So I used Emperor and a few other programs, but then eventually cut the other programs and just focused exclusively on Emperor due to my lack of results. Emperor was a constant for 3 months, even if I added some other subclub programs I picked up.
Money is a little tight this month, going to wait until next month to begin purchasing stuff (still want to pick up regen and elixir) but I think I might be going about things the wrong way.
I want to take this gradually now. I took the “do everything at once” approach, which caused me to use multiple programs. Perhaps that’d be good if I could maintain patience, but I’m one to lose it very easily if I don’t see progress. So for the sake of my self, I should take things one step at a time.
I have had Ascended Mogul recommended to me a few times, I might consider it.
My question is this. What subliminals should I use at what frequency to get the fastest possible results? I’m willing to wait another 3 months so long as I notice something.
Let me state my basic problems/goals.
Low self esteem - I really dislike myself. When I look in the mirror I feel an extreme impulse to look away. I’m not unattractive. Or at least that’s what women tell me. But I see myself as unattractive. Also I dislike who I am, and do know I should strive to become a better me (and I am striving, creating new habits and such) but I would also like to accept who I am now but love even more who I’m becoming.
Low self-confidence/personal power - throw me into any social situation and I’ll melt on the spot. Major, extreme social anxiety. I can hold conversations, at a very basic level, but I can feel my body being flooded with tension and cortisol which makes my mind hazy. I can’t let loose and be expressive. In personal project, I’m constantly in fear and worry. What will people think of me? What if they think I’m stupid? Ugly? Just some stupid kid who doesn’t know what he talks about? (I’m a young adult but look 14). Everyone else is perceived as higher status than myself, and my first impulse (unless I’m texting- which I feel safe and comfortable doing unlike face-to-face or video chats) is to act in subservience. My worry of my own insecurities hold me back immensely. I want to feel grounded, unshakable, confidence, powerful, invincible, as if I was some sort of OP anime character hahahaha. I also procrastinate wayyyy too much falling for instant gratification instead of delaying it. Each day before I retire I get angrier and angrier at myself for not doing what I need to do. Either I lose my motivation, or enter a depression as soon as I gain productive momentum. I’ve tried so many self help techniques to fix everything I’ve just listed you’d probably think I was full of shit haha
I have emotional trauma but I don’t mind working on that later through Regen + Elixir. For now I just want to lay a proper foundation for my house.
I’ve tried learning “game” or “pickup” but I can’t get out. I freeze. I’ve tried confidence challenges, can’t get out. I freeze. I try doing sales. I freeze. Ugh. I need the power to create change.
TD;LR I want to feel like a mature, masculine man instead of an insecure boy scared of the world. Which subliminal(s) should I use to get here the fastest?
I really want to keep using Primal since I see that as helping with social confidence. I want to increase my usage of it immensely to feel its benefits.