I ran Beyond Limitless Ultima yesterday before I got into studying. Not really ideal for me waiting an hour to study especially by the time I get home from work and cook it’s almost 7pm. Gotta figure out a better way. But onto my experience, but first the specs for my audio in case @SaintSovereign or @Fire have any interest in that.
Headphones are these guys, Shure SRH840
Audio interface is this guy Audient Evo
And the headphones are being driven by this amp. Atom Amp
No idea what’s in Ultima, but this is basically my audio setup for when I mix/produce, so I figure it’s the highest clarity I’m gonna get out of anything I currently have to listen through.
Onto Beyond Limitless
So this thing was intense. I don’t think I can fully assess how it’s impacting me just from one loop because it really hit hard. At a certain point in listening I got pretty hot and it felt like there was a weird magnetic pushing sort of force around my body. Hard to describe, not airy. Felt more like things were bending.
Really strong emotional reactions. Possibly digging up fear? I found myself confronting these fears of having things be easy for me? Very bizarre. No doubt I’ve got limiting beliefs based in fear that hold me back from intelligence and all that. Some of them seem highly irrational.
Felt like I was definitely shifting into a different state. But a part of me wasn’t ready or it was too much or too much energy. I don’t really know. It was like getting a glimpse of a reality where effortless learning and creativity was possible and then shying away from it.
Around the 30 minute mark I felt like closing my eyes. Started getting musical ideas, but I wasn’t chasing them. It’s like I could hear how everything would be arranged in a song if I put it together without that usual tightness or discomfort I feel when I get stuck or anxious. Basically the bridge between the ideas and the execution seemed stronger. I didn’t get to explore this however because I needed to focus on studying. But if I had to compare it to something it’s like when I’ve drifted off to sleep or got really relaxed and ideas came to me easier. Less conscious interference and more deeper subconscious communication.
After I was done and I started studying I noticed a lot more focus and a lot less learning anxiety. I often get bogged down in future challenges and give myself an anxiety attack which kills focus. But it seemed like I was able to stay in the moment more and focus on what I needed.
I finished up a section I was watching and then just felt really tired. I don’t think it was Ultima. I think I just had a rough day and I stacked studying on top of work and it was a lot.
I can’t say I was 100% confident in being able to learn the material I was working on. But I didn’t feel quite as much dread compared to before I listened. The kind of dread that leaves me feeling like procrastinating or not being able to really focus because I’m too worried about not understanding or grasping whatever I’m learning.
All in all, very interesting. I look forward to see if harmonize with this energy more. My experience yesterday felt more like jumping on a bullet train, I didn’t feel ready to go all the way.