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#222

If you go back my journal, you’ll notice I did it rather often. Throwing in a microloop of an additional sub, not one I’m trying to master atm, it is.
I do it all based on intuition.
No fixed times. When my subconscious says it’s enough, it’s enough.
And sometimes I feel like “I only had two rather short loops, there’s some idle processing space and I’m a bit horny” so I’ll add 30ish seconds of RotNW or SSX.
And sometimes, just like yesterday it’s more like “I listened to late in the day, it feels a bit heavy already and I wann a sleep good and not have recon, let’s add a bit of Sanguine/Elixir”

I think it’s important to understand, that, me being basically unemployed, I don’t have this stable baseline you have.
You listen 15 seconds more and you notice your productivity went down by 10%? OK, let’s reduce listening time by 5 seconds.

I dont have this yet.

Let’s see how this develops once I got the job I desire.

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#223

That’s interesting, i actually tried 3 in a day too for once a week with 30s of mogul as the third one and i felt fine. It gave me a nice boost to my productivity. I guess it’s okay to do as long as it’s a sub that we don’t have too much recon towards.

I should try it once in a while whenever my intuition is screaming for me to use a sub like DRLD. Just for a little 5-30s loop to start with.

That’s interesting, so you have more room for recon & overload now. This is a good time to experiment with subs. Let’s see how it goes when you get the job you want too.

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#224

I’ve tried 3 titles (5min at most for each) in the same day too, based on @NatureDad 's triple stack. Usually alright too

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#225
  1. May 2024
    Listening Day 6

6:00 KB3 LB 6:25 Sanguine 0:25

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#226
  1. May 2024
    Listening Day 7
    KB3 12:50 LB

I use intuition to determine my listening time.
This time, sursprisingly, it only kicked at 12:50 with KB3, but at 2:34 with LB.

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#227

I posted a meme 5 days ago. 3 days ago it was flagged and then taken down. For racism and violence.

It was quite a shock to me. I had no bad intent with this meme. Especially nothing racist or violent.

@SaintSovereign (please read the following paragraph about racism) reprimanding me hit me like a sledgehammer. I was seriously off for at least a day. But it made me think quite a lot. About racism, violence, my emotions and SC as a community.

Racism

Am I racist? This question popped up a few times recently. Working at a gas station I interact with hundreds of people every day. I noticed I react with caution and suspicion when certain people enter the building.
But I can’t be racist, can I?
At my university where I studied catholic theology we had PhD students from all around the world: Africa, India, China, South America.
And some I considered pretty close friends at that time.
Then I was dancing Salsa/Batchata/Kizomba 6 days of the week. Again friends from all around the World. People I trusted deeply.
At my coaching class, I met a refugee from Afghanistan. When he needed support, I was there for him without any second thought or hesitation.
So why did I feel a bit racist?

Then it hit me. It’s not racism. It’s rather xenophobia. From said friends from all around the world, I know, that we are amongst the safest countries in the world. What they described as rather normal behavior in their home country is just shocking to anyone growing up savely in a Western country. Just Google for Black Axe Nigeria to get a taste of what I’m speaking about.
And I could go on and on about stuff like this.
Then we had an extrem rise in criminality since the refugee crisis in 2016.
For me, it’s not about the race, but rather the uncertainty if his strangeness means danger.

And about the racial context of the meme. For me it was just a couple. A man and a woman. If someone sees it differently, I don’t know why I’m racist.

Violence

I was bullied as a child and turned to violence as a result. That stopped 20 years ago. Since then, I never had any physical confrontations outside of sports.
Nope, not entirely true. I once stepped in when I saw a teenager beating a younger one and needed a bit of violence to stop him. That’s all.
I don’t condone violence in any form. My fiancee, the person I love the most, experienced a lot of violence in her past. From parents and partners. I would never condone violence because I see how it hurt her.
Then why did I share this meme?
Honestly? It made me think of Matthew 13,14:

You shall see, but not perceive

Did I see the image? Yes.
But I honestly only saw the joke. And that’s a hilarious one. It superposed the image to me completely. I saw it, but didn’t even perceive the violence. All I saw was a bald man (not even a black one).

My Emotions

It was a pretty interesting experience. I felt deeply hurt and like an outcast a the same time.
After the initial shock passed, I was able to take a more neutral stance. I was just observing the emotions and thinking “Its Interesting what I’m feeling”. No judgement no nothing. And so I just felt the emotions in my soul and in my body.
And they passed.
I realized that I fled into this community. I treated it as my sanctuary, that now kicked me out.
It was a good wake up call.
Whatever it is in me, I need to change. I don’t want to flee from my live in any sanctuary outside myself. Not porn, not games, not subclub. Of course Subclub is the best by far. But not in the excessive form I used it the last couple of weeks. I had days with 25+ posts.

#228

The day before I doubled my KB3 listening time was interesting. I drank lots of water that day and took a nap of almost 2 hours in the evening, went to bed earlier and slept longer the next day.

So it seems something happened that prepared me on a physical level for the doubling of the listening time. KB is a very physical title after all.

Also, I used the time were I was off the forum for another neat little project I had my head for some time now: making a new pair of shoes for Ren’fairs.

