Dragon Stage 2 Update

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Dragon Stage 1: 63 days/173 hours
Dragon Stage 2: 19 days/23 hoursstrong text

Dragon continues to dig deeply. I keep discovering more fears and insecurities. So far:

  1. Feeling that success will turn to failure. Inevitable disappointment.
  2. Fear of taking risks.
  3. Feeling lost. Adrift.
  4. Perfectionism.
  5. Neediness.
  6. Abandonment.

Thing is, none of this came up on Khan ST 1. It was smooth sailing. But with Dragon, it’s getting ridiculous but shit keeps coming up. I feel like there is a very deep house cleaning going on and it’s not going to stop until these very deep feelings are dealt with.

That’s the thing that stands out. Dragon…is…not… going…to stop…until this shit…is taken care of. I feel its power very acutely.

At the same time, I am running a Terminus Custom filled with spirituality. This custom contains things like Natural Winner, Spiritual Alignment/Abundance/Freedom, New Beginnings, Blue Skies, The Architect, Energetic Development, ARES, etc. There is a Yin/Yang between the custom and Dragon. For example, I am trying to decide if I want to repair a relationship. Dragon brought out feelings of abandonment and hurt and anger. But my custom had me seeing things in a different, more productive light. The idea being to construct the relationship in a different way.

So…the Dragon journey continues as I continue to dig deeper and deeper.

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#2

Thanks for posting this.

Do you have a journal?

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#3

I run DR Stage 2 from store as well as in a custom.

The custom has new beginnings, spiritual freedom, rebirth, limit destroyer etc…

I can definitely say after running them separately for weeks at a time, they bring very different kinds of reconciliation

DR stage 2 recon is like slowing down, unproductive and at it’s worst vulnerable, emotional, and apathetic.

DR in custom recon at it’s worst hopeless, totally questioning of sense of self, like I’m falling apart.

I’ve moved through the ‘worst’ in both but its interesting to note what may be DR and what maybe module in custom specific.

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#4

I post periodically. I had a separate thread for Stage 1. Dragon Stage 1 Update

#5

My experience is that Dragon separately is much more intense. I feel it’s right to run them separately. Not sure why, but I do. Dragon brings up some very negative, destructive feelings. My custom helps me to deal with them.

I have this strange feeling that I’ll never fully self-actualize until I dredge this shit up. Like in order to be the best me and fully enjoy life, I need to clean this stuff out of me. It’s holding me back, and this journey is going to kick the ****ing door in.

My custom helps with the repair. I have discovered that I want to be a more spiritual being. I want the spirituality that my custom brings.

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#6

I’m getting something in my Inbox from @Fire. It looks like a pencil icon at the top of my posts. Does anybody know what this is?

#7

Moved your thread to the correct section.

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#8

Ohhhhhh. Thanks.:relieved:

#9

Are you still running you wealth customs?

#10

Yes. Interspersed with healing from Dragon and healing custom.

#11

How has DR and your healing custom been so far the past 3 days?

#12

Very different. I’m only running one loop of DRST2. Nothing is coming up, but I feel it working. I do notice a strong sense of intuition. I feel total conviction. Like I don’t doubt myself at all.

#13

I’ve found DR has removed or reduced a lot of my self doubts.

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