Amazing dream! 
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Completely agree. Something I preach on the forums all the time. Master the foundations before building the structure.
Is your destiny being famous? Is that why the attention felt like being in an altered reality? Could be youāre preparing to become Pepper Pottsā¦
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I really relate to how you feel here. But be careful you donāt put his needs above your own. If heās a great boss heād do everything to keep you when itās time to leave. Itās all just business at the end of the day, you deserve the security that comes with a job even if you donāt plan on staying there. If it gives you money, some security, and acts as a bridge to even better events in your life right now, then it was meant for you.
I hope you donāt mind me pointing that out. Sometimes opportunities donāt seem like the end goal but theyāre a stepping stone from your subconscious.
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It just came to my mind that you could benefit greatly from running this new GLM, itās such an amazing tool for boundaries setting.
I feel in myself a powerful shield of peace that allows more space for my own emotions and perspectives, which brings even more clarity when engaging with other people.
I see you also listen to LB which I think together with GLM is the most solid and balanced foundational stack.
I donāt see myself stopping either of these 2 subs for a while.
Best wishes have a great day! 
Love Letter to Myself
My dear,
I know that sometimes the road feels uncertain. Unfamiliar paths can be frightening ā yet it is exactly there, in the places where you may lose yourself, that you also have the chance to truly find yourself. Yes, there may be stumbles, bruises, tears. But you know what? One day, all of this will be your story to tell.
If you live too carefully, time slips away like sand through your fingers. And deep inside, you already know: your wings were never made for walking. They are meant to carry you.
It is safe where you are now ā but safe will never take you far.
So look your fears in the eye and whisper: āNot today.ā Find that piece of you that youāve been hiding for so long. Itās waiting to shine again.
Follow your heart to the very edge of possibility. Rewrite your stars, dare to be brave. And if you jump, it might feel, for the very first time, like you are truly flying.
My love, if you only try, you just might kiss the sky.
Your dreams are sparks. Donāt keep them locked inside until they burn you out. Give them air, let them rise into flames. Step out into this world and claim every single thing youāve ever wanted.
Yes, you may fall. Yes, you may stumble. But maybe, my darling ā maybe you will fly.
And when you fly, youāll finally feel that you were always meant to touch the sky.
With love,
Yourself 
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The wind blows through my curls, creating disorder on my head. Hardly a single strand remains in the place I had carefully assigned to it while styling earlier.
Anyone who thinks this bothers me is mistaken. I donāt mind. Even when a few of my curls fall onto my lip-glossed lips, I remain calm. At ease.
For weeks, I hadnāt really been outside. Grocery shopping doesnāt count. I simply had no energyāand, even more than that, no desire.
But today was different. Who knows why.
I only know one thing: the world is calling for me, and little by little, I am ready to listen and to answer.
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Absolutely love these photos and you stepping into your 
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2 Broke Girls
I started watching Two Broke Girls again.
And honestly ā I love this show.
Not just because itās funny,
but because I see myself so much in that dynamic.
Two women, completely different,
yet they understand each other ā in their own direct, sometimes totally crazy way.
They say what they think. Theyāre honest, loud, sarcastic, imperfect.
And thatās exactly what I often miss in real life.
I wish for people who can handle that.
People who donāt immediately think Iām weird just because Iām direct.
Who donāt overanalyze every word.
Who know that my honesty is never meant to hurt,
but simplyā¦ real.
I want people who stay, even when Iām ātoo much.ā
Who donāt see the chaos in me as a problem,
but as part of who I am.
As Iām writing this, tears are filling my eyes. Iām crying bitterly.
Because I can actually feel myself right now.
Maybe for the first time in a long while.
And itās both beautiful and painful.
Because Iāve spent so long trying to be someone Iām not.
I toned myself down to fit in.
I made myself small so I wouldnāt offend anyone.
I apologized just for existing.
All I ever wanted was love.
Friendship.
Understanding.
A home ā anywhere.
I tried so hard to āfit inā with families, relationships, friendships.
But every time I thought I finally did,
I lost another piece of myself.
Iāve learned that at some point itās no longer about who you are,
but only about who others want you to be.
And that hurts.
Since I started really learning about ADHD and autism,
so many things suddenly make sense.
