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#864

Down the line yes, but from my slight testing of stage 2, I would say true sell/rich is still more important to incorporate for sales. Need more data on that, but while there are great modules that would be beneficial for sales, I still feel it’s probably more optimal for executives and entrepreneurs who are in a position to capatalize and benefit from the specific skill scripting. Doesn’t hurt, and had some benefits, but I think a true sell custom goes a longer ways.

Personally, I need to get the bread up to capitalize on entrepreneurship and business opportunities, so still need my emphasis on making more money via sales.

For sure, a second sales role or a bigger opportunity is going to be nessscary down the line, but I do enjoy that this role offers a base, decent earning capacity (5-8K consistently, not higher, but now lower), and allows me bandwidth to knock out my degree so I qualify for higher level roles and positions.

Still though, EOG 1 is doing quite a bit for me. If you have limiting beliefs/structures, you can give yourself all rhe positive affirmations and guidance in the world, but it’s as if it’s blocked and can’t express itself. Maybe wait until you have down time or are on vacation to run it, but I’m telling you man im feeling next level lol.

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#866

Great to see you @Invictus
not sure why your asking here thought lol

If your QTKS sub is wealth related it probably auto-manifested in my journal

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#867

Bro I think I was slightly a bit too out of it to really see where I was posting :sob::sob::sob:

I’m sorry for hijacking it man :rofl:

But nah, it’s not wealth focused, but I am running RoW here and there these days.

Had way too many changes, started my new job at QNB, which if you research about, you’ll find out it’s the most valuable company in Qatar, so I’m trying to get settled here, and already got a change in my contract for a bit higher pay within 2 weeks of starting :rofl: apparently I appeared to be more qualified than my CV, so my boss and director sent an adjustment request to HR.

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#868

Some updates and musing

Despite two weeks of mind bending slump, I started REALLY strong in January and finished very strong

(I’m beginning to think mountain break/plateau transcendent in combination ith something around my current level of development/ unconscious intent have me bringing things down to the wire. Rather than consistently flowing or building, and then breaking through to the next level. I think I need to ‘healing’ re-orientation around this.)

My brother is a highly accomplished coach who is very intuitive with energy, and he perceived my manifestation and performance energetically as silver strands grasping and pulling in while chipping away at the rock until a breakthrough and he perceived the highest performer on the team currently as a golden glow that draws everything to it. He said my root-energetic base has a lot of shadow and fear that is interfering, and the other performers are super strong and undiluted.

I know this sounds funny, but he knows nothing about the subs I am running or this person, and what shows up in her lead flow is beyond the consistency and higher quality. Skill wise I used to be better but she slightly better now I’d say. Her experience is very different at the job, she never sweats it, always knows something could is coming, I joke I’d feel like she would if I get her lead flow. Does she create it with her indifference and attitude? Is she getting favoritism, is is something else? I don’t know but I’ve know started to build a relationship to the CEO and I will get clarity on this enough to shift it or let it go fully

My brothers analogy has me drawn to trying EOG again.

Anyway, I finished January at a higher bonus tier in the last 5 months, which was great, and after net revenue was tied with the highest performer as of late. However, her close % and experience week to week is significantly better.

I realize part of my attachment to comparison is a greater sense of winning and performance and differentiation when I do well. Part of it is the money and part of it is the space that opens up when I’m performing on target.

I’ve had times of trying to detach my well-being from my performance but it doesn’t work, it just fxxing sucks when things are not going well or as well and it pisses me off when I’m doing the best or as well as I want to and I’m fully at peace with while at this job that’s the way it will be.

I am open to being wrong, and I think having more things working in my life or that I care about would start to shift that, but even when I’m firing on all cylinders a slow week just annoys me.

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#869

Conscious Venting:

The fallout and not being ‘on the wire’ for my consulting work
has me very checked out in that field. I was going to use the space to create something new, but I found myself very checked out.

I’m overall a little checked out these days. I’ve been recovering from being a bit sick for going on two weeks now, so I have not gone to the gym much.

I feel very dialed out of my purpose, my progress, my integrity, and being on top of my stuff.

Bad habits have crept back in; I’ve let go of good habits. My base is totally different but I can very easily slip into a kind of funk/depression for a day or so when I can’t resolve anger or I feel in an impossible situation.

sub wise, I introduced ROW and I had some very interesting epiphanies around money and may right more on that. It felt it unlocked ASBR for a bit.
but I think EOG is what I need to test for my current goals and paradox resolution

I definitely feel the short cycle of impatience for a lot to get done and things not working right.
I also crave getting my body in great shape and function again.
I go in and out of addressing that. But the amount of weight I gained is getting too much for my own comfort at this point.

