Happened again, word being “blinded” read and heard.
Read while reading lyrics of a song, heard from a philosophical video about simulations and reality
Two things I am interested in and working on, following the bliss.
First thought while on the pathless Path act 2 was can you take me higher, well, the whole song, singing and playing in my head, with remixed lyrics and sounds from thine own truly
Our self always gives us hints as to who we are, we we could be, what our interests are, our aspirations.
Looking back it is of no wonder that I am the way I am. Since I was a child, I would read things that I couldn’t comprehend consciously. I remember when I read the Divine Comedy, could barely understand the words, but the imagery still echoes till this day.
NSpiritualE doing it’s thing, between the week where I took a break from Alchemist stage 1 till today, the effects waned a bit. But they are back now. Perhaps I was enjoying my bliss and forgot for a moment. Stopping while doing anything. Stopping for a moment during whatever and whenever and feeling the silence and the stillness.
Illusion of confusion
Alright to do list:
Continue transferring all my notes and work on them as much as I could.
Finish the earlier poem, focusing on alliteration and sound
To do list:
Finish the final draft of RM custom
Loving these new habits
Loving unlearning, abandoning, recycling and repurposing these old habits, the physical and mental and emotional and spiritual, into something more useful. I love these detachment.
TRANSMUTATION MUTHAFUKKER, Yeeeehaaa.
Okay, so, 8:33 minutes of listening, within 3 hours a shift in my mental landscape is continuisly taking place.
MDFY NOW
NREE
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Must accomplish something tangible soon. Must produce something.
My goal is to get to the States. Been so for the longest time, I love the freedom of speech; despite the corruption, the lies and deception, the illusion, despite all the bad sides, I know of it all, I still wish to be a part of it. No place is fully perfect I know, but at least that is a place where potentials could grow, especially creative and artistic and innovative. I would strive where ever I am, I know that for certain, and every hellhole has its chutes and ladders. But I want someplace worth dying in. I never had a country or a place I truly call home.
I was so close of getting there, just a damn border. But I was in a terrible mental and emotional state, and my damn pride and cynicism, and refusing to ask for help or take help, yet I always extend my hand and my heart and my wallet and my soul to anyone that asks or looks like they need help. Despite all of that I refuse to take, always giving. I think there’s no honor in that or self grandizing of some sort, Must be one of the many complexes. Psych augmentation and psych restoration is doing it’s thing; as I noticed my, why I think is a benevolent god complex, that’s how I see good so that’s my expression of a god complex, and God knows I’m mercurial by nature and astral birth.
In the end, I know it doesn’t matter but I am so far away from the end and I can amend any situation, I can sit through anything, so I have proven to myself with that mundane mind numbing hours upon hours, years over years of sitting through fucking classes.
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So much to do, not enough hands, cut myself to pieces, I’m gonna start a band… at somepoint
God how I miss my painting set 
How do you think this sub worked with MDFY Now?
Do you feel like the healing was enough even though it was essentially pressed for quick results?
How is it going so far with this custom?
Do you feel like the NREE and the NEHE play well together?
It’s only been a couple of days, but wow, DRAGON BLOOD! I feel exhilarated and uplifted. My positivity has returned, and it’s as if my life force is back. I’m able to reach resolving conclusions to old mental models quickly.
The best part is how natural it feels. If I weren’t consciously observing, I might not even notice the changes happening inside. So many internal shifts are occurring that I sometimes struggle to keep up, especially when something takes precedence, like an old memory. When this happens, everything else fades into the background. Later, I’ll remember and realize that some change took place, giving me a chance to examine it.
What’s remarkable is that the healing I’m experiencing would normally trigger stronger emotional responses, but that’s not the case. I feel completely safe when revisiting old memories, particularly childhood experiences. These memories used to provoke intense emotions and anger, but they don’t anymore.
Overall, I feel much more motivated and positive about life. This experience has been transformative, allowing me to process past events with a new sense of calm and clarity.
So, so far its been excellent! Since listening, everything in my life has been going smoothly, hyper focused on work, doing chores without losing that focus, getting inspiration here and there, it feels like being in the centre, you know zero-pointing it. Work that I’ve been postponing, is being tackled relentlessly, I kid you not. If my body is not hurting I would continue working, I’m also bothered that I have to eat lol, so I meal prepped and stocked up on quick eats, fruits and nuts and such. I’m not even doing it full justice because I have no idea where to begin or what to say about it.
It is intense no doubt but in a good sense, not in past-tense or future-tense, just in this current tense (time). EoG already doing its things still, money coming in for me and family, still the eye opening parts and realizing what I can do and how to do it - the wealth push is there.
I even notice how influenced my writing is by those subs, my thinking and whatever is streaming inside.
Oh yeah, the NSE scripting (I’m not sure if there is a general NSE as well as a title tailored one in every title, like NSE+NWE in a wealth, NSE+NRE in WB etc…, just a random thought) pouring in all sorts of experiences for me to learn from, random situation in the streets like standing up to someone, some obervations here and there, some re-inforcers of the regality, as well as vision, daydreams, thought and such, family stories and questions being brought up, random family members calling me a millionaire, another comparing me to some famous people. Non is random of course lol.