Why I feel everything so intensely.
Why I sometimes feel empty inside, even when my head is full of thoughts.
Why I perceive conversations differently ā every word, every tone, every tiny shift in mood.
Why noises, lights, and crowds overwhelm me so quickly.
Why my mind never stops.
Why I crave peace but can rarely find it.
Why I need people ā yet can hardly stand them when itās too much.
I know I function differently.
Not worse. Not broken. Just different.
But that ādifferentā makes it hard to live in a world thatās loud, hectic, and constantly demanding āmore.ā
I think too much. I feel too much.
I analyze every detail, every conversation, every look.
And when someone says, āItās not that bad,ā
I know they mean well ā
but they donāt understand that my brain doesnāt have a pause button.
I often feel trapped inside my own head.
Like Iām both too much and not enough at the same time.
And that no one really sees how exhausting it is
to keep functioning every day
when everything inside you is burning and freezing all at once.
There are days when I just want peace.
No talking, no āHow are you?ā, no āCheer up.ā
Just silence.
But even that is hard to find.
Because my mind keeps running, even when Iām quiet.
And sometimes I feel so endlessly tired ā
not physically, but emotionally.
I think thatās why I love shows like Two Broke Girls so much.
Because they show that chaos, bluntness, flaws, and being loud can also be beautiful.
Because they show that even with all your quirks,
you can still find people who stay.
People who donāt need to understand everything,
but simply say, āI love you anyway.ā
Maybe thatās exactly what I wish for:
a world where I donāt have to explain myself.
Where my way of being isnāt a problem, but simply part of me.
Where no one tries to fix me,
but just sits beside me and says,
āThis is who you are, and thatās okay.ā
Iāve been searching for that place for so long ā in relationships, friendships, family, and within myself.
And maybe I never found it
because I never stopped hiding.
But today, as I write this, I truly feel myself.
And that alone is already a beginning.
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When Empathy Turns into Exhaustion
Iāve realized lately that Iām just emotionally drained.
Not in a āI need a vacationā kind of way ā really burned out.
For years, Iāve felt for others, helped, listened, comforted, searched for solutions, shown understanding ā
and honestly? I just canāt anymore.
I donāt have the energy for the same conversations about the same problems,
where everyone keeps getting stuck in the same patterns.
I donāt have the patience for people who complain but never change.
And Iām done feeling guilty about that.
I used to be the one who understood everything.
The one who tried to read between the lines,
who always wanted to see the good in people.
Now I just think: at some point, you have to start taking responsibility.
For a long time, I thought I had gone cold.
But maybe Iām just empty.
Maybe what Iām experiencing is a kind of empathy or compassion burnout.
Because when you spend years feeling for others, tearing yourself apart emotionally, constantly putting yourself in someone elseās shoes ā
eventually, thereās nothing left for you.
Iāve held so many people who never intended to stand up on their own.
And thatās when you realize your compassion is slowly making you sick.
That you canāt help everyone.
That you donāt have to understand everything.
Iām not saying Iām perfect.
I know Iāve gotten tougher.
I say things more directly now ā no sugarcoating, no wrapping it up nicely.
But you know what? I can live with that.
Because at least Iām being honest again.
Iām not here to be the emotional garbage collector for everyone else.
Iām not here to provide understanding when people keep sabotaging themselves.
Iām here to get myself together.
And that means setting boundaries, no matter who doesnāt get it.
So if someone thinks Iāve become heartless ā no.
Iām just honestly tired.
And maybe thatās the most honest state Iāve ever been in.
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Are you running the new regeneration? If not Iād highly recommend it. It has helped with my burnout so much and start prioritizing myself.
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Short update from me:
Iām completely at my breaking point. My face looks more tired and dull every day, my hair is getting thinner day by day, Iāve lost 10 kg, Iām developing dental problems, have zero strength or energy, and right now I donāt see any hope.
Iām writing this because I just need to get it off my chest. But that doesnāt mean anyone should start giving me sub tips now. Quite the opposite:
Iām slowly starting to feel like subs donāt really do anything for me.
Overall, I currently feel like nothing is moving forward and no one is really taking me seriously.
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I hope things get better. Hang in there 
I know those are hollow words, but youāre heard here.