Why won’t you stick to Ascension and PCC? That would resolve all that crap you struggle with on a daily basis.
It’s self-sabotaging, perhaps. Adding LBfH should eradicate that.
You just keep yourself in that mire by not running subs that would solve the single most crucial thing (you just described) that holds you back, hinders your progress, and aborts any other goal achievement. The source of your constant failure is inconsistency. Perhaps stemming from your ADHD. Build a system that would “force” you to stick with your stack, perhaps. Or ask SC to block all the other subs in your account, delete all of them on your device, and keep your stack only. Dunno, James. 
Edit:
The best result of running Ascension I’ve got:
I’ve got to the point where being “alpha” on the deeper levels of my psyche and in social situations feels like my second nature. Some people still try to show me no respect but I cut them short fast or choose to ignore them utterly. Their slights cannot reach me. I feel that thanks to my stack I’m changing into a guy who chooses what he sees and hears (sic!). I’m almost completely non-reactive to toxicity and negativity, and I choose a way I want to respond to them myself. It’s also way easier to keep my own shit together and choose how I want to respond to my inner states, thoughts and feelings, instead of letting them drive me however they want.
I feel a bit apathetic (or sth like that) but it may be a result of the better self-control or it’s been caused by running my stack every day for almost one month. I think I need to take a short break on the weekend. We’re going to see since it’s Tuesday only.
It took around 1-2 months to get there.