DAY44
Frigging lazy day. Took another kid to the dentist this morning. And when we got home, I blew a gasket at my other kid because he wouldnāt listen and do as heās told. Good thing I was able to still control my temper somehow.
I noticed that even when I get angry, lately, Iāve been able to keep it together. Iām able to blow off some steam but once Iāve blown it off, I can just let go. Before, it takes a long time before I can just let go. Not sure which of my subs is helping me with that, but who cares right? As long as Iām able to control myself and not do anything stupid, then Iām good.
Lazy as fāck. Felt absolutely no motivation to work on anything office-related. Can be reconciliation. Can be simply because Iām tired. Or maybe both. Because even if I try to study, my brain just wouldnāt focus. Itās like my brain wants to skip ahead to the next chapters of the book. And yet, at the back of my head, I feel that I need to at least make sure Iām getting a firm foundation to build on.
So the TV for the living room wouldnāt arrive till next week. And the TV in our bedroom is a cheap-ass standard āstupidā TV. No Netflix, no YouTube, nothing. Was only good for DVDs. We used to have cable, but I had to cut it off because we felt it was an unnecessary expense.
Butā¦ I got a Raspberry PI (sue me, Iām a nerd) lying around I used to play with a while back. Decided to work on it so that we can get some streaming. Funny thing is that the standard browser those machines have are not supported by either Netflix, Disney Plus, Amazon Prime Video, nada, nothing. None of the streaming services I know supports RPI out of the box. I needed to work on it somehow. Took me about an hour of research and another hour of downloading and installing, but I got it working. Kids had a blast watching Nightmare Before Christmas using my RPi. They even asked me the letters to type to access DisneyPlus. Lol!
Funny thing was, my wife got mad at me because we spent yesterday having the kids watch on her iPad, when I could have set it up back then. Told her I had meetings yesterday and only remembered about the PI today.
Not sure really. But sometimes, I feel that ideas just pop out of my head. Like today. That setting up my Raspberry Pi for streaming, I only thought of it while I was at the dentist with my kid. Out of the blue. I was sitting there while the dental hygienist was cleaning my kidās teeth. Maybe informaticon at work?
In fact, lately, when I need to know something, I feel itās becoming easier for me to search what I need to know. Itās a bit hard to explain, but before, Iād go to google and type something. But the results I get arenāt exactly what I need or theyāre a bit broad. Somehow, Iāve learned to narrow down my search queries and make them more specific. Even then, before, it would take me a long time of trial and error just to get a working solution. Now, itās a lot faster. Maybe the subās working?
Also, talking about subs, somehow, I also feel that Mastermind is helping me with long term planning. Now, Iām starting to what I can start working on now, in order to achieve something in the near future. Iām able to think of the tiny steps to take hoping this will eventually lead to something bigger.
Not sure about wealth and even physical changes. But Iām still keeping options open. Got a few interviews and maybe a few other options also at the office, so still not loosing hope. As for physical changes, I know Iāll get there. Though Iām not really rushing to look like an adonis, just healthy enough to still carry my kids.
