2 more cents,
Level of achievement is not linked to confidence or vice versa.
You can have two people with same level of achievement, one with high delusional confidence and the other one with low self confidence. I mean I can see it all the time in workplace or even among friends lol.
Yes, they are distinct concepts that don’t always align. A person can achieve a great deal but still lack confidence in their abilities, or they can achieve less but have a very high level of delusional confidence - while achievement is a tangible measure of success, confidence is a subjective feeling that can be influenced by various factors, including past experiences, self-perception, and social influences.
That’s why I am struggling with mainstream or PC definitions of confidence which is you get confident by doing. Which is false in my case. I have lots or more achievements than most yet I can’t be proud of them, or I don’t get that confidence because of them. Hence why I am pushing here for self worth self confidence just by the sake of living. And delusional to balance my low confidence back. As in I need a high shot of confidence to counter my low confidence ( I already ran cycles of Sanguine and DRR fyi).