Can I have insight?

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#1

Does anyone else feel this way? I get feelings of uncertainty that come in waves of who I actually am, what I should actually do with my life, and what I’m actually worthy of.

I’ve been using SubClub products since 2021, and deep down, I still feel that there’s a greater power that has a book/script/will that is already written for us.

Daily, my old identity is latching on, telling me this isn’t the way, and that all of the scripting and changes I’ve made since using SubClub subs isn’t my true identity that I was designed to have, and then the new identity from SubClub comes in and I feel a bit more confident, focus and ready to change, and then it repeats. This up and down wave of old identity and then new identity.

Almost like an alter ego or split personality that is pushing in and out of my soul, while consciously I’m having a hard time determining who am I really?

It’s like an imbalance of my true spirit. The new SubClub identity and the usual identity of the actual and natural version of me without scripting and input.

I want to go back to the pre-SubClub me because I’ve learned that all of the things I wanted and yearned for in my life isn’t worth it. As I struggle to let go and just embrace life as is, I keep being subconsciously being attracted to what I could be, even though I just don’t care anymore

  • Theres nothing wrong with being unsuccessful.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being broke.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being fat.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being ugly.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being weak.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being shy.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being worthless.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being awkward.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being lonely.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being lazy.
  • Theres nothing wrong with being dumb.
#2

Maybe there is nothing wrong with all the things you mentioned, but do you really want to be a stupid, ugly, fat, lazy unsuccessful man? Or do you want to achieve all of your goals and become the best version of yourself?

Your old self is trying to pull you back into hell, don’t surrender, show him who the boss is

Use Phoenix to be reborn and kill your old self who is trying to drag you down

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#3

IMHO your true self is like a blank canvas where anything can be painted for the purpose of… creativity, expression of universal love (that is actually the substance of the canvas)

Everything that can be painted is you and at the same time doesn’t defines you

It can be said you have two purposes, a universal one (recognizing that you are the canvas) and a personal one (the painting)

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#4

I’ve been using LBFH strictly, and while I do want to make improvements in my life, It’s clear and certain that my thinking has a lot to do with my habit of Self Pity, Victimhood, Shame, and Fear.

  • I have a fear of judgment of others.
  • I often people please.
  • I’m afraid to be assertive
  • I’ve always looked at confidence as a bad thing.

I guess, I’m deeply running from becoming a man.

@SaintSovereign helped me look into some of my darker and deeper traits, and I have realized that I have used self-pity, and victimhood, and the fear of judgment as a way to manipulate my love ones, people who have helped me, and I notice that I shift blame and use victimhood as a way of excuses to avoid taking responsibility for my life.

At a point, it has become so deep that my form of manipulation from the shadow/darker self, which I’ve been researching ever since SaintEovereign made me realize that my accusations of this company was just my paranoia, victimhood to avoid looking in the mirror.

I must apologize to this company and community.

What I truly yearn for in my life is a strong, rich, and peaceful relationship with Jesus, being an independent man in a one-bedroom apartment, and to serve people with my passion. That’s what I really want.

I’m 25, and just feel spiritually lost and broken.

So upon reading this, yes I am the autistic individual that caused trouble here with the “occult” accusations, which was paranoia, fear, victimhood, and lack of control for my own issues, because of my deep feeling sof self-pity, and resentment/trauma from my childhood.

LBFH has helped me see this, but this is only the very first step to making change, but the slef-pity and fear of people is so deep, it burdens my soul daily.

I may be “autistic”, but I’m able-bodied, have many useful skills and characteristics that people have found value in, in my life but my fear of judgment, and self-pity, and victimhood has become so deep in my life, that I lie to myself so much, and I want to be free badly.

Through Christ and LBFH, I really want to repair and overcome the biggest burden and obstacle in my life, which is fear of judgment, self-pity, victimhood, manipulation, and lying to myself.

#5

There is plenty wrong with all of those things (outside of being ugly, which is obviously subjective).

#6

I want to make a suggestion for you, the best stack for your situation is obvious

You should definitely use Emperor + Phoenix

I am not going to tell you why because if you read the sales pages of both titles it will become abundantly clear

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#7

I uderstand @ksub I’m just having feelings of self-pity, and I’m trying tocrationalize why I shouldn’t work on myself

#8

@RagnarLothbrok I did a lot of reading on what I should prioritize, and according to a lot of people on this forum, Self Love and self acceptance, destroys megative self talk which seems to matter most right now.

What do you think about me using LBFH for 4-5 cycles?

#9

Drop everything you’re running and run Love Bomb For Humanity! Expeditiously!!! See what I wrote here :point_down: :point_down:

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#10

Thanks ksub. I’m currently on week 2 of it. It’s helping me certainly, and I hope thing seill continue to get better.

I plan to listen to it all the way to April/May

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#11

I disagree, you have serious self sabotaging limiting beliefs that needs to he burned in the ashes, only than you can he reborn, of course lbfh will help you, but if you want a real transformation, run Phoenix

#12

I think I might have an idea of where you are.
I came to know Jesus at the age of 14. I was already addicted to porn for 2 years at that time. Nevertheless I followed his calling. Spent all my free time reading the Bible, praying, prayer festivals at the weekends. Then I felt the calling to study theology and sacrifice everything to follow him. Yet my pornaddiction got worse with every year. As did my self pity and self hate.
I studied theology for 6 years and not far away from the graduation I suddenly didn’t feel his calling anymore. Not long after, I had a Burnout and fell in a serious depression.
I despised myself. Felt ugly, felt like I deserve to be crushed by life. I was mentally unable to get a job or to finish my studies. I couldn’t look into the mirror. Sometimes I thought about ending it.
But I didn’t. Somewhere deep down below I knew I was a loved child of God. His plans for me are plans of salvation. My heritage was abundance.

