Day 19 - second last day of running this stack. Bittersweet feeling. Today tried out some masturbation again, noticed my orgasm quality has improved massively, but in terms of lasting long, letting the energy flow and rejuvenate me, also in terms of hardness there’s still a long way to go. Post nut I felt kinda low and purposeless throughout the day. Also a lot of feelings of what to do next coming up, too many areas of my life to fix all at once. Feels like time is slipping away from me. Scary thoughts, difficult to even understand. I know I should be focusing on other areas and optimising them first rather than running behind a really cool social life, women, relationship, but a part of me can’t help but feel massive fomo that I am always stuck on just trying to improve myself and mostly just end up going round and round in circles (have been trying since a few years, have grown but far away from where I’d hoped I would be), whilst others have already succeeded and are making the most of their life, or don’t care and are just making the most of their youth. I wish I could also but I think I put a lot of pressure on myself. Its not even because of my family pressure, I’d like to believe I’m past that, it’s just that I really feel that I have been given too many gifts to just be average and spend my life indulging in material pleasures, I feel like I am meant to be more than that. I truly believe I have a huge purpose to do something big, something that justifies all this suffering, or else it just all might seem meaningless. But more than anything I know I am capable, and I want to prove it to the world, and to myself. I want to transcend mediocrity and step into my true power and manifest my desires and goals. I just cannot figure out how to fit all of them into the little time I have left.
Keep in mind the Instagram Effect or whatever it’s called now. You only see the stuff they allow seen in public. Comparison to others won’t serve you in the long run.
Yes I agree, but I also think as a human it’s really hard not to compare. Especially when you are still on the beginning stages of the journey and looking up to everyone else who might be or atleast seem at the top or miles ahead of you.
Day 20 - Had a huge motivation boost, some david goggins energy for a bit. Tried an at home exercise routine but the rest of the day the energy ran out. Also ended up having a cheat meal and feeling super guilty. Can feel effects of my next potential stack running into my subconscious just by thinking of them without ever having used the audios, interesting effects. Looking forward to them. Reflecting a lot, considering so many different audios, but I think I might be clear as to what I need.
Day 21 - Last day (ran a loop of AC, Diamond, BDLM) for one last time. Tomorrow onwards washout. Somehow I controlled my urges to cheat even though it was getting really really difficult. I think I have really abused the other energy audios and my body has gone for a complete frenzy lol. Need to use it more responsibly and put in efforts myself also, rather than just spamming them and being dependant on them. Also ended up taking substances yesterday and had a really reflective journey, lots came up, in preparation for my next cycle after the washout.
Unfortunately I forgot all the reflections 
. Going to have to try to recall it.
For now its been a good cycle so far. Towards the middle I was tempted to switch my stack multiple times, but I am happy I stuck with it and stayed consistent. Have seen some results, much better orgasms, a bit more control in being able to measure my excitement levels, however still a long long way to go. Hoping to come back to this stack soon once I have worked on some other areas and then finally maximise the results from the subs. Until then 