yes i deeply believe in that
but sometimes those signs of something not working , might be indicating to a change of plan and an action to do something,
and going with Plan B,
i have a lot of thoughts about this,
but thanks toby, i will put that into perspective as well
Look at the semantics : SUB - liminal, SUB - conscious. Those terms mean that whatever is happening is below your awareness. The exception is to actually feel something. That’s why it is recommended that you take action. I only knew the sub was doing what it was supposed to do when I started doing things that I would never done before and those actions felt natural to me and that was dominant without even trying. Of course I can also talk about the occasional reconciliation or overwhelm that are also proof that the sub is stirring things.
yeah man totally
dont take my words as complaining from results without action ,
but even with that im not happy with the results
but i will solve this problem very soon im very sure of that
and also ill bust myself more into action, and do better
also this is an interesting point, gonna try more stuff!
What sort of actions please? What if those actions towards your goals doesn’t align with emperor subs that your running?
hmm, i dont know if things are moving or not
the washout is going fine, no recon some i might say, but not like my first washout which was a mess
but i think things are moving a bit, not sure though but im keeping an eye for things
Something came up interestingly
I was recording a voice note on twitter, and usually ill be drowning in fear or thoughts when i do so, and it feels unnatural sometimes
But today I recorded like a champ, hmmmm that is so interesting 
it felt natural and confident
Also i felt confident at the gym too
I think things are moving
had some recon today on my washout. very slight but i know this recon very well.
until now the washout feels okay, no obvious signs
i might end the washout at the 21th or add 1 more week to it for a total of 3 weeks,
Weird Dreams today, and also i felt i could sleep more and more and more
which is a sign of recon,
Please submit a support ticket.
just did, thanks rv
Thing i noticed today which is really great made me smile too is
Before i used to fear guys in the gym for no reason, theres some weird feeling about fearing of rejection and asking if i can hop on the machine
Now its pretty much gone, this is so good! Im happy that I noticed that!!
This pretty much goes back to my trauma im pretty sure, i need to experience more situations to see how it works
Holy potato, i just ended my washout yesterday
And played 1 loop of LDU and 1 loop of Emperor overnight
Bro the nightmares and the dreams were insane
My cousins tried to stab me and blow my eyes up and kill me some weird stuff happening man
Idk why but all of my cousins tried to jump on me and kill me, bro this dream was full of action and fights lol
Bro! Might want to stay away from your cousins for some time. Just saying…
i dont see them at much , if not at all,
but the dream was super bloody and full of greed and hate very weird
but i dont like trouble lol
kinda got pissed a bit today,. just a fraction of my day tbh,.
whole day went fine, but man i hate where i live, such a garbage place
how can it be? such a souless place,
the freaking festival i was excited for just announced a shitty lineup full of cringy and biased acts
i cant believe how the organizers are so stupid, but i understand sometimes why arabs are last and always are shit at almost everything, everything reflects on their work such as events and arrangements whatever life behold, their work ethics shows their true materiel
i am an arab myself, thats why im being harsh and criticizing in this harsh way, i fucking hate it here
well thats some recon for today hahahah
also woke up today with a huge ass boner, my dick was almost exploding wtf
so thats probably emperor script working or giving me a signal, usually i dont wake up with morning woods
but when i ran emperor pretty much i could see some boners from time to time
feeling some recon just a bit,
also yesterday i was super pissed and slashed off really hard on the festival bookers, i was so mad that i deleted the tweets afterwards, i was a bit harsh? mean maybe
lol that was lots of angriness
okay so today i woke from sleeping a 10-11 hours last night, which is huge,
felt a bit tired sometimes i wake up and go back to sleep and do that again and again
but oh boi the dreams
i had 2 wet dreams it was shit i hated it, also before i had a lot of goals for LDU but now im narrowing the focus for 3-4 goals maximum things that i see as a limitation for me
one of the dreams was about one of the goals it was fun cause i just put an intention before i go to bed about the goals and i saw one of them in my dreams
2nd thing i wanna talk about is fapping, i jerked off yesterday but what i noticed i almost go no interest in porn , nothing interests me from the videos, its like i jerked off and unloaded because sexuality is kind of an animal like instinct and i just wanted to not waste the 1 hour looking through pornhub
so even searching for vids it doesnt seem interesting and im very picky i dont like any fake stuff, but thats interesting really, next time they wont be a motive, if it doesn’t feel good then why should i do it?
im a bit pissed or not pissed but confused,
ever since i discovered subs, im losing the passion with my purpose back and forth idk why the hell is happening?
i cant remember this happening when i was without subs, idk if this is a challenge to discover what really moves me and the purpose of my being, or its just stupid recon