ENDGAME ouroboros

[praisetheurdtree]

@Jouissance

TL;DR - online job posting made me imagine what moving to new york would be like. maybe i’m ready for a big shake-up

Give it…two years max. We’ll meet each other in passing and have no idea. You’ll take your fiance to see a new off broadway show that I’m headlining in, we’ll shake hands during the gala prior to opening night. I’ll make a weird joke that hints at sub club.

[Jouissance]

Emperor Results

Maybe it’s because I’m sick, but I woke up at 5am today and did Qi-Gong for an entire hour.

Proud of myself for doing something so enriching at such an early time in the morning. I’ve been waking up at 10-11am most days the last two weeks.

Also, I see why @SaintSovereign is such a big fan of Qi-Gong. HUGE for subs. I’ve done 12 vipassana retreats, meditated at home countless hours, done 100’s of hours of walking randomly in the woods just to access my parasympathetic nervous system, and blahblahblah all the “things.”

Qi-Gong is the best. Just followed this video twice, then memorized it, and did them in my own order of preference. (I really enjoy the punching one first, because I get the DEEPEST belly breaths from that one).

8 Brocades Qigong Practice

[Jouissance]

RM:W + Emperor results

I have been a perfectionist afraid of posting all summer.

Less than 3 loops of emp + RM:W and it feels easy

[Jouissance]

Am observing a local kendo class today, seems cool so far. They have national team members, obviously a very serious dojo.

It would be cool to train here and would give me a reason to reintroduce Hero which I love but don’t want to run without martial arts/swordfighting in my life.

[Parsifal]

Being a sword fighter myself, I’d encourage you to look for a HEMA (Historical European Martial Arts) school instead.
Back in the day I was interested in everything Japanese and would have loved to learn kendo.
But then I met the head of our local Hema group in the locker room and he invited me to train with them.
Longsword is the most fascinating weapon I’ve ever learned. The two cutting edges allow for more techniques and “winden”, the techniques while the blades are in contact are crazy.

Here a short video about long sword fencing

Gladiatores - Training Inside - School Trailer Swordplay and more...

[Jouissance]

@Jouissance

Deeper Daredevil Impressions

I once posted about Daredevil and the surprisingly emotional growth I was experiencing on it.

I’m back on Daredevil now, and honestly, I’d forgotten how much of a “healing” sub this is for me. Had to review the old post I made… I was surprised then, I’m surprised now.

All of these are either results I wasn’t even aware until I read the sales page, and/or results I’m just shocked by.

Daredevil Experiences

1. Questioning my relationship a LOT more.

I’m happy about this, though.

I had originally thought that I was in recon hell from the Love Without Attachment module, or perhaps even my few tiny loops of WB did something to my commitment, but that’s not what happened…

Daredevil has been reconnecting me to my desire for freedom, adventure, personal growth, career impact, etc, and being in a relationship where the next step is to settle down, have a family, and prioritize how much money I make instead of how I make money has never felt right… even more so with Daredevil highlighting the natural parts of my archetype.

2. “The Present Moment” is becoming central

For good and for bad.

When I procrastinate, scroll, indulge in vices and escapism, it hurts WAY more. (Results can sometimes BE the recon - pain is a valuable teacher, if you’re willing to learn from it.)

And my moments of presence and clarity are much more joyful and meaningful. The first time I did Qi-Gong, I fell in love with it, and went from 20 minutes of guided Qi-Gong to memorizing the moves and spending almost an hour flowing through them at my own pace. It’s the most present I’ve ever felt in my life.

3. Imagining totally new possibilities for my life

My ability to imagine new possibilities with optimism is expanding. I had received notice that a company in NYC was hiring, and instead of being pessimistic about moving to America, about the crowded city life of NY, etc., I was simply filled with wonder.

Practically speaking, I don’t think it’s the exact right move or timeline, but my takeaway from the experience is that a big part of me is ready for a big move.

4. Self Worth Issues coming to the surface (and being healed)

How can you tell a captivating story if half way through, you think to yourself…

“Oh my god everyone is listening, but my story isn’t THAT interesting, they’re probably thinking I’m an attention hog right now”

Storytelling goes beyond the technical proficiency, and into the emotional comfort with being the storyteller, and being the one everyone is listening to.

