Delayed reconciliation is a pain

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#1

I never imagined I could experience reconciliation the day AFTER running my stack. Usually, I get recon right away or the the same day.
Getting recon the next day feels like your emotions are thugs who were waiting to jump you in the dark when you least expected it.

Reconciliation on ZP hits hard when it hits. Saint and Fire have said that you can’t lie to ZP, I’m starting to see how true it is. Reconciliation will force you to look at the ugly truth about you. You know, those things you knew are there but you were too much if a coward to confront. Or even things you didn’t expect. But it will come up and you’ll have to deal it. @SaintSovereign and @Fire said ZP is a smooth process. They never said it was an easy one . Keep that in mind. These subs will expose you to yourself. You might not like what you see. I’m going through that right now. The day after running my stack.

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#2

Good points.
Recon hits harder the next day I concur. Before you sleep after listening reconciling the beleifs are easier. But when you sleep and wake up, there is this ball of rope (or sth like that) which is mentioned in the master class a d the SubC is trying to open it. But on the listening day it’s more organic, like you feel, ok, the perception is changing. But on the next day there is this confusion, grumpiness…around 20 minutes after I start my day.
When I start my day it’s ok, then my mind starts reconciling. I don’t wake up grumpy.
Sorry, I am also in recon, headache :slight_smile:

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#3

Yeah, and for me, I noticed more reconciliation during this last washout of 10 days almost!

It kicked my butt. :sweat_smile:

At times, it would feel like a punch in the face for me , but now I look forward to being exposed to the parts of me I’ve stuffed in the closet because on the other end of that is a beautiful transformation. A lighter more flowing feeling to my day to day life. Obviously some days are more sucky with the recon when taking more rest days or a longer wash out!

It helps choosing titles that are in alignment with your vision that don’t feel too far out there. Stepping stones. One at a time.

#4

I’ve had washouts that went completely fine until the first five days were over. And then day 6 and day 7 hit HARD. That’s when I realized that I need to experiment more and can’t just always just stick to the general guidelines.

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#5

I also get recon the most right before and during washout. I think that I just fill up the queue and massive processing happens when there is no more input.

#6

wait, I thought the b word is banned🤔

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#7

You just unlocked this power?

My recon literally just broke for the first time all year about two months ago. :joy:

Externalized recon is, by far, the worst, and I’m doing every thing I can to try and prevent that from happening again.

#8

Oh wow… I’ve never had same day recon. It’s always delayed

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#9

It’s always delayed for myself too. I tried running titles before bed, but since Khan Black is my mainstay, it usually keeps me from sleeping. Washout recon only usually lasts about 2 weeks for me at the maximum, though. Then it’s smooth sailing and I can really see what skills / insights I’ve developed during a run.

After a year on KB though – it’s pretty crazy how much development I’ve experienced, so it was worth it. I’ve spoken before about overcoming a crazy porn addiction some… 15 years ago at this point, I think, but the urges were still there and required willpower to overcome.

At this point, the urges are almost 100% gone. I never even think of it, and it’s gotten to the point where I automatically avert my eyes when something highly sexual is on television. So, lots of recon at first, but now KB is pretty much smooth sailing.

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#10

Oh, god, reminds me when I was a kid and would avert my eyes when there was a kissing scene, lol… But a hero always peeks!

#11

Bahahahaha thank you for saying this, I just had so much joy from the nostalgia of remembering 5-year old me “EWWWWW!” at kissing scenes and all my family laughing.

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#12

I feel good on the day I run the sub(s). I can however relate to how you’re feeling, as yesterday I ran the first loop of DRR4 after a washout :pensive:

#13

When running higher loops, the only reconciliation I get is the soul deep reconciliation, mentioned by Saint, and trauma-response reconciliation.

The first one happens from time to time. Usually when I have too much time on my hands and I’m idling, pondering upon my life’s history and my current circumstances. It may be caused by pondering rather than the scripting in itself, however.

The other one is related to being exposed to scripting, addressing issues which are “locked in my traumas”. Meaning, my traumas hinder their processing and execution. However, with time the scripting finds its way through/around those traumas, or so it seems, and I don’t get that reconciliation any longer.

All of it is smooth sailing and growth beyond anything I could have ever imagined.

:snowflake:

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#14

I concur.

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#15

This perfectly explains what I was experiencing recently. Dang!

Edit: I only listen to full loops now.

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#16

Get into the flow of life without overthinking. Feel the moment, savor it to the fullest.

Wise choice.

:snowflake:

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#17

I concur - again!

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#18

RoM is helping with that currently. I’m in awe of so much beauty.

Working on dropping more into my heart space and out of my head as much and allowing things to flow.

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