Time for a new journal. I’ve been lurking for a good while now checking in on new updates ever since i finished my new Khan run. To be honest there was not much to post or talk about. At this stage for me it’s mostly about refinement and enjoying what life have to offer. This bad boy however have been giving me so much gains I need to journal it so that i can look back on it in the future just like I sometimes do my old ones.
A Stark Black Reality Core
WANTED Black Core
Synergy: Divine Dominion
Divine Will
Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
Pragya
Synergy: Preordained Vitality
Synergy: Carpe Vitam
Synergy: Machine Totality
Synergy APS: Head/Face
Cosmic Navigator
The Way of ROI
Furious Ascent
Fearsome
Lifeblood Fable
Seeker’s Discernment
SPS: Nervous System
Auric Overdriver
Epigenetics & DNA Modulator
Omnidimensional
Now this is my 3rd custom sub ever. The first one i had was messing around with the idea of having wealth and learning cores in order to boost the store subs. The second was pure physical shifting with Lots and BLDM which worked fantastically ( in 2 moths i got half and inch taller and somewhat thicker ) which i am satisfied with.
This one is my first experimental using Synergy Cores. I am using it solo, 3 times a week ( 3 to 5 min loops ) but it hits like a bulldozer. I’ve been using this for close to 2 months now and my results are kinda out there but it matters not.
To start with: This custom even when run solo have caused me dense recon on the level of the time i was spamming version one of ZP ( Primal Seduction, Old Libertine, Seggs Mastery X and Diamond ). The plan was to refine it further removing some modules yet my gut instinct told me to keep going
Physical Shifting: The physical shifting aspect of WB + Synergy APS: Head/Face and maybe some effects from Synergy: Preordained Vitality have drastically changed my face. People and especially old acquaintances always ask if i started a new skincare routine and one even asked if i got one of those jawline chewing gums. While comparing new and old photos, there is barely a difference in my jawline but from the EYE level… my face have filled up in a way that is impossible to deny.
I started my new job around the same time i started using this custom. The amount of compliments i get from work have gotten so out of hand it feels cringe at this point. I almost envy them for how easily and freely the get to say whatever they want knowing if i said 10% of the “”"" i hear i would be reported in some manner. I’ve stopped working out entirely and focused completely on running / jogging yet i am in the same shape i was at my peak when i used to hit the gym plus a the now 7% ish body fat ( my normal rate is around 12 - to 15 despite how hard i tried back in the day to get a six pack )
I now realize that the way i consciously guided the sub, from my eye level, shaped my naturally triangular jawline where from the angle i look at in the mirror, my face looks precisely how i imagined it.
Tip for physical shifting: Anyone using Lots, WB or a custom with physical shifting need to take action. The way i did it was massaging my face for 2 minutes after shower in a way i believed it would help ( This does not work, however it counted as taking action since i was not only thinking about the result but DID something ) and this something does not need to be perfect either. I don’t know jack about massaging or how the face or bone structure works anymore than the next guy but i associated the action with the intended result.
Social Results: I really got tried from all the people hitting me up so much. My network have expanded so much I’ve cut so many people off just to make some room for those who are most fun/interesting and yes… useful
I have so many options i get to be as picky as i want. Yet no popularity nor recon could ever make me disrespect nor under appreciate anyone. My peace of mind comes from first from making my mom proud, by being the man she raised me to be.
Money: This is mostly from new Khan which untangled so many fried wires in my brain i feel worthy and ready to receive what i am owed. And what i am owed is nothing less than a comfortable life and a comfortable job. I’ve been poor for 99% of my life. Today i can say that i am an above average earner in Sweden. It may not be much, for now, but I enjoy the pace it’s developing so much and i am so grateful.
ASBR is still pulling it’s weight when it comes to money. I’ve networked with few but very knowledgeable people and I’ve started learning and investing. At the job i am became the problem solver who does it with so much ease. I’ve single handedly revived a very important department of my job to the level where they can now afford hiring new people. The creativity is pure lazy genius in my case as in i can easily find solutions that are so simple yet effective I can afford to be as lazy as i want.