My biggest internal blocks right now.

  1. I’m not consistent in any new activities or engagements that can create new income pathways
    2 I can’t get over how angry I am at the fact that I cannot consistently have faith and have the quality of flow to perform well with ease while others can. I always turn out performance but I work way harder, I go weekends when I need,. I could be just needing to be right about being wrong but I recognize quality and I just consistently get NO WHERE NEAR the opportunities of other performers. I don’t understand it, they say i’ts random, it just eats at me, that I do as much or better with less, but the times’ when I’ve had that , the enjoyment at my job and how big my months can get is insane. I"'m either perceiving something that is accurate, and there is something to do about it, I am misperceiving, and there is nothing to do about it, or I perceive it accurately, and there is still nothing to do about it. I’m such a victim about this and need to transform it.

I reviewed my tracking and saw I’m doing a sale a day, which is very solid, and despite a refund outside my control, I’m having a solid week, but I have colleagues getting 3-4 sales a day every day. So its very hard to me to feel good about that still. This is where I think EOG Stage 1 will be useful to me, recognizing the abundance and what is working.

  1. I can just tell I’m operate on 10% currently. I just have this strong resistance to being or doing more, it’s like I can’t be bothered. Definitely hitting some recon or cores.

Wanting to journal to move the energy. I’m sure its a bit of mess and just complaint writing. But that’s my journal sometimes :slight_smile:

#870

Order a name embedded HOM with NWE

thinking of ordering another with New Status and another with New Results Enhancing Experience

#871

Switching True Sell Back to V2

V3 has been solid, but I believe that V2 is more streamlined.

V2 is NWE, but there is no synergy modules

V1 still may be the most effective.

#872

I’ve been curious: do you have a meditation or mindfulness practice? Many high performers have a practice, and it seems like your coworker is able to slip into a flow-state (less beta brain wave dominance/overthinking) more naturally than you have been as of late.

Also, I understand the need to vent, but consider whether or not you’ve been over-identifying with what has been going bad for you. We re-create what our thoughts gravitate towards, after all. It could be beneficial to allow the energy to flow though means like breathwork or vipassana than permitting the frustrations to persist.

#873

I don’t currently

I am a high performer, and I was at the top of the team last year.
This other person is my friend who brought me into the company and she was number 2 last year.
Now, she is number one the last couple of months

I have zero-overthinking on calls-my calls are laser and super flowing. I can always improve my performance, with subtle things but her edge on me is 95% lead quality and about 5% improved skill-in that she has master ‘pushing’ people without pushing them better than I have.

That said I believe a meditation practice would be very beneficial for overall well-being and emotional regulation around these issues and could only further improve performance.

As for venting- generally, I have asked as a policy not to have coaching or unsolicitied advice in response to this because the journal of conscious venting is just for that, not for resolving anything but I appreciate your input and I agree that I can slip into over-identifying with what is not working and when I have a pause and look at the bigger picture, many things can be working extraordinarily well. My turn to what’s focus on the off is purely a competitive response.

I also agree that vipassna for allowing the energy to flow is a great idea and a way of allowing things to dissolve and move on.

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#874

I’ve been following your thread for a while since you 100% are a high-performer - you provide a lot of value which I am appreciative of.

And I apologize for the unsolicited advice (it’s an empathetic response I have for wanting people to feel better, but I realize that getting things off your chest is needed for that sometimes).

I’m excited to see how your journey continues to unfold! Thanks for your response, it gave me some things to think about on my end too.

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#875

ROW created an interrupt point that got things flowing again. I only ran about 3 minutes total, but it was enough. I ran it on February 1st and 3rd.

It got me fully back in the flow of abundance and gave me the insight to switch back to V2 of True Sell Black

I 'm running ASBR/HOM custom True Sell Black V2 now
I added 30 seconds of Mind’s Eye custom and 10 seconds Khan Stage 2 the night before last

Broke my sales record yesterday 7 sales one day 40% close rate. I sold over $140,000 and in one day will be around $11,000 in personal income from one day of work.

But the biggest part is that the energy of abundance was banging on my door. I could barely handle the inflow. I still had to sell, but my whole demeanor was shifted and uplifted. Khans dominance and conquest with ease of results seemed to synergize as well. I experienced the wealth of Khan, which was just super chill and great with people, but incredibly connected and on point, with no forcing, manipulating, or reacting.

