Becoming My Chosen Self

[Michel]

Going to start a new journal with Chosen and CFW as long term lead stack. I’m ready for it.

I’m unusually positive about myself since adding OG Chosen. My long term goal now is to leverage my natural self with the title that fits me the best out of the whole catalogue - that’s Chosen. I also have some healing and inner reinforcement left to do, so CFW comes in.

First thing I’ve realised is that embracing the Chosen life doesn’t mean aligning with everything! Taking up other people’s causes because I want to be seen as “the good guy” - trying to befriend people that don’t fit me is exhausting… Chosen is giving me the permission slip to allow more of me to be me and to lean into my unique vibe rather than let society tell me to grind and hustle a 2.4 lifestyle.

Honourable mentions for Wanted DreamBoi, Phoenix and LBFH for putting me on this new life path.

[Michel]

CFW
Chosen
4 mins

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Feeling quite exposed yet comfortable. Think the safety catch is off. Whatever I built as a hiding defence mechanism is gone. This is now raw, unprimed Michel without the walls and legacy sabotage patterns.

Phoenix did a great job flipping the script. But now I’m empty, what fills the space? More chasing validation or building actual life skills?

And yet, life is good. Really good. I’m not super wealthy, my career and creativity is on purpose. I’m a failure according to family and society, but I’m not running for society. All I need to be is vibey.

My goals are quite simple:

• Vibe
• Shine
• Teach
• Heal
• Attract
• Boundaries
• Less guilt

They all align with who I am, built differently yet 100% the Chosen archetype.

No more dimming lights, no matter how many ego bros feelings get hurt. No more feeling inadequate because some students are disruptive. No more wounds driving my behaviour, no more guilt tripping and keeping quiet to serve others who don’t give a shit. It’s on.

(Oh and attraction is covered but Chosen but this will happen on my time too. Creativity first)

[Michel]

Chosen
CFW
4m

Feeling quite regal with real presence and the feedback from the field reflects this, like other people are treating me with a lot more respect. For once, I don’t feel deep shame or that I’m under anyone at all, in fact sometimes I feel a bit arrogant in that I stand firm in who I am and there’s no negotiation. My happiness and esteem are within and no one but me can spoil it. Even negative thoughts and doubts just don’t exist for me.

The Chosen influence is mad - I’ll be alone somewhere in a cafe, restaurant or somewhere civic and the place will fill up with people - one time I sat in a dead café with a few disgruntled patrons, 30 minutes later the place will be absolutely heaving with younger people. That’s the kind of influence I’ve been hiding forever trying to fit into society.

The next step - get famous, get seen.

[PurpleRT73]

It’s been years since I last saw your journal entries. Makes me proud you still putting in the work and going not only forward, but inward as well. I’ll keep an eye out on your posting!

[ABC333]

I don’t know if you’ve seen but that was a thing on social media. All these people saying they go places and there’s nobody there. But when they show up all of the sudden it gets busy. It’s been awhile since I’ve seen one but I think they were actually saying that’s how you know you’re chosen. Or of course you get the ones saying that just shows we’re in a simulation and all the other stuff, lol. I tend not to buy into whatever meanings people put on stuff like that, but yea, it’s a thing.

My first time running Chosen, I didn’t get much of the inner stuff consciously. Saw lots of far out external results. I wish I would have stuck with it to get to the internals to go with the externals. lol.

[Michel]

CFW 4m
Chosen 4m

CFW is still tiring me out. 4m is enough to send me to sleep, that’s without Chosen OG on top. But I feel like CFW is the one building me up from the inside.

CFW gives the ability to bounce back from anyone that is a little bit ignorant - they aren’t a reflection of what I am, so I can just dismiss these people much easier. I now know who I am. It gives me enough structure to withstand nonsense like that (I’m in my own world most of the time anyway).

The challenge is now Chosen - I haven’t used the leadership part yet at work, but it’s there in little ways, like the royal aura, the giving way deference in public and that weird café situations that @ABC333 entioned. Didn’t know it was a thing back in the day lol. Stepping out of the clouds to shine is still something I would like to get more comfortable with.

Attraction is still there, I see women continuing to hair flip on sight, be surrounded by women nearby and at the same time still feel full enough as a person. That’s the aim for the near future, how do I hold up under different conditions.

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@PurpleRT73 @ABC333 abc thanks for the wishes

[Michel]

How do I cope with the new status? Very well, it turns out…

Found a hater on the train, I was dressed smartly admittedly. The impressive thing was when I saw it, I dismissed it straight away out of my mind and didn’t even acknowledge the idiot from the corner of my eye. Then I went on with the rest of my day unbothered.

That’s all the work from DR Phoenix did. It doesn’t hurt me when someone looks down or moves away, it amuses me because I’m not hiding myself anymore, I dare to shine and these attempts to pull me down from people that inspire nothing are pathetic. The fact that Chosen fits me like a glove, the acceptance of the archetype and the aim to be all of it is making me a lot stronger within. Lots and lots of inner self worth work that aligns with being a leader.

Moreover creative work is becoming more and more a part of my life - the repetitive 9-5 grind isn’t designed for me. I’d rather draw, paint and indulge in ADHD thought . It doesn’t make money however, which is why I’m hopeful @SaintSovereign followed his instincts to create New Chosen with wealth scripting.

[ABC333]

Interesting that you’re also the creative type. I got kind of interested in ultimate artist since it’s for creatives and has wealth scripting for that. Though I’m not a drawer or painter. More of a creative idea generator, fun posting writer type I guess. Definitely don’t feel like I’m a 9-5r either.

[Michel]

CFW
Chosen
4m

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Almost forgot to play any loops since life feels positively chill. Not sure why there’s a little dread before teaching still (stage fright?)

Speaking of which, I helped a student who sadly felt ostracised in their group because they’re quite outspoken and it was a wholesome moment. Because I realised in that moment that my own mammoth journey of overcoming abuse, rejection and self consciousness prepared me for this. I was the right person in the right time and helped someone recognise their own self, which fulfilled my soul.

I just wish there were more hours and better paid…!

[Michel]

Asc Stabiliser 1m

The Stack breaker. And I’m glad I ran 1m because I’m:

• Standing outside, existing, rooted to my spot, not shrinking to avoid others’ more stable selves

• Seeing others flinching, bracing, getting concerned etc and having no desire to flinch myself

• Self worth being present, not placating others fears and prejudices. The right to exist. My own nerves are stabilising too from this kind of social bracing.

I also tidied up my workspace and studio, streamlining the materials I need and storing those I don’t use, finally cleaning the paint water and organising the space. Interesting start…