Well, shit. Should’ve started EoG1 a bit earlier lol, maybe would’ve prevented this
Basically, I work on my brother’s pc. It’s way better than mine. And today he decided to clean it up from dust and basically, short circuited video card somehow lol
Not a good financial manifestation lol
Turns out I lost 4.5 kg from the start of December.
Also I haven’t been able to take much action in the last couple of days due to uni, still. I will have time after 29th. Even more so, from 31st to around 10th of February I’ll have a lot of both times and opportunities for action.
In the mean time, I bought myself ibutamoren. Also since it’s New Year and everyone is exchanging gifts, I asked for creating and boron. I usually have no idea what I want for New Year. I don’t think there are any more worthy supplements than these.
Also got an idea on how to journal better. Just have to follow this prompt:
Seeing some weird dreams.
15 min loops feel smoother than 5 min. Though, I didn’t have time today so listened to 15 min Stark and 7 min HOM. Still, 15 min is the way to go for me.
I feel like I’m in front of some big breakthroughs… I can’t pinpoint exactly what is changing but something is changing. Some structures are definitely moving. I’d like to even prolong the listening cycle but I’m not going to do it
I’m met with reconciliation. Now I’m doubting whether Stark was a good choice. But I’ll keep going with Stark obviously
So, I got the breakthrough, I understood what was worked on. It was my confidence. It got to a new level. Not the cocky-type confidence but rather way more comfort in my own skin, so to speak.
And one more thing that I noticed is that after 1(!!!) loop of EoG ST1, my relationships with finance have changed quite a bit. It’s not my first loop of EoG1, I had 1 cycle with it but it was the first loop in this cycle. Hope I’m clear enough.
It seems that earlier when I had money, I was getting some fight or flight response from my body. I didn’t even notice how my mind would get agitated when I’d get big (for my current financial placing) money. Now it’s calmness and creativity. I get lots of ideas which are even easy to implement. I’ll continue with EoG1 for now. I’m currently running my last loop before a washout. I’m not sure if I’ll do 5 days of washout, most likely I’ll have to push it to 7 days because of the New Year celebrations, etc. etc. - In any case, I don’t mind a few additional days of washing out. Looking back, December was very productive
Charisma. It has improved as well with the newfound confidence. My popularity seems to be rising. Remember I said that it felt as if no one listened to me one day? It doesn’t happen anymore. Even more so, I started loving the spotlight of attention. And getting this spotlight is actually not that hard. It’s amazing how smooth those subs are because I only notice those things looking back - they weren’t really congruent with my character before and now they are extremely natural.
Also it’s as if my awareness and vision became clear and I see now that my social circle is pretty shit lol
I hope i’ll get better IRL circle in 2024. Gotta get to higher level groups
What I noticed is that I’m very negative. I don’t know why. I need love bomb but I’ll get at least 1 cycle with EoG1 first
The self talk is awful, mostly. There are glimses of great self talk, so good you can put it into motivational videos and you’ll be fired up lol
Man I’m angry af, everything is irritating
I wonder whether that’s recon, my usual state that I wasn’t aware of or just overall result of stress from life lately
Saw 3 dreams this night
first was about my taekwondo trainer. I stopped with taekwondo like 6 years ago lol - was quite positive
second was about my girlfriend - very positive as well, we went to some kind of castle or something, was pretty interesting
third was about me forgetting it’s my birthday lol - neutral
3rd day of washout and man, some intense processing is going on. I’m in recon hell. Sadness, anger, some other emotions I’ve never even felt before and can’t identify. My naps are like 3 hours long with vivid dreams
eh anyway, this washout is probably gonna be more than 5 days but no promises
Happy New Year to everyone! It’s a bit late, hehe
But anyway, time to work lol. I ended my washout, it was 5 days. It felt like I was in deep recon and even some sort of limbo
anyways, my stack is Stark + HOM + EoG 1 currently
Let’s go.
What actions am I going to take in regard to subs?
That’s most definitely recon 
Maybe a good idea to lower your exposure to the subs this new year? The less = More approach works very well for me.
I don’t know yet, on one hand I had some good results with 5-7 min loops but 15 feel a lot smoother in the moment. Need some more testing lol
But I definitely was very stressed in that period. I only recently started getting more than 4 hours of sleep, not having that many responsibilities, etc., no wonder I’m not in recon anymore lol
Did everything I planned, tomorrow is going to be a coding day for me.
Also finally starting the gym. I had to rest for an experimental protocol and now I can finally train again. I missed the gym so much. I’d gladly even go right now but it’s closed already and I’m gonna sleep soon
EoG ST1 first loop in this cycle.
Did full 15 minutes without even noticing it, it feels very light
What actions am I going to take today in regard to subs?
Let me put some EoG1 work here
Here are the limiting beliefs I noticed within myself:
that’s probably it for now
Did everything I planned. Still the bot doesn’t work as I want it for some reasons. But no worries, I’ve got time.
Setting up a system for tracking expenses has been really eye opening.
Also went to the gym and loved it, though my experimental program is so damn hard I couldn’t go through more than half of it lol. I’ll build up.
What actions am I going to take today in regard to subs?
I did everything, except for coding the bot. Quite honestly, I’m burning out. I’m in a “limbo” state so to speak, with a ton of stuff on my plate. Tons of responsibilities, tons of caveats and nuances that I have to keep in mind