Echoes of Wandering Whispers (DRRG, Alch, KB, Ql, EoG, RM line, Revelations)

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#281

I have never been as excited and determined as I am now to embrace the pursuit of art. I am not even excited about my degree as much; I will still pursue my masters and phD. Art, its the only way I can describe my spirit, its the only way for me to express and communicate my emotions, its the only way for me to dream. My problem is that I am scattered into different fields and direction. I want to manufacture different things and build and research and wear many hats and for the longest time I figured that the only way for me to live many lives while in this story is to write stories and play different characters.

These past few weeks have been a pure reflection of my mind and soul. It is as if I am writing my own story with my own self. I use my inner voice and I find what I ask for outside, no doors locked, no obstacles. But I know that there is this lingering fear within me that I feel but step on forward. These past weeks, I have been asked if I am an artist by strangers; I met people who met famous artists, I met people that LITERALLY could open doors for me for those different endeavors that I am distracted into such as opening restaurants that serve actual proper food, engineers that offered insight on how to find work or even continue to pursue my degree, although its not the USA where my field thrives, but nontheless, its cheaper as I do not wish to burden my family. I know that I relied on them and all I want is to have the finance to support them. They have suffered for far too long and I always felt that I was a burden and still am, though they donā€™t believe so, but theyā€™re still humans and deserve a better life than they put themselves in because of their kids. Truth is that, they are my motivation, my loved ones, truth is that Iā€™ve been done with life some years ago and wouldnā€™t mind living in total simplicity, but that would be me taking the easy way out. I know that I can make a difference in this world on an even larger scale, not the estranged souls that cross me. Theresā€™s so much wealth and abundance in this world and I wish to have so much of it so I can help those that are struggling, the children and the animals. Life is suffering but we donā€™t have to surf on it for so long.

I have this inexplicable feeling that I have found my calling and its so close. The fame, the wealth, the art. I often asked why did I have to go through what I did since the womb and after. Why did I never just give up afterwards, why did I not give up yesterday? I know the ride is still sinuous but I still wish to see the end again and again, to reach to the end and dive within the divine, only to climb back up and return to the start. This emptiness that fills me is mine alone

#282

Listened to gateless gate the other day for a few minutes, Revelation suite with Love Bomb. I always had a peaceful and loving time with that one, its light despite the 4 cores and doesnā€™t slab me like a one of those giant tree trunks that where repeatedly rushed over back and forth giant gates to storm castles or candy stores. Been hard on myself these past week, the first week of the supposed new year, but itā€™s okay, I didnā€™t make any unnecessary resolutions. I have a plan that Iā€™m following, which sometimes seems like no plan, but things are moving forward, they always have been and shall always be so; with me or not. Win or lose, the sun will shine tomorrow irregardless of what I feel or accomplish or donā€™t.

Sometimes life does seem like itā€™s stuck, days go by and I am still at the same point, just more sun rises and moon falls. I am the dot within the circle anyway, turning around me, watching the weather changing.

Anyway, 33. Thatā€™s the number with Revelations. More so than before. Even drove on road 33 today. Last time I had this much numbers my life went upside down and lead me here.

Life has always been simple. Finish school, finish university, get the degrees, get the job and woman, money and futile distracting toys, give birth and repeat. Safe. It was safe I suppose and not simple. Yet that sense of insignificance was always there, like something is right under my nose. This is not safe what I am doing. But I know that it makes me feel Alive. Itā€™s scary and grounding. Life is dangerous but we pretend itā€™s not, most of us anyway. At least I feel like I am on an actual path of my own making. I am the mason and the cornerstone, I am the path and will continue to be.

I started late into this game, and it sometimes shakes me but that is nothing but a lie to cover my insecurity to be vulnerable. A habit I suppose, because I have shown vulnerability to others before I am still here giving these thoughts life. Maybe I should just let them fade into the wind like scattering smoke. Or maybe they are an exercise themselves. Today is always the best time to plant a tree. So will tomorrow and the day after, 'til we till the fields in laughter.