I needed a few years of suffering, of working through my trauma and drama. And I’m still working on that.
I healed many of my old wounds. I have a wonderfull fiancee a my side, going through her own hell atm. But I know, that great things are waiting for me.

You have the same way infront of you. Just trust in God. Work on yourself. Use the subs. You can make it.

I had a similar feeling, only that I would exchange Emperor for Ascension.
Emperor is great. I’ve started with Emperor. But it’s a slowburner. Often I wished I had started with Ascension for its faster effects.
I’m still seeing only fragments of few objectives realizing in my life after 4 cycles. If you want to see faster results, I’d chose Ascension.

God bless you

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#13

There is nothing to disagree with. LBFH and Phoenix can get him to the same point using different routes. Now, Phoenix probably doesn’t have all the self-love scripting that LBFH has. And who said he can’t stack both?

#14

Ascension + Phoenix would he an amazing stack too, even better than Emperor because of the rapid transformation

#15

I did Ascended Mogul QV2 for 5 months, which worked well, but my mental health is my most number one priority and the self-pity, fear, and lack of confidence is so low, I need to stick to LBFH.

I appreciate you guys so much. I do genuinely feel that maybe God/Jesus will be okay with me listening to LBFH, it makes me feel good. I’m going to listen to it for a long time, because Self Love is something I deeply lack, unless I’m doing things I’m passionate about

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#16

Not wanting to push anything on you. But perhaps a stack of LBfH, Ascension and Phoenix might be helpfull.

LBfH to finaly love yourself
Ascension to develop the basic masculinity you desire
And Phoenix to let the trauma die and become a Reborn person.

Perhaps one loop of Phoenix a week. It seems to be a heavy hitter f3om what I’ve read.

Edit

That’s why I recommend Ascension. Read the copy. You’ll be amazed. And ZP seems to be much superior to Qv2

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#17

Somehow, I didn’t read this part. Listen, I remember being in the very same spot at 25. I remember not knowing what place in the world was.
LBFH is still the best sub for that in my opinion. Revelation of Spirit is next.
Maybe stick with LBFH for a few months and once of twice a week run a short loop of Revelation of Spirit. Don’t overdo this one, it is potent but it will help you find your spirit (whatever that means to you).

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#18

@User20
What is your usage pattern for LBfH?
How many minutes/loops, which days do you listen/rest?

#20

This definitely can happen, I’ll get into more on this in a second, but you’re not alone. Otherwise modules in the Q store like Naturalizer and Homeostasis wouldn’t have been created.

Sure, but you still have to play the part, and you can still do so happily with full intention, or miserably feeling like you have no control over life. Yin and Yang approach this duality differently - one approach is to surrender to what you can’t control blissfully, and another side is to embrace what you can’t control wholeheartedly and face it head on, but that’s a blissful experience too. Either way, yin/yang in the face of chaos is responding to it is bliss and acceptance. To do otherwise isn’t anything other than misery.

Maybe you need to go slower… also evidenced by all this… .

Etc… this sounds like you used to tell yourself that there IS something majorly wrong with the way you were/are (I don’t know.)

So, it’s a pretty common trap for people to become addicted to personal development because they’re ashamed of their current self and want to become someone “new” as fast as possible.

You may have manifested the exact result you wanted - total identity changing because what’s natural.

I go really slow with subs and I base them what feels good on a day to day basis. 3-5 minute loops, and I’m not a hypersocial extroverted guy, so even when I run a sub like Stark that makes me SUPER social, and even have fun doing it, I am always checking in if that’s what I want my identity to be, and it’s usually not.

There’s a lot of wealth subs for example, and everyone “wants wealth.” But does everyone want to identify as someone who is constantly focused on wealth and business? I do. But not everyone does.

Are you being attracted to the version of you you authentically want? Or is it the status and glitz and glamour and the social trappings that would make you feel like you’re successful and finally “good enough.”

You may be having this identity crisis because you’re running subliminals that make you who other people want you to be, not who YOU want to be.

I’ll say there’s nothing wrong with being fat and broke and ugly and weak, but there is something wrong with being lazy and unsuccessful and lonely, because those aren’t fixed traits, they’re emotions, entirely in your control. You get to define your own definition of success and it doesn’t have to be money, it just has to be a goal you care about even if noone knew you accomplished it. You don’t have to be motivated to work 24 hours a day but laziness is a feeling of misery regarding not doing what you say you want to do. Being lonely means you are upset that you’re not socializing as much as is ideal for you.

There’s nothing wrong with being the way you are but there IS something wrong with being unhappy - and that’s what everyone here at SC is here to address - some people through wealth subs, some through social/sex subs, some through spiritual/healing subs. The choice is yours for sure.

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#21

I was really thinking LBFH is EXACTLY what you needed - not only is it free - it’s one of the most powerful subs in the store, and it sounds like you’re suffering with self-love and not accepting yourself which might be a big part of why you’re motivated to change your identity faster than is comfortable for you

make sure you download the newest version - LBFH is top of the line right now as it’s one of the few that has the New Subliminal Experience tech

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