This gives me something to experiment with. I think just a smidge of Khan in my mix really enhances things. I don’t know about fully incorporating it in the stack although given recent experiences it is calling to me more.

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#876

Recent experience

A girl I was seeing wants to focus on finding a partner for family and I didn’t want that so things ended. It was a wake up call. She lives 10 minutes away and was crazy about me, just wanting to fix and S the D all the time. We did really fun things together and she’s super cute, petite, half latina half middle eastern and into anime, fantasy, -tons of stuff I like.

It really bummed me out even though the situation made sense and there is nothing to do.

I was surprised at my reaction, I had started to run Primal Romance in microloops around her and really started to see things getting more serious.

I spent a week kind of just not caring about anything, my work and sales continued to flow, and I forced myself into stronger self care. I’ve been to gym 6 days a week and hitting barbells again in addition to my new routine. I’ve also started taking Mike Mahlers Aggressive Strength Booster- only 1 pill a day even though the recommended dose for my weight is 2-3. If I did more, I’d need to take his or an anti-estrogen. It’s an insane supplement, I use it as a pre-workout along and it completely starts shifting me into more masculinity.

I have a mix of feeling grief to annoyance and anger, like why waste a fxxing second more on this caring about this.

I rarely want this to progress and did here, but the situation did not make sense to continue.

Sometimes, I feel sharing creates more of the results I am looking for, and sometimes, I feel it derails the energy and 'pop’s the bubble. Could be superstition

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#877

Perhaps like Icarus I reached to far to fast and my wings melted
with recon and more Khan stage 2 starting to cause to much challenge (just another 10 seconds)
or perhaps there is some energetic truism in sharing shifting things
or perhaps the snap back after peak
things ‘feel’ like they are rapidly falling apart and resetting.
I’m nervous, but will wait and see.

I’m having fun with journaling with drama.

I’ll wait until the end of the week before an appraisal of the growth and results

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#878

Niles mentioned the self-worth scripting in EOG, clearing up a lot about entrepreneurship.
I am excited to hear that is a factor and will likely go fully in on EOG soon.

I"ve added Khan Stage 2 meaningful back into my stack. I’ve been doing so well this month that I added it in, and my results have been bonkers. I can feel the dominance of Khan blending into sales success.
I need to run just enough to not trigger recon, or anger. I"ve also been running Mind’s Eye custom.
So I have 4 sub stack, but 2 are microloops.

I’ve also been to the gym 6 days a week consistently. I’m back on Mike Mahlers ASTB and EC and loving it.

Since I have a week out and I’m almost double what the next best person on the team is, and closing in on hitting a $15K monthly bonus-to make a $40K+ plus month in person income, I’ve added more Khan Stage 2.

It’s very clear when I cross the threshold into recon. The righ amount of Khan seems to act like nitrous oxide for sales.

This whole month I’ve been processing a lot of grief and being ‘down’ but it has not effected my performance at all.

Today is the first day, after running too much subs without a day off I am in any real recon and just feel insecure, sensitive, mixed with a f-the world attitude, but I know it will pass.

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#879

On Khan Stage 2
it’s hitting the point where I’m seeing my foundation is week. I’m also seeing I’ll need to run TB to meaningfully use Khan.
The right dose of Khan feels like I’m growing from the inside out.
To much feels like I’m wearing an ill fitting suit or a crown too big for my head.

I’m feeling the pain and insecurity of all my failed romantic endevours
where I feel not enough as a man. Where I feel betrayed, jealous, etc
The amount of pain I experience around dating and relationships used to be tremendous
I think that’s why I only ever focused on sleeping with people and moving on, and why it’s been easy to focus on work and avoid that. I was terrified to be rejected or have someone uninterested outside of a ‘flash in the pan’ scenario.

I more recently started to fall for someone that ended because our life goals were not aligned. But it triggered an insane amount of mistrust for me. I feel like a total nube or novice emotionally with this, and am excited to grow into something healthier.

It’s interesting to feel despite my success, woman, I have friends who are incredibly mature, professional, smart, growth-oriented women find men who are ripped or extremely successful extremely attractive. They won’t date someone just for those reasons, but all else being given it’s clear how much that appeals to them. And part of me feels like those men have ‘more to offer’ I think that’s really unhealthy thinking and I can’t remember the last time I though like that-maybe 10 years ago or so. I think having great body and fitness and real success are both incredible attributes that can go a long way but who you are as a man and how she feels around you means more than anything else.

