Subconscious Virtuoso - Stumbling into the Light 🔥

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Training was f**king awesome today, too…

(and recon doesn’t stand a chance once I get to it)

My moves were fluid. My timing was great. And my speed was effortless…

…and my legs were sore still from working out and training hard two days ago, too.

Once my body started moving, it felt like I tapped into another source of energy…

And even though there were points where I felt a little off or sloppy, I got compliments for those same points about how smooth I looked – it’s probably the bent for perfecting my skills, knowing there’s still more improvement to be made.

A goal I have going forward is to incorporate more training into my days, both technical and full on workouts, and get closer to my body’s peak physical abilities within the year.

I know by pouring more energy into training, I’ll have to be far more focused and strategic with work and other areas of my life…

…so I collapse into bed every night knowing I gave everything I had that day to the things that matter most.

Let’s fkn go.

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I did not “empty the tank” yesterday…but I did do more. I broke the status quo…

Usually on the days I go to training for a couple hours, I don’t workout afterwards.

Not yesterday.

After coming to the realization that I’m leaving a lot left in the tank yesterday, I got off my ass and spent about 20 minutes doing calisthenics and about 30 minutes running…with just enough time to get back before the first drop, lol.

Could I have done more?

Yes.

But killing myself isn’t the goal… it’s more about becoming a monster at being efficient and effective; pushing passed the mental and emotional programming that’s always trying to keep me “safe” and doing a fantastic job of it; to move far outside of my comfort zones in all areas, not die, and teach my subconscious to let go of the past.

I don’t know if it’s Hero’s scripting around honesty (on all levels), the boldness scripting from Nouveau RICH, or this being the 4th month running Emperor that’s helped flip this switch…

…but it’s been flipped.

And I woke up today with the safety program running a “if you go for a longer run today with that level of soreness in your legs, you might hurt yourself” script…

…which is a possibility…

…so I made a mental note to incorporate more stretching, mobility, and use of recovery tools daily.

I’ll use the feedback I get from my efforts to adapt and make the next move…and if I’ve taken things as far as I can that day, then I’ll switch to another area to focus on.

And I intend to follow a similar strategy for getting to the next level of financial freedom.

It’s time to make moves. Now. There may not be a later.

[RVconsultant]

Have you thought about making a custom in the next 4 months or so?

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I have… Sounds like you’ve got a reason for asking.

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I noticed my spending habits have changed…I’m more calculating and observant of the triggers for my wanting to buy something.

My thoughts tend towards asking questions like… is it for me? Or is it to influence what people think of me? Did the marketing do a good job of pressing my buttons (like these SubClub sales pages)? What result am I after by buying that product/service?

Etc, etc, etc…

Not exactly sure how the innovation or disruption scripting is going to express with what I’m doing for money, but I’m thinking the innovation side of things will be helpful. Haven’t had any noticeable results on that front yet.

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Today was the first day I doubled up on working out, and that was before going to train for a couple hours…yesterday was supposed to be the first day of my two-a-day regimen, but I let excuses get in the way.

Doesn’t matter. I overcame the mental bs today, and now that I’ve experienced how much it sucks, doing it again tomorrow won’t be as big a deal…because it wasn’t as bad as what my mind tried to tell me today.

I expect that I’ll suffer more as the days go on, and want to do two workouts per day less and less as my body gets more and more exhausted…

…but I also expect that I’ll be able to break through all that and get to a place of monstrous resilience. I’m not interested in movie star physique…I seek godlike performance and function.

I’m really curious what I can do within the next 6 months committed, disciplined action taking.

(And the same applies to my business endeavors.)

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I have a call in an hour, and it just started raining…can I fit in ONE of my two workouts in beforehand, and maybe go run like I planned for this morning?

The list of excuses grows:

I didn’t get to bed until about 1am last night, and got woken up at around 5am, tossed and turned for another 90 minutes or so…I was beat af getting out of bed.

Spent the morning feeling the subtle aches and stiffness from yesterday’s training and working out, so instead of running I made some breakfast and sat on the couch: active recovery.

It was hard to focus during a meeting this morning…the lack of sleep kicked in hard. Had black tea to help my focus (yes, I broke my caffeine abstinence, BUT I’m 100% free of the physiological addiction now…I feel basically fine albeit a little groggy in the mornings, like a normal person would. I don’t feel a pressing need for coffee anymore.)

So…

Instead of taking action. Instead of making a decision. I’m thinking it out on an online forum, lol.

Ok, fuck it…let’s get after it.

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It was gotten after.

With 5 minutes to spare to get something to drink.

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Second day on this two-a-day workout regimen…

It wasn’t as tough to start the second workout today as it was yesterday, but there were some complaints in my body I had to adjust for. No big deal tho.

