strong enough that I can pick and choose which parts of Daredevil I want to express. I think Conscious Guidance is strong but extended subliminal exposure is stronger.

Until I find out exactly who I want to be, I don’t feel right running any archetype subs. ASBR, Emperor, Khan, WB, even Daredevil… they all embody a character and if I don’t truly align with that, that’s all it’ll be, a character.

[Azriel]

@Jouissance

the sex scripting in PR is absolutely phenomenal, we’re dirty talking as if the PN scripting was in there except it’s a product of increased connection so it’s romantic/filthy dirty talk.

Tempted to test this for this girl I am seeing. Deciding between a run of WB like usual with her. Emperor Daddy or PR for the great sex feedback I’m hearing on it. Although, apparently, ED is getting good reviews as well.

[Azriel]

@Jouissance

If I run Daredevil, I WILL become a Daredevil, (aka Tom Cruise). I have ultimate faith in that. I no longer believe in Conscious Guidance is strong enough that I can pick and choose which parts of Daredevil I want to express. I think Conscious Guidance is strong but extended subliminal exposure is stronger.

Do you think so? It’s ‘pushing’ you to be more on a life of adventure than just social. I figured the adventure could be in perception as much as courageous external adventures.

Really interesting point about the archetypes. I feel many sub-club subs are archetypes in an image but not in direction and individual expression. But feeling ‘trapped’ or constrained as a character sounds potentially like recon territory…at least in my experience. If you ran LE and Genesis on Sunday, PR recently, your own custom and also Emperor Daddy you may be integrating a lot. OR perhaps the wisdom of Emperor Daddy, and it’s revealing you have your own archetype you want to discover without subliminal influence.

[Jouissance]

Haven’t ran my custom in a while because I needed to work through relationship reconm which is now solved thanks to primal romance.

If it comes back when I reintroduce the custom, then the love without attachment module is just too much for me.

I’ve been stack switching like crazy yes but I’ve been thinking heavily about this archetype conversation ever since I quoted @Viktor 8 days ago

[Jouissance]

EmpD emotional maturity?

I think I got a good EmpD insight.

Just realized I don’t like focusing.

Duh? It sounds very dull, but it’s not just the realization that I don’t like focusing that’s powerful, it’s the fact that it’s replacing much less helpful beliefs about myself.

It replaces thoughts like…

• “I have ADHD”
• “I procrastinate”
• “I like stimulating activities over productive ones unless I am intrinsically motivated.”

Which are labels that don’t ultimately serve me and are not very actionable.

On the flip side, “I don’t like to focus” is a very mature perspective in my opinion. And it’s actionable. I know the problem so I can Knowing I don’t like to focus, I can reward myself for focusing, I can know common pitfalls, etc.

[Jouissance]

Lol… I owe a big thanks to @Parsifal for reminding me that I’ve run Limit Destroyer… it was amazing, and then recon hell.

I must have literally blocked out the memory or something I’m in shock.

Stacks well with Genesis. Maybe in the future I’ll add it back in and start with 10s loops and build to 30s.

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I literally have been wanting a subliminal similar to DR Ultima for so long

Especially one that doesn’t require you to run the DR Stages first.

Something that you can use to run a DR like effect but less often and all in one sub.

My dreams are answered

@Jouissance

Listened to a 3 min loop

This is the first sub that ever gave me a headache - some people have experienced this before, but I’ve never until now.

It really did hit like an emotional truck. I feel like I’m living more like my inner child than myself.

I’m open to my partner “hey I want more love right now” and I’m communicating pretty well - I was too quick to respond sharply to something but immediately said “sorry I shouldn’t have been so sharp” which is actually a growth moment for me, I don’t usually catch myself doing that.

But yes I’m definitely over emotional. I’m giving off a bad vibe and being a taker, not a giver.

Just need to process - but if I had known, I would’ve started at 1 min not 3, and I’d recommend everyone start small!

@Jouissance

After my intense weekend of DR: Limit Destroyer, I’m now, 3 days later, feeling as @rqx described.

The way I would describe it is I’m feeling a near infinite-amount of REASONLESS JOY.

I’m happy without a reason or a need.

I feel more full, authentic, satisfied. I feel like the gap between desire and action is reduced to near nothing-ness, as if my intentions and actions are 100% aligned. I literally haven’t had a negative thought in the last 36 hours, bar one instance where I tried journaling on a very very tricky area in my life, and even then, I simply acknowledged “okay I’m biting off more than I can chew,” I did a few minutes of breathwork, I felt what I was feeling fully, and then I went back into journaling on that topic and was able to do so without a second wave of anxiety.