On previous versions of Khan, I felt my impact more than internally, people showed deference, respect, got out of my way, same with Emperor. That is not the case with ZP with Emperor and Khan Love and War. It all feels internal and then it hits a point of solidity that can be projected out. This is tempered by HOM and True, Which create openness, but even when I was off those, I felt the same thing.

It also could be older tech- even Emperor Daddy gets instant external results such as reverence and positive respect when stepping aside and offering assistance. A super cutie at the gym even approached me once at Emperor Daddy to get her to film her doing sexy movements.

I need to run a sub that addresses masculinity and/or fitness to continue to grow where I need to now.
I’m torn between Khan or WB or even just lots. Emperor Daddy is not a sustainable move at this time. Just focusing on money or even more specifically my current role is easy, but it’s time to grow again, even as I grow in my role.

WB would support the physical transformation, and it’s more sustainable in large doses with my current stack but Khan has so much of what I want. LOT would streamline things as well. I am curious about trying a Khan name embedded with only an NWE addition. Although Khan I am feeling the power and isolation more.

Possible custom options
Khan Stage 2+The Will to Power
Khan Stage 2+ Minds Eye
Khan Stage 2+ BDLM

WB+The Will to Power

I’m seeing this woman for the final time tomorrow. I’ve run WB and Emperor Daddy around her to great effect, Khan too. Not sure for our last meeting. I feel like a young person again trying to get it right but with more perspective. I have not liked something like this in over 8 years, so I definitely don’t want it to end, but it doesn’t make sense to continue, given our goals. I don’t think I can be just friends with her.

I was feeling a lot of this, before running Khan Stage 2 but that is definitely contributing to question how I want to define myself in this world

I’m feeling very distracted by all this and a little figuring it all out in life again, but so much is clearer on what I want as well.

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#880

@Jouissance

What’s your take?

Best sub for reconciling the end of a relationship healthily or having it respark?

Primal Romance has been amazing for taking things deeper and adds a related element to any sub

was thinking Khan Stage 2 with PR or Emperor Daddy with PR?

Khan can be intimidating but its also fantastic with owning one’s self

Or maybe no PR because it creates a longing around a partner.

What are your thoughts?

Part of this means being independent and whole regardless, but also being sexually attractive enough to have the desire for things to continue, the communication and relatedness enough where it makes sense.

@Niles would love your take here too

#881

Just curious and eager to learn…

Why are you using KHAN ST2 instead of ST 4?

Great results, by the way

#882

Thank you so much
I love getting to share about the income from sales success and am grateful subs have helped me so much on this journey.

I hope to report 10x and new results soon too.

Couple reasons
Stage 1 is too unstable for sales or so I thought
Stage 3 too action-oriented around romance
Stage 4 is too dense

Stage 2 seemed perfect. But also I don’t accept stage 3 and 4 yet, in my tests I get glimpses but they don’t quite work, stage 2 was working wonderfully, although I made need to go back to Stage 1 TB to more fully integrate it.

As @Jouissance says, if you reject Khan Stage 2-4 go back to stage 1.
Rejecting the stage to me, means it either feels superficial like an ill fitting suit or brings up too much insecurity and unresolved issues.

Stage 2 has been fantastic and synergizing with NWE but also now brining up a lot I see I need to clear more to fully launch this ship Khan style.

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#883

I’ve been running Khan at night and my customs in the day

I test 10 seconds Khan during sales -NOOO lol

I will not be running it during work hours. It’s fine in the night with a day to process.

I mean, I can still perform, but I enjoy the job way less. I don’t have patience for people.

I’m finding Khan is tapping into a darkness as well that I think needs clearing.

My plan as of now, is to close out with month with Khan Stage 2

Then go back to ASBR/HOM custom with TSB custom and mind’s eye custom

If the month is flowing I will reintroduce total breakdown.

In the meantime I will create a name-embedded custom Khan stage 4 with NWE for the future,
a Khan Stage 2 custom with TWTP or BDLM both will create chillness in Khan that will be beneficial.

If I can maintain or exceed sales while running Khan I’d like to finally do it 1 3 week cycle of each stage at least.

Then in mid summer or fall I will switch to my Khan Stage 4 NWE custom and then go all in on EOG after I save another and/or invest another 100K

#884

Depends on if you want to focus more on emotional healing, but if you are looking to respark interest and potentially move things forward still, Wanted/WB worked really well for me.

After my previous LTR ended, I ran OG Wanted for about 6 months and during that time was able to re-establish an entirely new “roster” throughout the week; and also got my ex who dumped me back over a couple times per week and trying to get back in the relationship with me.

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