I’ve decided to go deeper into the Alchemical Matrix in order to explore its mysteries and tap into its boundless wisdom in order to further my development, as the struggle with the somatic damage my trauma would do to me for pretty much my whole life is no more, and now I can truly focus on becoming what I must.
To do just that, I have the greatest alchemical tool available under my belt: Hero: The Light That Blinds, which allows me to reconnect with all the elements within my system in a truly profound way — something I’m currently experiencing on Earth, which now helps me hear the inborn higher intelligence within me “whisper” its love and wisdom every day. The amount of insights and guidance I’m receiving is incredible and helps me a great deal.
The two main pillars of Earth are being strongly grounded in my body (the inner pillar) and becoming non-reactive (the outer pillar).
Right now, my goal is to strengthen my “somatic container" (basically, my nervous system) with Earth, priming it to embrace the wisdom and guidance of the other elements that are yet to come into power (Water, Air, and Fire).
There’s no set time frame, although I’ll be running it until I finish my QL4 run, followed by the KB1 and KB2 runs (which I estimate will take over a year from now), as energy work on KB3 (and then K4) and Water is my next move.
The two main pillars of Water are emotional/energetic stillness (the inner pillar) and adaptability (the outer pillar), both of which I want to develop.
I have no concrete plans for Air (mental clarity/interpersonal transparency) or Fire (inner drive/the boldness of action) yet.
I pair the subs with practices like TRE, Focus 10 tape #2, baoding balls, basic Qigong, and basic meditation.