I had an unpleasant dream last night.
I was in a derelict house, rectangular in shape with only a central room and two smaller side rooms. The walls looked like they were bare concrete, they were slightly cracked and had dead vines running up them, and there were no windows. The walls of the side rooms had square pillars every few feet. There was no roof. All the rooms were empty apart from a bit of rubble, but otherwise clean and with little dust. The house was located near where my grandparents used to live.
Both of the side rooms contained a “presence”. Something hateful and malignant and evil. I could feel its rage and malice engulf me as I stood there, like foul smoke surrounding my body. I felt fear, but remained steadfast and refused to let it overcome me.
I woke up, still feeling that fear. It’s very, very rare for me to feel fear in a dream, irrespective of what happens in the dream, so this indicates it was an very meaningful and important dream.
Houses in dreams usually represent ourselves, so an abandoned house could represent discarded aspects of ourselves. Since it was near my grandparent’s house it may represent aspects of my childhood. Since the rooms were almost completely clear and empty it’s likely a very, very old part of me that has almost no connection to my life today. The dead vines may represent loss and neglect. The pillars may indicate that this used to be something important to me, as pillars usually support and strengthen a structure. I think this represents a part of my childhood that was abandoned a very long time ago but never completely died. Possibly it relates to some trauma that I don’t remember now.
Whatever it was may have been abandoned, but it’s still part of me. These things still affect our lives in insidious ways, especially when there’s so much emotion involved.
I think this dream gave me a glimpse of something important, something I need to resolve. I’m going to spend some time on exploring this and trying to understand what it is.