Carth's Quest into the Quantum

Journals - Major Programs
#21

Day 22 - Zero Point

Whiffed and listened to UA and Stark again today when I’m supposed to be on my 5-day rest period, but I’ll start that tomorrow! Been chipping away at my creative ventures these past few days.

The race is slow and steady, but the consistency feels great. I’ve been further trying to laser in the visualizations for the ultimate outcome of the project, using the subs as the background as I make the images feel as real and powerful as possible.

A side thought I’ve been throwing around. On rest days would it be detrimental to listen to affirmation meditations? Nothing subliminal, but something along the lines of a binaural beat with some conscious level audio. Any thoughts/feedback on that would be appreciated!

#22

Day 28 - Zero Point

And so my time away from my subs is complete and the cycle revs up again. During this period I’ve felt down about myself and the process. I haven’t made as much progress as I would like and I’m feeling deep in the weeds about the whole thing.

Hearkening back to who I was when I first started this sub journey, before the ZP’s and all of that there is definitely a difference, but I think some of my fear programming runs deeper than I had thought. The closer I get to my current venture becoming real the more fear and doubt rear their ugly heads to push back harder. My end goal is starting to feel like a beacon in a snowstorm.

This, of course, is not a pleasant experience. But, what I will say is that there is a silver lining because the more this obsolete programming makes itself known the more I can address and purge it. My accountability group helps big time with this because reporting to people once a week pushes my mental toughness to meet the promises I said I would achieve in that time.

“Action cures all.”

This is what I keep telling myself as I throw myself deeper into the work.

“Trust the process.”

Not always easy but it is always important. The strongest metals are forged in fire, and so must my spirit for the road ahead. Onward and upward.

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#23

Day 30 - Zero Point

Listened to my Emperor loop today, and it felt great! I’ve been very introspective this past week and while that’s all good, action is the key to progress so getting fired up to get after it today was well needed.

In my meditations this morning I reflected on the Gap vs Gain mentality. I still have so far to go to be where I want to be, but I’ve also come so far since I started the journey, and leaning on the gains rather than the gaps is so much more helpful to carry on.

I’ve mentioned a few times that I’ve been feeling the weight of the projects I’m working on, but what I also need to realize is that I am carrying that weight! It hasn’t crushed me or destroyed me, it’s just there. Strength. Mental fortitude. The ability to keep moving forward with heavy things, this is such a powerful thing! Something to be proud of.

I mentioned trust the process a couple days ago, but also I should enjoy the process. The cliche is true, life is about the journey rather than the destination. If I can’t have any fun along the way then what’s the point of any of it?

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