My goal, my aspiration, is to be engaged with my vocation, with my life’s work. I believe that I am within striking distance of my life’s work; but a push is required, otherwise, I will remain separated from it, as I have for decades now. I find myself having a greater sense of clarity about it.
I am an INFP. In the categorization of Dr. Katherine Benziger, I am a Double Right, Basal Right lead. This means that my problem-solving and processing ability naturally inclines towards Feeling processes; the logic of feeling, the wisdom of feeling, the intuition of feeling.
Feeling is not referring to mere emotion or emotionality; rather, feeling is the organism’s processing of coherence and (structural-experiential) integrity, of which emotionality is but one dimension. Its watchwords are empathy and presence. Its philosophical branch is Phenomenology.
As a basal Right, my preferred mental processing involves direct contact and engagement with Feeling. Ironically, my current work takes this as one of its objects; not for the sake of direct engagement, but for intellectual systematization and categorization. This is the Thinking function. Analytical discernment from a distance. The competence of the categorizer, the Administrator. The laser-focused, precise systematizer who both analyzes and enforces the rules and strategies of optimal function—from a distance.
I will always be mediocre in that role of adminstrator, gate-keeper, enforcer. I can work and improve at it, but the basic, intrinsic motivation is not and will not be there.
Where I shine is in processing and inductive reasoning around Empathic Intelligence and the objects of empathic intelligence. The elements of felt experience. Guided by a felt sense of organismic integrity, coherence, and rightness. In the current state of affairs, it is disparaged and often marginalized as ‘merely’ subjective. But there is a legitimacy in the subjective when it is dealt with honestly and humbly. There are data within it that are inaccessible in any other way. And, for that matter, Consciousness itself will never be apprehended except through the lens of the subjective.
So, blah blah blah.
But anyway, this is it.
The Intellection of the Subjective. The Phenomenology of Feeling/Felt Experience.
Keep it going.
Baby’s still in the womb. And we’re going for a natural birth rather than a C-section. Not that much to share right now.
is that Mogul would be the most precise for the exact issue you mention. Why? Because you’re pressed for time. (Well, I’m just guessing based on your description.) Mogul gets right to the point and has nothing extra. Optimize. Money. Now.