After jumping onto Khan ST4 prematurely, and spending 2 cycles using my custom, I thought It would be best to attempt a slightly different approach.
I’ve been feeling bogged down lately, knowing exactly what I want but being unable to take action, even when there was every advantage to doing so. After doing some thinking, I realized that I’ve been trying to do things a little too quickly, so I decided to drop my custom and use the Stage of Khan that I’ve been secretly dreading for all these years, Total Action. I decided to keep using EOG ST1 to keep working on my negative programming while Khan helps to build me up.
I’m starting this journal having played 1 loop of the stack yesterday and I feel like I’m understanding how good this feels. Khan ST3 feels very light, compared to both my custom and ST4. The feeling of power and dominance is still present but I feel like it took away the darker edge, it feels very much like a feeling of nonchalance more so than pure power.
In regards to women, I didn’t feel an inherent difference in how I felt. I didn’t feel any neediness, yet I talked to more girls than I usually do, both friends and those not in my friend group. The highlight of my day was almost getting flashed by my classmate . I’m assuming that she was trying to mess with her friend and hadn’t realized I was sitting there, but the next thing I know she spins around, pulls her coat open and I catch a glimpse of a snake tattoo that climbed from the bottom of her rib cage through her cleavage. I know the sales page mentioned manifestations, but I was not expecting it to happen in the middle of one of my classes
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On the money end of the spectrum I received 30$ on my bank account for seemingly no reason, I started putting some money in crypto to get some savings going and my sports bets are doing pretty well.
This stack feels like it’s going to promising, lol.