I never had it as badly as now, when i was younger i was far more productive . It feels like a crack cocain addiction currently.
I have expensive courses and amazing things that i know would get me to another level in everything and be very positive for my growth.
Yet my mind is making justifications and excuses, wanting perfect circumstances…
I just got corona so i definitely got time yet i keep watching israel palestine politics, interviews,etc…
US foreign commerce policies to spite China, i dont live in either why do i read it.
Then another thing pops up, gotta catch up on latest AI developments, oh whats going with open AI and microsoft, then oh well scientists discovered some specific property of a mineral under extreme laboratory circumstances… Have to know that might come in handy…
Black hole behavior, how supernovas influence development of life forms on planets… News of true size of ancient burial sites from the bronze age, how can i skip this… Etc it goes on forever, even started learned Jamaican english…
But i cant get my self in aligment to do what im supposed and whats good for me. Feels like a massive wall of resistence as if i have to walk through hot coals, this has been going for months.
Its like ceo my conscious mind giving command to rest of branches while they on a full “office” screw around.
I ran dr for a year, ros for months took a break, now in dr4 and started rich to take advantage of financial opportunity which im procrastinating on.
Just got covid so overdosed on youtube reiki to relax.
Mundane or any tips regarding this is helpful as im sure some have went through this, whats the science on underlying cause of procrastination also interested.