Spirituality: As I’ve stated on my new Khan review. My path in life is spiritual. I want to to be in the flow, in the moment permanently. And like i said before. This is a little out there but i figured it out. It’s not a simple technique but the culmination of all my previous experiences, highs, lows and knowledge enhanced by Synergy: Divine Dominion, The Way of ROI, Cosmic Navigator and Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages. While i found the key, i realized that using it is far more terrifying and uncomfortable than i could have ever imagined…
If i could simplify the experience in a way it would be this. Imagine fully, utterly and completely detaching yourself from the environment, your body, your mind and time itself. Staring, embracing and completely becoming nothing except for the presence that watches. To say that i have the key to enter this state is a massive understatement of just how hard it can be. Having every cell in my being begging, lying and using every trick imaginable just to go back to the comfortable. Only a scant amount of people could fully comprehend how much this key demands and how simple it is ironically. Which is why i am 20% there from the goal of being permanently present or in the flow.
Now i could be disillusioned, wrong or half wrong but i no longer care nor need the certainty, for that need by itself was the biggest thorn i had to pluck while on new Khan Stage 1.
This could be why i feel exhausted 90% of the time. It could also be that this custom is too kitchen sink. I am simply following my gut instinct which says to keep going this path.
Da Ladies: I’ve been getting so many stares from women and even got approached at least once a week. Without sounding too cynical, I have little need of anything from a woman that isn’t my gf who stood by me through so much and loved me in a way i could never repay nor fully comprehend. While she cares little if i have some fun on the side, I rarely ever do since my standards are so high. But going beyond the pleasures of ego and flesh… it matters little compared to my real goals.
For now my fun is seducing without seducing. How can i seduce with as little effort as possible? While requiring 0 investment from either side.
If i read this 10 years ago I’d bet my life the person writing this is someone else. My high libido wasn’t because of testosterone or my love for women, It came from a masked ego and a deep craving of intimacy i could only get on a physical level. Now i am drawn to real beauty, authenticity and unrelenting self expression.
This lead me to truly comprehend the beauty, kindness and femininity in all shapes and forms. The way Zan Perrion describes it
Now for the drawbacks
I feel tired 90% of the time as i stated earlier. I sleep great, i eat great, i take care of my health and i jog each time the weather is fine. My relationships are great. I love my job. Everything is great. Yet somewhere very deep within, my very being is showing me just how addicted i was to suffering. How badly i wanted to be the victim again. To get angry again… To feel like the world is against me. To struggle for another " Milestone " thinking all will be well after and to those bittersweet emotions and thoughts that seem more real than anything i could ever be.
Those results are not just random or accidental where you feel truly alive for a while and then go back to normal randomly. This is my full effort to maintaing this state, while denouncing everything else.
You are what you think about… Such a simple statement a 6 year old could understand… Yet its so tricky to comprehend it would be easier to tell a blind person what the color RED is. Words could never give it justice yet giants who walked so we could run like Ekhart Tolle e.t.c have done such an amazing job in grasping the smoke.
Things are going far too good. Almost as i am being mocked by getting everything my ego and insecurities thought it needed just to see that you are who you are, no matter where.
My old self is SCREAMING danger… that some bad thing could happen… Not a second goes by where i don’t feel like breaking down just to go back to the old self which i’ve so gracefully denied. To listen to the old songs that made me feel sad, to feel like i am the underdog who needs to suffer to find meaning, To be the nobody my father always told me i was, to be the guy who has to prove something to be happy, to be the unwanted guy that no girl could ever give a damn about and to feel that bittersweet intensity of pain and anger… That familiar place…
Lastly, My results are consciously guided and backed by slow yet persisting action. I no longer need anything outside of myself… and when i do… The world will gladly present it to me
Water, sun and love. All you need, the air you breathe