In that sense, it’s an incredible foundation sub for ASBR, which is like a Daredevil+Wealth+Fame+Dominance sub, IMO. You’re the center of attention if you’re famous.

5. Daredevil requires a high amount of conscious guidance to fully express.

The pro tips say it best. Emphasize the present moment. Be curious and open to new experiences. Practice story telling. Connect with others through that.

Daredevil has immense internal results, but it’s an “action” oriented sub, and the action it emphasizes is complete disregard of the status quo and being free, taking extremely bold attention, being the center of attention by captivating a room with a well-told story, living fearlessly.

And as much as Emperor is a “difficult” sub, it’s also very conforming to societal expectations: hate on universities, hate on your boss, be a lone wolf alpha that focuses heavily on wealth. That requires discipline, but, not courage… not if you know that you can accomplish business success. There’s a clear financial and material (sexual) motive underlying much of what Emperor has to offer.

But what about Daredevil? What’s the “obvious” answer to why to adventure? Why do it at all?

Crossing the country, taking a daring venture, re-orienting your whole life to be more in line with living solely in the joy of the present moment, on the other hand? That isn’t in line with the “future orientation” and material obsession of modern western society. It takes not just discipline, but also courage.

In the future, I think changing my ENDGAME custom be have Limitless Executive in it instead of Mogul is ideal, as wealth requires productivity more than productivity requires wealth, making it even more “foundational”

[Jouissance]

I did check out a place called Academie Duello as well. Liked it a lot! Kendo was great in some ways but the class was split up into “beginners” and advanced. I’d have to train with the beginners and the oldest one was 7…

[Viktor]

@Jouissance

It would be cool to train here and would give me a reason to reintroduce Hero which I love but don’t want to run without martial arts/swordfighting in my life.

Pull the trigger, it’s worth it

[Jouissance]

Stillness & RoM

My life is good with stillness, bad without. .

A few days ago I asked support for the best title to cultivate stillness. No answer yet, but I think it’ll be Revelation Of Mind.

And the more i read the sales page, the more the title resonates.

Last time I ran RoM was 2022, but that was the time in my life where I realized I wasn’t happy chasing money, and needed to chase an impact driven business. I’m now pursuing almost exactly the model I dreamed up then.

I need that scripting now more than ever. Writing is a deep act of expressing the wisdom that comes from stillness. And writing is understanding who you are, what you have to say, and what your purpose in writing/life is. And as a science writer, ideally, the “acquisition of knowledge” from RoM would be perfect.

PS: with my new daily Qi-Gong practice, I’m meeting the recommendation to have a daily practice. (Sold.)

PPS: daredevil + RM:W + RoM would be a CRAZY stack. RoM to understand your story and to have the mental stillness required to write. RM:W to write your story with excellent proficiency. And Daredevil to tell the story you spent so long contemplating and writing to the largest audience possible and using it to cultivate fame and success (cycled with ASBR).

PPPS: I’m doing two Vipassanas soon, one in October, one in December, so… RoM will probably have EXPLOSIVE results once I do those. (Triple sold!)

Thurs Oct 3rd… 3 min RoM

[Jouissance]

Report on 3 min RoM

Possibly a bit much? I felt like my meditations and qigong got worse, not better, and I’ve never had a sub make it hard for me to sleep at night until last night.

So I’ll drop down to 1 min.

On the bright side… I woke up feeling VERY healthy (I’ve been sick).

Happy I added RoM.

[Jouissance]

putting this here to review later

@Viktor

@Prioritas

Saint has already said this isn’t a great idea, as the harem scripting is a big part of the sub, and fundamentally denying the foundation of the script to try to get ancillary benefits from the physical shifting and confidence scripting will just lead to recon.

I agree.

This is my personal experience with WB.
Not only the harem scripting, i tried to ignore the romance, mystery etc scripting to an extent.

Recon was only a short term problem, even after the recon became manageable, i had to constantly deal with redirecting my life away from the romantic stuff and refocus on what i truly wanted.

This also happened with RM:UWX. Although it was not as much as WB, i had to refocus my life a lot away from writing.

In both cases, i just wanted some of the effects.
Emotional control, social skills & physical shifting from WB.
Storytelling, creativity, productivity & wealth from RM:UWX.
I don’t want to be in too many romantic situations or to get too deep into writing & becoming a writer. Yet those are what they both manifested.

