I always knew my life sucks, I have no money, my character is weaker than I’d like to admit, I don’t have good social or seduction skills, I’m undisciplined.
But I always bottled it deep down and acted like I’m the man, but Khan TB is making me realize, I’m not the man, I’m not even a man.
I absolutely hate my life, I’m not saying it in a depressive way, I’m saying it in an ambitious way.
I can’t live like this anymore.
It’s time to break my self down, completely.
Burn the old and rise from the flames of the newfound truth.
Total Breakdown does that to ya. Judging by journal name, are you combining EOG with Khan? If so then it’s very likely that TB will take full priority over EOG as in achieving it’s goals through TB. The joy scripting from EOG will ease the journey somewhat. My first cycle of TB was in 2024 and i ran it again for 3 cycles earlier this year.
TB healing is like a controlled burn. It feels like everything’s catching fire like old fears, false beliefs, pain. The smoke is thick, and you will want to escape. But when it clears, there’s space for something new to grow. It’s not destruction but it’s renewal. The full benefits will only be shown in hindsight which is another test of will, to believe in progress you cant perceive while feeling on fire for the most part.