#283

Why canā€™t I edit my original post?

@RVconsultant Hello, there; how are you :slight_smile:

#284

I am well. What do you want edited, and in what way?

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#285

I wanted to add much more text; but I suppose I reached a text limit?

#286

What about posting:

ADDENDUM to my post [insert link here]:

ā€œthen post the text in the post which would be about #287ā€

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#287

Ooooh, brilliant!

#288

Dear, Godā€¦ I am debating on continuing with QL4 or switching to Limitless as a long term. Limitless looks more attractive than QL4, but QL seems more appropriate with Alchemist for long term.

@JCDentonā€™s randomizer tool got me 2 Limitless rolls and a Limitless Executive. Now I get a like notification on a QL post I made a while ago.

Iā€™ll ask support and sleep on it.

#289

Considering how QL was already released when that was asked, and it was just before the new limitless. I wonder if Saint meant Limitless and not QL. Might as well finish it

#290

Jesus, I finally made it to stage 4 of all these titles.

it has been about 5 months, I wish I could say that they flew by, but I would be lying to myself. I have one persistent hurdle that Iā€™m slowly and surely overcoming and it has to do with Khan Black, but its getting easier and will be easier tomorrow than it was today.

#291

I am curious about this part. When I first saw the contents of your Gateless Gate Custom, I thought it looked like absolute recon hell. Each Revelation title feels quite dense, but you got all of them and a fourth core in the form of Love Bomb and you went for the 20 module limit including heavy ones like Synergy: 42. I am aware that titles like Sanguine and Love Bomb can lessen recon through greater acceptance, but man, thatā€™s the heaviest custom Iā€™ve seen anyone make here.

How do you do it? Do you have a lot of experience with each of the titles and modules?
I recently thought about the temptation of combining the Revelation titles, but the density is hard. If I ran a three core custom with them Iā€™d think that Mdfy: Freedom would have to be an absolute must along with keeping the overall amount of modules in the 10-12 range.

#292

Gateless Gate is the easiest yet the most difficult. I donā€™t get recon from it but I do find it difficult at times because I lose most interest in the material life and wish to continue exploring the nature of the self and mysticism and spiritual philosophy.

The difficulty comes in the form of sadness of seeing people and especially my loved ones fall prey into the grand drama and Illusions. I feel quite lonely on it yet filled with tremendous love of the divine and the world itself. Everyone becomes me and I venture into this space where everything is but one singular point, where the false self dissolves. Until ofcourse a pretty young thing walks by and Iā€™m like hubba-hubba and then itā€™s back to square one again :man_facepalming:

Those feelings are not of recon but just natural part of my journey, like King Sully said how sadness and sorrow comes with more knowledge and wisdom. I am also filled with creativity and the whole world turns into one big theatre starring me in every role; the addition of love bomb gives it a loving spin to the divine, think Rumi, christ and so on. The depth of the awareness is addicting but I lose interest in my material pursuits. Itā€™s also peaceful and inspiring. I saw on different occasions how some people would light up when that inspiration flows through me and to them, only to find myself soaring higher than before.

The Revelations and love bomb are the easiest titles for me to run because the action is mostly reflection, contemplation and meditation, which can be done anywhere through out the day and wherever, and could be expressed in many different forms outwards such as in art or a chance meeting with a stranger that leads to learning and lifting of Illusions, and i have had many of those.

Iā€™ll be running RoS with Alchemist and Singularity soon, as I think Singularity and Alchemist would help me remedy the paradox of these opposites thst I feel, being and not being, wanting and not wanting, blissful and terrified.

Also, maybe itā€™s my Pisces moon that helps with love and spiritual titles, I dunno. I did play those titles for a long while though, especially Love Bomb since the ultima release

Gateless Gate is not a recon hell, but Back to Black is sometimes