Hey Guys,
Just came back from a 2 week wash-out after getting rekt by my custom. One thing I learned, If you cannot perform the behaviour that your custom is designed to, that creates intens recon.
Right now I’m figuring out multiple things:
- There is still healing left. Especially this feeling of abdondenment and being needy. Needing people is something I truly want to heal.
- Picking up my meditation practise
- Becoming more introspective, I want to downgrade this people pleaser inside of me.
Now CFW was the perfect sub for me at the time. It made me go deep, be happy with being alone and just cry and let out all these old emotions.
Here is the thing, I need to keep being productive because I’m working. There is quite some administration work and things to do. That’s why I thought LE witb CFW would be a smart combination.
But… will this give me intens recon because it’s kinda the opposite of each other?