Journal for Dragon Reborn GOLD: My beginning!

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#4

Well, after 1 loop and then going to bed, I definitely slept a lot more and had 3 different dreams

1 of poison leaving my body and open wounds
1 had something to do with my family (don’t remember this one as well)
1 of literally being a in prison and co-operating with other prisoners and even staff to escape, seemed to have the subtext of a totalitarian society in which we were all slaves to the system

Today I may rest and play 0 loops, I will no be leaving the house so nothing further to be observed I think, feel fine calm, and a bit tired lol.

I will consider and updated, my next plays with be 2 loops I think.

#5

What do you know about using microloops?

#6

I don’t know what these are :open_mouth:

#7

I had also, decided to do 2 loops on day 2, (30 mins of subliminal exposure). No events or changed, except I cleaned a bit.

This is now my third day, and I shall do 2 more. Today I played board games with my housemates as is our weekly custom, I was more assertive in raising a issue we had about playing the same style each week, they aren’t used to seeing that side of me, that’s okay. I took it to mean I am less depressed and am expressing myself and my needs. Will do my 2 loops now, expecting the rest of the day to spent at home and uneventful. I was almost more calm about taking a big loss in our game.

#8

start of my 4th day, dreams of men invading my house armed with blades/knifes, and running away(strategically) and then fighting them.

Doing 2 more loops today, will re-read instructions and reach out for guidance.

#9
#10

You should also take rest days in between each listening day

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#11

Day 5, I think. 2 loops yesterday, no notice of any change, no dreams, 2 more today!!

#12

Day 6, I have done 2.5 lops today, about 40 mins of subliminal,

Each night I get intense dreams, I feel fine during that day, need more motivation, this first stage doesn’t do that, that’s okay. I may be less fearful and in doubt of myself in general.

I am thinking about seeing a neurologist, I have a rough childhood and much violence that may have physically damaged my brain, not simply the emotional damage I know I have.

I wish to be back in the gym, but its freezing cold in winter here and I am a bit thin, I will consider changing my eating habits for bulking first.

Needing advice for when to go to stage 2.

#13

After my 2.5 loops (40 minutes), up form 2 per day (30 minutes), I don’t feel any need for breaks and am adapting well I feel.

Still more dreams than when I don’t use subliminals, less vivid now. I feel a little more energetic and also tired during that day, I feel a few small emotional releases, hence more energy, but I also sometimes feel my subconscious find something to resolve or bring up later and it emotionally weights me down, I usually just breath through it, it will pass. :slight_smile:

I feel a great sense of peace today, I went to the gym, nothing special since I haven’t been in a long time and am rebuilding from basics. Some of my day dreaming is subtlety about noble ideals, small changes but its there.

I will do 2-3 loops today and look forward to move onto the next stage.

#14

Day 7, I think:

Having my first low day. Re-thinking my career and life. I feel a bit lonely (alone without people who truly believe in me and understand me) and I feel the failure to live my dream. I do work toward it, but haven’t had the success I would like, so I am still committed, just reflecting.

It doesn’t hurt as much as it could, and I still have a sense of peace and serenity (maybe I didn’t notice that in previous days?) I may be letting go of something.

That is interesting. I will do 2-3 loops tomorrow. I had been wanting to move on to stage 2, I see that I need more time here, that is good.

#15

Day 9. I think I mis-labelled a day and missed one.

Did 3 loops yesterday, 40 minutes total time.

Slowly stream lining my life, cutting out useless bills and tasks. Becoming a little more organized.

Feel fine emotionally, dreams last night, about sword fighting and kissing someone.

Unsure of when to move onto stage 2. :thinking:

#16

Day 10: 0 loops, break needed, turned out to be a sad reflective kind of day

Day 11: 2 loops upon waking, might do 3, wont leave the house today, so probably nothing to say.

#17

I shall do 2-3 loops today,

yesterday I was a bit physically sick, just from neglect I think, lack of gym, diet, sun etc, so I think I did 0 loops, excuse my confusion, I keep strange hours and work from home.

Last night I had mad dreams about being in a banking family (felt very 1930’s), having to take over responsibilities’ that I wasn’t ready for (family was going broke and had fallen to despair and mental illness) and look after the family, while also dealing with threats to the families safety from other power families and for some reason my eye falling out. I seem to encourage another man to study, that he could in spite of his doubts do a very good job and that I would hold things together until he was educated.

I think I had another dream that I cannot remember. No waking life changes that I know of :stuck_out_tongue:

#18

Day 13

Did 2.5 loops yesterday, no dreams last night :open_mouth:

I was very physically stressed, as my body called my attention to all its needs, lots of stretching, went to gym, a lot more water, was exhausted during the day, but felt very energetic and unable to sleep when I went to bed, woke up feeling fine.

Feeling slightly optimistic about the future.

I will do 2-3 loops again today as I feel I can push it a little. But I really want to emphasise how difficult the second week has been, far less fun than the first :smiley:

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#19

Day 14, did 2.5 (40 minutes) of subliminal last night (yesterday) no dreams that I know of.

Will do 3 loops today, feel fine and want to push myself a little, not much outward manifestation of change.

#20

Day 15:

I did not/could not do any loops yesterday though I had planned to, I think I am hitting some resistance (will go read about it in the guide)

Had some dreams that very probably topical, will attempt 2 loops today

#21

Day 16, did 1.5 loops yesterday night, felt very angry about my social circle, not being understood, supported or

#22

Day 17, could do any loops, think its getting harder

#23

What is your plan for listening for the next 5 days?