Even though I was beat afterwards, and could’ve easily gone to sleep early, I ended up having more than enough stamina to have sex and use a pillow-assisted position I was told I’d never done before…and which we should do again.

Another good Emperor result, I’d say.

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On the topic of Emperor…I reflected on the question I asked about the New Emperor’s leadership style, and it unlocked a realization: I tend to suppress that side of myself that might come off as “hard-ass”…it’s an old pattern I learned young.

It reminded me of a training group I was observing almost 10 years ago, and the head instructor told me to replace the guy teaching. I remember my first reaction being “I don’t want to make him feel bad, I’m not even supposed to be here.” I didn’t want to trigger his envy or dislike of me, we worked together.

The instructor just stared at me for a second, then said something like, “So what.” Feelings didn’t matter…not in that context.

So, I did it.

The facts were: that guy wasn’t doing a good job at teaching important concepts and I could do it better, which is why I was asked to. I knew it while watching. The head instructor knew it. But, when I was asked, some “soft ass” programming kicked in and I was concerned about “feelings”.

Not saying that that’s a bad thing, but it looks like I still have some uprooting to do of that old programming that is too concerned with not coming off as a “hard ass”. Which now that I’ve thought about what I meant by “hard ass” is basically just having high standards, firm boundaries, a no-nonsense policy for getting shit done, and commitment to a vision…

Get onboard, or see ya when I see ya…

In certain contexts, that’s exactly the type of leadership that’s needed. And clearly, I still have development to do in this area.

Tomorrow’s the first loop with New Emperor replacing the old… I’m pumped.

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Up and out of bed after only 5 hours or so…body feels both sore and stronger. There’s probably a nap in my not-too-distant future…

Left quad cramped during a set of military presses last night, and it still felt a little tight this morning, so I used that as an excuse not to go run first thing.

One of these days I’m going to jump out of bed and into a workout or a run, but it is not this day.

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One of the side effects of being onboard the SubClub hype train is I spend way more time reading sales pages and forum posts, lol…it’s fun.

But, I’m feeling like it’s about that time to get ruthless with my energy and attention again.

I ran the first loop of New Emperor shortly after getting up. Full loop. And so far, no sense of it being too “heavy” or anything. It was smooth.

Holding off on running Nouveau RICH until this evening to give New Emperor time to breathe.

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I’ll capture more of the minute changes and insights here as they come up during the day, instead of summary style entries once a day or every other.

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It’s only day 3 of doing two-a-days, and I felt like a beast…the momentum is building, and the inner fire is burning hotter.

It’s probably a Hero influence (could also be that smooth New Emperor vibe), but the more I push my physical limits the more I remember what I’m capable of, and what kind of stuff I’m made of…

I had plenty of excuses to not workout the way I did today, then follow that up with a run that zero parts of my body felt ready for, but I got it done…

…and the beast within opened an eye.

This practice of uncomfortableness is putting things I’ve been overthinking (and over-preparing for) with business and other areas into a new perspective. And the negative thoughts seem muted.

I feel poised and ready. All I have to do, is do.

It’s amazing what only a few days of pushing through voluntary physical suffering will do to clear the mind and emotions.

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Excerpt from a book…

awareness: catalyst for action, or security blanket

Awareness can be a catalyst to make something happen, or it can be a security blanket to wrap your “issues” up in, to protect and incubate them.

Awareness is only one small part of having your life work. We all know some highly educated and amazingly aware people who are also very ineffective. They may be able to analyze, advise and sermonize, but they tend to stop there — to cuddle up with their reasons and understanding rather than follow through on that knowledge with the necessary required actions to get the result that they are after.

Remember that reasons only help you to sound reasonable and that they have nothing to do with producing personal and professional accomplishment. Newly acquired knowledge must be implemented in order to be of any real value. Without implementation knowledge becomes stagnant. And implementation only occurs through the individual’s behaviors and actions. Personal and business transformation requires not necessarily that you acquire new understandings, but that you change.

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Sensing some profound internal shifts today…

For tracking, the amount of exposure for each sub so far is:

• 11 loops of Hero; started Sept 26th; 11th loop 3 days ago; currently in third cycle
• 10 loops of NRICH; started Oct 9th; 10th loop yesterday; currently in second proper cycle (this sub was a “stack breaker” and replaced DRLD before the end of its 4th cycle; recon was had but it wasn’t that bad)
• 23 loops of Emperor; started Aug 4th; 4 cycles completed
• 1 loop of New Emperor; started Nov 16th; replacing “old” Emperor for 5th cycle

The reason for tracking exposure – because the real magic is in the practice of taking action – is because I’ve noticed that even if I’m not taking much action towards a specific sub’s goals, I still feel positive internal shifts after enough exposure (and recon), which leads to better decision-making, and thus, more action-taking. For me, that inflection point is around 11 loops of exposure.