I had a pair already that I made a few years back. But the leather was rather thin so they looked cheaply. Also the sole was made out of leather it wore through pretty fast at the heel and ball and the stitching started disband.
This time I used thicker leather, added a heel of 1.5 cm and glued some rubber soles underneath to protect the stitching from wear.
The heal makes a huge difference in how the shoe feels. I’ll post some images later.

#229

I’ve used the Lifecharger app the last couple of days. Dreams.
I don’t know what it does exactly. I’ve dreamed intense before but it stopped a week earlier.
So I don’t know if it’s Dreams or my normal dream pattern in subs.

#230

May the 9th 2024
Listening Day 8
KB3 10:25 LB 3:33

#231

May 11th 2024
Listening Day 9

KB3 6:30 LB 5:00

#232

May 13th
Listening Day 10
KB3 15 minutes

First full loop of KB3.
I’m a little pissed because my custom is late. I wanted to start it tomorrow morning, but the 5 days are over and it’s 9 o’clock EST is afternoon here. So it’s probably gonna be late evening until it arrives.
Asking myself if something with he payment didn’t work as it should have. But then they would have contacted me. Probably just to much customs ordered now thanks to Synergy.

I’m working on my custom sales copy in the meantime. ChatGPT isn’t as easy as I hoped it would be. @emperor_obewan made an interesting point about writing it myself and how this will fuel growth with the custom.
It’s a greater challenge than mastering AIs, but a worthy and worthwhile one.
Lol. Worthy and worthwhile. The German words I had in mind writing this don’t sound so similar.

#233

And while I’m sitting on my terrace writing this (it’s almost 2 am, but worked till 11pm) I hear animals non stop. A horse neighing regularly and a cat fight going on for minutes.

As my fiancee said earlier “They told you to move to the countryside. They told you it’s quiet there. They didn’t tell you, Yeats only quiet until 7am”

#234

So, it was worth staying up so late. My custom finally arrived. I listened to it directly. But only 15 seconds and I felt it was enough.

#235

I realized that I’m not as driven anymore in the forum. In the past I felt like I need to read every new message, comment on everything.
Now, I can just scroll down if it’s not interesting, or think more often I can’t add more value to a discussion or rather, it’s not worth my time.

I think this is LB at work, showing me that my time is worth more than writing long texts for a small gain.

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#236

Valuing your time is one of the cornerstones of self-love.

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#237

Just got a phonecall from an unknown number with a spam warning from my phone.
Took it nevertheless.
It was a temporary employment company I reached out to over a year ago and they never called back.
Just told them I moved as soon as I heard their name and she said goodbye.

In the past I was always frightend when I got a call from a unknown number. Could be anything from health insurance, taxes or whatever telling me I’m late on some payments.
Not this time. Without any second thought I just took the call.

Can’t pinpoint which sub did this.

LB? Perhaps
KB3? no clue if it does anything like that.
GM? I’m on a washout for AA, perhaps blooming?

AA? From just the first 15 seconds?

It feels rather like Emperor. But that was last year. Or did LB just unlock this feature?

#238

May 15th
Listeinng Day 11
Abundance Architect (AA) 4:22

It’s my last listening day in this cycle, so I thought I’d give it a go. Solo. To the max. But my max. While aiming for 5 minutes, I didn’t expect to listen for so long. I looked out for signs from my subconscious that it’s enough at every moment. At 4:20 I knew it was enough. Considered going for 4:25, but instinctively knew that it’s to much.
I’m gonna enjoy a salted Bananamilk now to prevent as much as possible of the possible recon.

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#239

4:20 sounds like a good time to me, viva Germany! :herb:

Wishing the best results with your custom!

I still have so much to discover on main titles and so little ideas of where I want to go in my life that customs is still a far away thing for me, congrats on your first!!

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#240

I experienced this with Wanted and weirdly Chosen. Yes it is about self love but I also think it’s about self valuation and dare I say self preservation.

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#241

I do too. A few weeks back I wrote somewhere in here, that I’d love to build a custom, but that’s still far in the future. Then, one day, I suddenly felt, I need to build the custom now.
Of course, I didn’t do it just on a hunch. I spent quite some time pondering on my goals and possible cores and modules, including opening a questions thread about it.
It’s just, a custom is custom made, like a tailored tuxedo.
So I can make sure it has everything I need’ in my present situation.
Like Jobseeker to find a job, HoM and Lineage to heal the relationship with my mom and my dad. And not to forget, a lot of stuff for when I found the job I desire (like Tale of the dragon, Voice is the law, Cosmic Navigator, The Golden one). Also Winner Overdrive and Carpe Vitam for the drive and ambition I’m lacking at the moment.

It’s really custom tailored to my needs. That’s why I decided to get one so much earlier than I originally planned to.

Edit
420. I’m starting to see this number more often recently. I just checked. 17 days ago, I listened to KB3 for 4:20. And @Risky commented on it.
17. Another magical number for me. 4 years ago I saw it everywhere from license plates, clocks, post numbers, bus numbers to randomly tagged on trees. It got less this last 2 years. But its getting more again. Earlier I looked at my clock and it showed 17:17.

Angels, what are you trying to tell me?
Please answer over phone, messenger, email or in here. Numbers aren’t helping to much.

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