Looks like I have finally cracked the code of how to use subliminal for more potent effects on myself & my personality.
I am on this site for the last 1 year or less & read a lot of threads about journals & objectives. I also used several subliminal stacks in this last year & got benefits. But my fundamental problem of procrastination is still there.
After thinking about & reading all attempts by fellow users I now come up with this stack with a solid mental attitude.
Many will argue that the stack I have chosen is very hard & difficult But believe me guys I know What I am doing. By thinking & journaling a lot I have come to this conclusion. The most I will lose is a cycle & a few days & a hell lot of recon But I don’t think anything like that will happen. This will be my safest way of discovering myself because right now I want to look deep inside myself. Especially My thinking pattern & blockages which are stopping me from getting things done.
Over the years, I have learned a lot about myself & every other day people meet me, greet me & tell me I have changed a lot as a person.
All these mean a lot but a fundamental void remains that is still not being fulfilled just because of negligence & ignorance. I am now fully focused on that & want to overcome every small blockage which hindered between me & my success.
After delaying & procrastinating a chunk of my life i.e 15 years I finally want to wake up & perform toward success & don’t want to look back.
Yes, I was sleeping because my vision was not clear & I was living life very randomly but I clearly know what I want from my life & more importantly how to live it.
In past, I tried revenge as a motivation
trauma as a motivation
heartbreak as a motivation
imagination as a motivation
seduction/game as a motivation
but all fail or work temporarily, What I need now is something different, I need a particular spark which is a key to unlocking my potential, the key which I was trying to find all my life.
The key, The spark is just within me & to find it, I have to go deep inside me, inside all trauma the key is hidden, I just have to find it and unlock the greatness. For that, I have to wake up & keep on discovering myself & look far inside.
No stress
No Palpitation
No Negativity
No Scarcity
No fear
Only Love
A lesson hard learned. All these years I sabotaged myself by eating junk, PMO’ed, Watching TV Shows, Movies, hurting myself, angriness, violent behavior, and keeping enmity & jealousy enviousness in myself, by keeping failure as something as a crown so that I will overcome all these shit one days & people talk about it.
How did I overcome all these despite all these odds, where there was no need, I keep on doing all these shitty things. Instead, I wish I should have chosen love.
Love is so powerful I didn’t know that, I only thought love is between a girl & boy. But love is far more than that. Self-love is the biggest thing that I was lacking the whole year & I experienced it for the first time with CoW.
I can’t make something a habit & routine until I add a reward to it, Which I have successfully added into
PMO’ing
browsing phone
in doing all nonproductive things, I have added rewards except the real things.
In the real thing (my work) I have added all things which are the opposite of love, of course, the loop won’t be complete & I will get negativity, fear & scarcity. Because I never practiced & enjoy the process.
Love is what I needed now.
My goal was never high before this forum or sub-community. But now it is. before I just wanted to earn for the sake of completing all day-to-day bills. But now I wanted to reach the ultimate height of richness.
I underestimated myself in every way possible in the past but Now I will remove all those thinking patterns & blockages which will come between me & my success.
This time I am not relying on outside motivation but finding my own motivation my willpower which is already inside me. I don’t need any other outside things to get successful. The power is already inside I just need to scrap & find it but need to keep going until I find it.
What makes this journey different from all my previous journeys?
This time in this journey I will try to connect my conscious & subconscious mind. Before this journey, my approach was different, despite listening to subliminal I was relying on my conscious activities but never looking enough at my subconscious activities. But this time I will, This time I will try to connect, For every blockage which will come during this process, I will simply realize, write & will try to remove it.
Sub Day 1
I always found how washout days are my blooming days, especially the last 4th & 5th because, in those times, I realize the sub-process greatly. So was my washout day 5.
My focus on work was great I complete 5 sessions & found these things.
Blockages
- getting call = I keep on working & ignored
- watching the remaining time
- checking the phone in between
- negative thinking
- fear
- job insecurities (scarcity)
- Feeling Overwhelmed
- Wants time to finish quickly
all this shows my disinterest in work, but the good thing is I kept on going
After 12 I started listening to subs
felt nothing after listening
had bowel issues
( i keep on waking up between my 8 hours of sleep for bowel, this shows there is ongoing stress & anxiety in my body despite taking depression medicine)
had very vivid dreams
my sister marriage
( i missed her marriage on purpose, I didn’t know, I felt bad inside me, though on a conscious level I felt nothing, I call her in the morning & had a good conversation)
some soldiers spying and invading other countries & I was helping them
my family removed me from my home
I imagined buying a new home
I have an exam etc were my dreams
All these dreams are very realistic & describe my past, you can say Dragon reborn already started working & releasing all these traumas, If one loop in one night can bring all these things to the surface, I don’t know what will happen in the next 2 months for stage 1.
Zero productivity since morning, I delayed because of this thread, I thought I will start after writing this, which shows how big procrastinated person I have become.