All I could say is DRAGON BLOOOOOOOOOOD!!! lol
I think NREE IS one of new favorites that I will include in every custom, except the RM custom that already has New Skill and Learning experience, although I might kick out NLE for NREE. Yeah, I’m going to do that. See? a result to something that I have been wondering about, when I was working on my draft earlier. I will now have to sleep on it another day or two to make sure 
Results keep popping up everyone, that’s how wonderful this module is.
Yes, I do feel like they play well together, my day is mostly working, but every distraction is bringing a result with it in many forms, especially since the scope of DRRG is WIDE, every catagory. I will admit that I do not have a frame of reference to compare to having and not having those two modules, but all I know that since I added in DR/Alch st1, I fell in love with NREE. It feels like I’m getting more than without it, its like squeezing more juice from a melon, I mean a lemon, that without it.
Ah, yes, my mind feels lighter, those structures that DR pages talk about, you know, subconscious structure that throw you off, are less and less, much more calmer. Even when I practice active imagination, meditate, or just visuals whats inside or reactions to different scenes for writing, there is a sense calmness, like I was just meditating or finished a workout and body is full of feel-good biochemicals. Speaking of working out, my body is at more ease than usual, stretching is deeper than usual, some areas needed some care that I wasn’t aware off, found myself intuitively moving some muscles around my neck, improving my posture and easing the pain.
On stage 1, I would often get symbols like being in a scorched field where once grew all sorts of vegetation but also sheltred all sorts of things, good and bad. The imagery would also show a dead land, a land devoid of life, a wasteland of thirsty grounds, all cracked and chasmed. With Dragon Blood, I started getting ideas and pictures of all these lands being feed complex, intertwined streams of radiant golden liquid with hues of red, passing and filling all the crevices, holes and bores. Which is basically healing lol
The results have been amazing, surpassing my expectations. Often, I felt I was done with Dragon Reborn Stage 1 and questioned why I added it, thinking there wasn’t much left to process. However, I trusted that unseen work was happening beneath the surface, and I wanted the Red scripting.
Alchemist immediately delivered the results I sought, as it was my primary focus. The Red effect was noticeable, similar to Gold - that familiar scorched feeling, like walking with a third-degree burn. With NSpiritual experience, the healing took on a spiritual dimension. I found myself detaching from what was being healed, remembering the cyclical nature of highs and lows, peaks and troughs. This detachment was the most distinguishable difference from DRG1 when I added NSpE.
Alchemist triggered frequent reflections and deepened my self-understanding. I explored my inner realm, examining what motivates me, what repels me, and what defines my essence. I delved into philosophical questions about the layers of self. Importantly, I re-evaluated my spiritual journey of the past few years - where I’d been, what I’d done, what I’d gained, and how I felt when I deviated from my path. This introspection led me back to practices that work for me, heightened my sensitivity to others, and left me feeling empowered.
Interestingly, I developed the ability to sense energies. For a while, I’d been skeptical about this concept, not fully disbelieving but doubting my capacity for it, despite my previous energetic practices. This experience has drawn me back to those practices. I literally felt a cleansing, though it’s challenging to articulate.
The most profound effect has been the stillness. Since starting, an inner voice has constantly reminded me to stay awake and avoid falling into mechanical living. I find myself able to drop everything, even mid-thought, regardless of what I’m doing. Whether deeply engrossed in a movie or enjoying a meal, I can just stop. I’m resisting old pathways and habits that no longer serve me, whether good or bad.
This experience has facilitated deeper understanding, helping me realize the futility of endless chasing and the trap of always wanting more, even in positive pursuits. While I knew these truths before, recent life events had clouded my vision, gradually dimming my inner spark.
My intuition and clairvoyance have sharpened, as if my perception has cleared. The stillness is beautiful, a common thread in many teachings that often goes unnoticed. T
his journey embodies the “Echoes of Wandering Whispers” theme, reconnecting me with forgotten wisdom and inner truth.
For now, yes, I knew exactly what my character needs working on. I wanted to experiment with making a dragon reborn inspired by the speed DR-Phoenix and fell into something great in my lap. Could it go further, I initially wrote an enthusiastic yeah, but now I am second guessing it, where else would I go, will I go through every single memory I had and examine it? To what purpose end would that serve? I don’t wish to remain in that healing cycle, afraid to step outside the shadows because they got comfortable. So, yes, for my current circumstances it is. I ensured that I know that I am pressed for time and focus on reflection, like just as I am writing this, an old memory came up of when I was in kindergarten in a whole different country and family situation going to hell with my parents, I see it like a scene, the fear and sense of abandonment. This was a recurrent memory that comes up when I wish to delve deeper and I would always stop, making slow progress when I watch that memory, but this time I just let it play out, all while writing this very sentence. Previously, I would get some unsettling emotions as it was one of the hardest times on us and especially on my mother. But this time I just took a breath and understood something. Will I one day learn more, sure, but the sun shall rise tomorrow and set again, and I will not let those feelings manifest, no matter how little, in my life any longer.
Thank you for the questions, man, brought up somethings and learned.
All in all, concerning DR, it is one beautiful title, and so are those modules.
I hope that you found this useful
Don’t forget to laugh more!
I resonate with your dream so so so much.
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I hope that you’re taking steps for them 
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Wisdom is knowing what you don’t know; and the more I know I realize how much more i do not know and how much more I could learn and know, only to know that there’s more to know