The problem is about the great results that are way outside of what i want to focus on in life.

The manifestations were so strong that I didn’t need to really go out of my way to get them. The opportunities somehow found their ways to present themselves through various channels.

Pick a sub that suits you.
This is not even about recon, it’s about what comes after.
You can’t just ignore a big part of a sub without having to constantly realign your focus in life.
That gets tiring quickly.

You’re still in full control over your life. But you have to make the active decision to refuse the results.

[Jouissance]

Have been listening to primal romance and loving it. Check that thread for details for now.

Monday Oct 7, 3 min Primal Romance, 3min RM:W

[Jouissance]

Wed Oct 9 - 3 min primal romance

Fri oct 11 - 3 min Genesis, 3 min LE

Bit of stack switching.

[Jouissance]

Something has shifted inside of me. I am on a high. I feel momentum, I feel confident, I feel the most engaged with life that I have in months. Something has lifted me out of a depression, and into action.

I did an RoM loop 7 days ago, maybe that?

[MechaShaman]

@Jouissance

I am happiest when my life is so simple that all I have to do is focus immensely on the things that are most important. That could be considered "addict behavior if it’s drugs or something harmful, workaholic behavior, if it’s meaningless money-chasing like sales, but if it’s based in purpose and mission it’s considered the most important trait a hard working man can have.

Thank you for that wonderful post! I had a similar revelation about me beeing an addict aswell…and always beeong it…its all about channeling that addiction to something!

I am very drawn to Synergy: I am atman, but a little afraid that it could be a reccon monster…but the combintion of I am atman, mdfy: freedom and emotions unfettered sound really tasty…
Would you say that this combination is hard on recon, or is mdfy freedom keeping it in check?

[Jouissance]

Synergy: I AM ATMAN feels incredibly smooth.

What drove me to incredible recon with this custom was the “love without attachment” module included in my custom, during a time where I was already considering breaking up with my partner. So it created the ability to be non-attached which caused me to contemplate breaking up with her seriously, which scared me, and caused me to stop the custom.

Since using Primal Romance, things have gotten much better in that department.

I think that I AM ATMAN is an absolutely joyful and incredible module to have in any custom, even without MDFY: Freedom. I’ve used many of these other modules in the custom, but Synergy: I AM ATMAN has a unique flavor, where it’s massively accelerating results and giving me insights on an almost daily basis.

Later on in this journal, I realized that all of the results I attributed to Emotions Unfettered was actually a combo of that module AND the I AM ATMAN module.

[Jouissance]

I’ve been very active on the Primal Romance thread as that has been a major journey for me.

Listened since day 1 of it’s release and I can say my relationship has improved dramatically, break-up thoughts are turning into communication about what we both need in the relationship to be happy, the sex scripting in PR is absolutely phenomenal, we’re dirty talking as if the PN scripting was in there except it’s a product of increased connection so it’s romantic/filthy dirty talk.

Great sub. Point for SaintSov in my books. But wow EmpD looks good too hey?

[Jouissance]

Sunday : Genesis and LE 5 mins

[Jouissance]

Tuesday: 45s Emperor Daddy inspired by @Niles incredible young-man-sales results with it.

[Jouissance]

With sales, I got to run subliminals without avoiding the ultimate question: Who Am I?

Instead, I got to ask the much easier question: Who do my prospects need me to be?

Now I’m starting to ask myself who I really want to be, without worrying about what anyone else thinks, for the first time in half a decade.

And I’m starting to think it’s not Daredevil. I want a life of adventure, yeah, but I want that to be a small part of my life. I want to be more social. But I don’t want to be Tom Cruise.

If I run Daredevil, I WILL become a Daredevil, (aka Tom Cruise). I have ultimate faith in that. I no longer believe in Conscious Guidance is strong enough that I can pick and choose which parts of Daredevil I want to express. I think Conscious Guidance is strong but extended subliminal exposure is stronger.

Until I find out exactly who I want to be, I don’t feel right running any archetype subs. ASBR, Emperor, Khan, WB, even Daredevil… they all embody a character and if I don’t truly align with that, that’s all it’ll be, a character.