Sounds like you are experiencing some recon man
Take it easy for a few days don’t listen to anything
He wrote he was listening to rebirth and something else either in his journal or another thread
Also relax about that stuff life is a journey things will manifest just keep working at them … you got this mech
Remember that rebirth is about shedding your old identity pretty much it reframes you so this is all recon sounding
First thing to do when you are in a state of super emotion is be grateful for what you already have, and tell yourself that it is a journey and you will make it to where you want to get to.
Gratitude is a huge mindset changer and mood changer… the rule is that you can’t be negative and sad when you are being grateful for things or so I’ve heard
Also try to listen to a loop of sanguine if you have it, it can help ease the recon