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I woke up feeling great…the soreness I felt yesterday is 80% gone, and I feel an increasing clarity of purpose.

I’ll write more later as the insights come, but for now it’s time to get things done.

It’s going to be a good day.

[summit]

I was on fire yesterday…the level of focus, drive, and grit to get things done was over 9000.

And apparently it’s still over 9000 because my body is ready to go again after only 4.5 hours last night…

Within the next 3.5 hours I have to be completely ready to travel. There are a few things left to take care of so the place is prepped to have some work done in the kitchen and entrance while I’m gone…

…and I still have to pack. One day, I’ll have trunks or duffle bags of clothes stashed at various locations I visit throughout the world so all I have to is walk out the door with my phone, keys, and wallet… but it is not this day.

After I leave, I’ll head to training for a couple hours – because a day with training in it is always a better day – but before I go to training I’ll get one of my two workouts in…

It’s day 5 of doing two-a-days, my body soreness is minimal and it still protests before I start a session, but the level of energy I feel right now is amazing and contradicts everything I thought I knew about how doing this would play out…

…so I’m going to keep it going.

The combination of Hero’s physical enhancements and Emperor’s resilience feels awesome.

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Presence of mind is easy to let slip away when you’re immersed in a situation that isn’t going your way…and that’s when its most important to maintain it, to be patient, and slow down. Breathe. Fix your inner stance. Make small adjustments. Let go of things that aren’t working. Listen for the right moment. And when it comes, don’t think, just do. Make your move.

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Today’s first workout set me back 30 minutes on my timeline this morning, and nearly wiped me out for the rest of the day. It was way harder than any of the previous days…it was one of those workouts that makes you question your life decisions, lol.

Only getting 4.5 hours of shut eye last night caught up with me this evening and resulted in me putting on a dumb movie and zoning out because reading felt like too much work. And when I thought of doing the second workout, I made the decision to drop it…I felt drained. I mean, I did 2 hours of training after I did a soul crushing workout. It wasn’t like I took it easy today… I needed rest and recovery. I needed to take care of myself. I needed to avoid injury. I needed to not try so hard…

…and about an hour after coming up with all those reasons and deciding I wouldn’t do the second workout, I did the second workout.

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You know you’re experiencing the accelerated recovery times of Hero when doing one workout in a day feels like it’s a rest day.

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Yesterday, I got called “mean” for reflecting a question back at someone without modulating my voice to not sound too blunt or cold…

It wasn’t intentional. I was in an impatient state due to circumstances.

After a few breathes, I realized that I felt “out of control” of my situation…and New Emperor doesn’t vibe well with that kind of state. And for me, it can result in being terse.

So, I reframed my internal stance. I took on more of a leadership role to shape how things played out…and I felt more at ease.

Today, I got told, “Okay, you’re the boss.”

It was said with a bit of a huffy tone because she didn’t get her way and is used to being bossy, but she couldn’t argue with my plan (which was way better, lol).

The end result: everyone was happy.

I’ve only run two loops of New Emperor so far, and leaning into shaping plans and leading makes this sub feel way smoother and have a more powerful effect instead of “going with the flow” of other people’s whims or offers, especially if it’s not something I’m that interested in.

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So, I use my visits with family over the holidays as one way to see how much I’ve evolved internally over the year.

It’s super easy to fall into old patterns and default reactions to specific triggers and situations – slipping happens even after years of doing changework – and this year marked a noticeable change for me…

I have a policy of not arguing – it’s a waste of energy and time; debating is a different story – but certain members of my family have a policy of argue first, understand later. Well, this time around I navigated those situations and interactions by taking a direct but honorable approach (instead of detaching or brushing it off), and the end result was surprising.

I got the results I wanted and there was very little to no friction in things playing out smoothly around me.

I was a little apprehensive running New Emperor while being there, but everything went great. The couple of times that people tested my boundaries, I handled it like I’d handle a kid doing something dumb, with compassionate directness. It was automatic. I didn’t have to think, I just responded to it and moved on. And they didn’t behave that way again the rest of the week. We had a good time.

I think the New Status Experience mixed with Hero’s virtue scripting is a really potent combination.

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When something enters your awareness that’s new and outside of any previous experience so there’s no frame of reference…what do you do?

Dismiss it? Rationalize? Or wonder?

As I was driving along the highway, at the peak of rush hour, I happened to look sharply up and to the left at a point in the sky where some object was reflecting the Sun…

…it didn’t match anything familiar in my memory banks (it was elliptical)…
…it looked much farther away than the highest plane in the sky…
…and it wasn’t moving?

My friend and I had completely opposite responses when it suddenly disappeared from the visible sky.

It made me realize that my level of openness and curiosity is growing…and having a little debate with a friend about a UFO is always good.